Sunday, February 28, 2010

Wiser or Older or Younger??

Last Friday was my birthday. It was coincidence, it falls on Maulid Nabi holiday. As thought it would be a wonderful day for me but it was not. Why i say so?

The night before, i was husbandless from 7.50-7.00 am the next morning, we only met for 3-4 minutes just to pass out housekey at his office. Well, this is the life married to a an operation guy. Now I understand how my other friends who married to operation of offshore guys felt. But it was my birthday!!! Being a non romantic husband, i would not expect any flowers or cake or card or the least prezen on my birthday. And still...my last 27th birthday was the best I ever had after i married...and it was way too far from our motherland...i guess our life is way better when we were away...owh..what's that mean???...eheheh...

I only have him in the morning when he called me to open the door and I felt a lil bit frustrated and just keep silent and went back to sleep with my kids...out of sudden, he handed me a gift which I knew earlier...but i was puzzled if he was really buying me that thing because I know..I myself will never buy that thing but only dreaming of having it....that's my husband...he would buy things that I feel too much too spend on...anyway..his money is my money too...ahaks..

I did not do anything while at home alone on my birthday since my husband need to be at work on the afternoon and only returned home late at night when i was asleep with my kids...I even locked my room door but let the living hall lamp switched on as whenever my husband is not in the house, I am afraid sleeping in a dark house.

How do i feel when I turned 28 the other day? Hmm, nothing much as i can say, but i feel a lil bit more focus in my daily job at office and home. I started to feel thati need to be extra cool at all time and learn to accept anything that come over me.Life is too precious, then, I will try to make my life as contented as it will be.That is my will.

I learned to appreciate what i have now and keep it safely as I can. Because I understand it is not easy to have what I have now if I don't take care of what I have.I am worry of losing what I have..don't you feel the same too???

I dont know how do i look for now. Some friend said I am chubbier than i was but being a mother of 2..harusla kan....and i just 3 months delivered a newborn...but i can see wrinkles on my faces already...o..o...yeah i feel my body is getting old...I am into 30s now..owh..and lost of thing i did not enjoy yet...hmmm...need to find time and space for myself before i turned 30...yeahh....but my i feel wiser as I am no more easily to get angry with kids and even with the tiredness i feel everyday...i still manage to do the house chores a bit here and there...and i started to feel happy about it...oh..do I sound too motherly???...o..o...

Deep inside..i feel young...hmm..this a little secret but still I want to put on here...hehe...i feel like....like....hmmm...'biarlahhh rahsia...'hehehe....

Thursday, February 25, 2010

What a week!!

I've blessed with an amount of work at the office. All need urgency and was tired as I used my left brain capacity to the max. Tight with my pumping schedule which for the time being, i only manage to pump twice a day at office which the amount is much more than what is being consumed by Asif during the day. Alhamdulillah..My style of maintaining breastfeeding my kids is to think such as, my body will produce at least the amount the baby is consuming during the day. If I got more than usual, that is a blessed for me from God. Alhamdulillah..

However, come to the shocking thing, Asif's babysitter claimed that Asif refuse to be fed. I wonder why as I've practice at home and he can drink up to 3 oz per session. Yess, he will be a bit fussy in the morning but after a while, when he already comfortable, he still can drink. I am not sure how his babysitter handle him as Im not the kind who asked a lot as I assumed she must know the basic as I've told her, feed Asif each time for 3 oz. Suprisingly, she offered everytime Asif was crying. Anyway, baby cries mean many different thing. It is not always they cry for milk. I've done my research and I understand why his babysitter just did not get it. She has no child of her own. So, i plan to give some time to make use with baby. The first week, Asif was OK, very contented and then come to the 2nd week, which was after Chinese New Year, things changed...she tend to break my rule. I've warned her and Alhamdulillah she can accepted. Know why? She followed advise from her sis in law..OMG..I have two kids in hand..and her in law only has one which is only 5 months old..I was really dissapointed that day that make me losing my appetite on that evening. She put my baby in the swing which I've told her I don't want Asif to be put in swing to sleep. And without asking my permission, she changed the bottle nipple into the cheap one(sorry to say this but the nipple i bought has served it purpose on Aqil and am going to do the same with Asif), Besides of that, I am afraid of nipple confusion as well. Then, one day, I've found out Asif's nappy a lil bit pinkish and I asked around, it was a sign of lack of fluid..and today, it happened again...and guess what..out of 3 bottles each with 3 oz that I supplied, only 2 were used...and it was from 7.00 to 5.45 pm...and when i arrived, I heard Asif crying and my heart was.....but i hold it...

Today i was on my own, picked up Asif then picked up Aqil, put the in the carseat each. I drove cautiously as i bring two precious in the car. Alhamdulillah, everything went and i did not get stressed out as i have to carry Asif with milk bag on one side, my handbag and Aqil's bag...I feel like i was a supermom for a moment...tihihih......

Friday, February 19, 2010

The mystery is a history....

I have always wanted to write down the mystery of where do my children names came from. Maybe when they grow up, they might find this blog or i asked them to read my blog..ha..ha..ha..OK, lets start with the first child..(for this moment, i have only two kids)..

AQIL AR-RAYYAN

Aqil was chosen by my husband. He wanted his first son to be knowledgeable yet the name started with letter 'A'.So he will always got the chance to be among the first person to be called during the convocation.He..he..he...While, Ar-Rayyan was my choice. I was looking for something relates to the hereafter life. Ar-Rayyan is a name of one of the entrance to heaven. And it is for muslims that complete fasting in Ramadhan..as I gave birth to him during ramadhan...and i still had the energy to fast until the day before i gave birth.

ASIF AR-RIDHWAN

For him, it was very difficult for us to find a name as at first, we were planning for a girl yet, i was confirmed for a boy again. I still feel blessed..Aqil will have his best buddy then. At first, we want to put the 2nd name after Aqil, Ar-Rayyan..then, we plan to put Aqil for the first name and change the 2nd name..but we already called Aqil as Aqil..so..until last minute, when I was in my 8 months, my husband came out with ASIF, at first i never want this name as in arabic, it does not start with 'ain like Aqil. And i was after the 2nd name. I searched internet but couldn't find the best one..then, one day, when i was on my way to the office, i was in the lrt, alone.I kept thinking what is the best name for him..I was 9 months..no..i was waiting for the day..the last week or so before i was permitted by my gynae for MC due to my severe SPD pain..Suddenly the name Ar-Ridhwan came out..when i reached office, straightaway, open the pc and search for it..it happen to be that it is the name of angel that guard the heaven (betulke ehh..tp nama malaikat la..)...i was very happy...finally i've found it..before, i plan to put many other name...and Ar-ridhwan just perfectly to be combined with Asif..I'm good yeah..even i wasn't agreed at first, but as i respect my husband..i accept his proposal..ceyy..

Then, that's the mystery behind my sons name...now...the mystery is a history..(excerpt from My friends tigger and pooh)

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Ingin Cantik???

Semua org nak cantik. Betul ke tidak? Sebenarnya setiap kejadian Allah itu cantik di dalam kecantikannya yg tersendiri, cuma manusia yg sgt suka membeza2 kecantikan2 itu berdasarkan pd penelitian masing2...

Jumaat lepas, masa lunch hour saya dan officemate menghadiri satu majlis ilmu yg dianjurkan oleh kompeni tpt saya bekerja. Penceramah adalah jemputan dari luar. Saya terlewat sedikit sbb baru habes meeting dan tergesa2 amik beg pump terus pergi ke surau di menara sebelah bersama2 officemate. Mujur diorg xgerak lg. Tapi kalau terlepas rombongan pon, saya tetap akan pergi.

Sampai2, dpt free packed lunch. Perut lapar tp segannya nk mkn dlm surau.Mana nak pump lagi,maka tunggulah sampai habes ceramah.Tajuk ceramah ialah 'Cantik Sepanjang Hayat'

Disini saya cuma nak share intipati yg saya dpt dr ceramah tersebut. Ceramah tersebut byk menyentuh ttg keinginan wanita yg ingin kelihatan cantik. Tapi cantik tu ade byk sudut. Cantik fizikal atau cantik dalaman?? Dan niat untuk cantik untuk siapa?? Juga bila perlu kelihatan cantik?

Saya teringat ade seorg sahabat saya, saya suka melihat dia kerana dia sentiasa berpakaian cantik2, xkiralah kt hostel atau keluar. Dan dia pernah ckp kt saya, bercantik2 itu sunnah.

Dr ceramah tersebut penceramah telah berpesan kalau nk kelihatan cantik, kita perlu jaga akhlak kita, kalau akhlak kita cantik maka org tgk kita pon cantik dan sedap mata memandang. Tiap tutur kata kita, perlulah kita jaga, jgn asyik keluar maki hamun, dan kita perlu berpransangka baik terhdp org lain. Selain itu, apa yg ada pada kita adalah pinjaman, jadi jgnlah kita riak dan berbangga2 jika kita ni cantik dan berlagak bila org puji kita cantik dan kita dgn lagaknya kata org tu hodoh. Dan jugak, kecantikan dalaman lebih terserlah drpd kecantikan luaran.

Ada org cantik rupa paras tp org2 sekeliling xsuka dgnnya...kenapa??? Sbb dia suka menuturkn sesuatu yg suka menyakitkn org lain atau akhlaknya buruk..Ni termasuk mkn secara gelojoh..hilang keayuan beb..jadi setiap pergerakan kita pon perlu la kita jaga...saya terigt zaman sekolah...sahabat2 suke sebut 'control ayu'...jadi saya simpulkn..'control ayu' tu perlu utk kelihatan cantik...

Selain itu, utk mengekalkn awet muda, perlu byk minum air iaitu minum 3 liter air setiap hari. Sebenarnya xperlu cleanser2 yg berjenama mhl2 tu pon, cantik dtg naturally kalau hati kita pon turut cantik...

p/s:saya rasa semua sahabat saya cantik2 belaka...bersyukur dpt sahabat2 secantik anda2 semua..=)

Cyber Shopping

I have few items to let go..cekidaut...email me jyl_ly[@]yahoo.com if interested...There is few more...nnt i update sini....

Nike Rooney No.9 Red England T-shirt


Condition: Brand New with Tag. This is authentic Nike bought in the UK
Size: M
Price: RM70
COD or post for small additional fee.

Bugs Bunny World of Cartoon Umbrella Stroller - ALREADY SOLD!!!

Condition: Very Good Condition. Just used once when we went to Paris but child refused to sit in. A bit small for a yum-yum child.
Price: RM60
Self Pick up due to big size item.

Philips Essential Energy Saver Bulb 18 watt

Condition: Brand New. I have 8 of this. 18 watt for a 100 watt.
Price: RM 10 per unit
COD or post for a small additional fee.

Clarks Women Shoes Size 5 (38)- Blossom Petal

Condition: This is authentic brand new Clarks women shoes. Wrong size for me as i thought 5 will fit me too but it way too big. Never been used. I love this design so much but have to let go because of the big size.
Price: RM200
COD or post for small additional fee

CK Flat Denim Size 25W
Condition: This is brand new without tag, just tried once but cannot fit in. Suitable for ladies with small butt. Love the color. This was bought in CK boutique so it is authentic CK jeans. Lenght is 34
Price: RM170
COD or post for a small additional fee.

Graco Baby Stroller Breeze

Condition : Preloved in Good Condition (several scratches on the frame), Washable Cloth, Very Sturdy and Good Maneuvering.Suit infant to 4 years old.
Price: RM200
Self Pick-up because of the big size item.

Naive or Innocent??

I was freaked out lately with the hot news of political secretary who got 2 mil in cash at his home. And that not counting his property which worth millions. And i wonder, where did he got all of them? Bribery? I have always wonder how a muslim (a meaningful muslim name oso!) can does such a thing? Didn't he fear to Allah?? I bet he must get the good islamic education at school and also form his parent but why still he can did such a thing. And not only him, there are many others out there who do that thing. I know that the easy thing to become rich but...HALAL ke???

Or am i being so naive that i didn't know, this thing had happened for so long.To get something, must give in something first.Sometimes they regard it as a gift which nothing has to do with to get contract or what so ever.But wonder where the islamic education gone? We live in islamic country, Islam is the national religion but yet, we are still having affairs which disobey islamic rules.Why we cannot live without that???

So, my friends who are the future leaders for the country if any, please obey the islamic rules when you are one of the top leaders. There's no necessary that when you are the top leader, you have to allow bribery to take place. Fight it even if your are losing your job. You can find HALAL job elsewhere, the most important thing, the BARAKATH from the money that you've earned........peace no war!!

p/s: pesanan khidmat masyarakat utk diri saya dan sahabat2 sekalian...inshaAllah...=)

Monday, February 15, 2010

Hobby or Passion??

Lately terasa bosan sbb I don't have any hobby but lots of passion in some areas.

I love cooking,

I love sewing,

I love baking,

I love decorating,

I love painting,

I love gardening,

I love.....lots and lots more...

See..i told you..byk kan??All of the above, is deep in my heart which i have always wanted to do but didn't do because of many unforeseen circumstances.Sometimes, i kept dreaming of I'm doing this and that before i get to sleep..Ha...cemtu sekali..My intimate passion...kuikuikui..

Tapi..the only hobby i have right now is....

EAT, EAT, AND EAT!!!!!

Tapi xgemuk2 pon...kuikuikui...
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The only passion i have now is....MY KIDS and MY HUBBY....=)

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Entry utk update perihal terkini...

Lama sudah xhapdet blog ni. Since dah masuk keje ni, saya haruslah mematuhi peraturan2 di pejabat. Tapi ade jugakla sekali 2 terkantoi pasal dah mengantok sgt dok baca2 document...haih...dah ler keje kene baca hapdet projek2 yg berteknologi tinggi. Next time suh ketua projek isi terus..haha..senang keje saya...

Hmm..nak dijadikan cerite, saya terlebih cuti maternity leave saya, selama 2 hari..sbg seorg muslimah yg beriman, haruslah saya memohon cuti yg terlebih itu sbg cuti tahunan...oh ya..rezeki..cuti thnn sy telah meningkat dan pihak bhgn cuti baik hati memberi saya cuti extra yg dibawa dr thn 2009.Alhamdulillah..dptlah cuti ms cuti skolah Aqil esok...

Aqil dah register kt tadika lain. Kali ni we prefer islamic approach pulak. Yuran?? Masih affordable utk kiterg. Lagipon, mmg situ je yg terdekat dgn rumah yg menawarkn pakej yg terbaik kt sekitar kwsn perumahan kitorg. Asif pulak, anta ke babysitter, Alhamdulillah, babysitter Asif dah stuju nk jaga Asif. Saya doakan semoga bbsitter Asif sentiasa dlm keadaan sihat sekeluarga dan terima kasih kerana sudi membantu saya mengasuh Asif sms saya bekerja. Yuran pon masih affordable bg kami sekeluarga.

Sebenarnye bukan xmahu update blog, tp setelah seminggu masuk keje ni, mcm xtercapai pulak masa utk duduk ngadap laptop dan type. Hari2 tido awal sbb nk bgn awal.Sapa yg pnah hidup dgn saya, tentu tahu kan, saya mmg xbuleh nk tido lambat atau stay up mlm2, seolah2 tido tu amatlah penting. Pada sy, tido mesti cukup, mkn pon mesti cukup, minum mesti cukup jugak spy bdn bertenaga utk melakukn aktiviti2 fizikal yg lelain.

Saya merancang..(merancang tu!!) nak joging after office, if (and only if) ade sesiapa yg buleh join ikot jadual saya 5.15 - 5.30 ptg jog kt tmn KLCC (mengarut kan??) silalah pm sy!! Ridiculos nk jog 15 minit..kuikuikui. Kan dh ckp 'merancang' td. Hehehe =)

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Mangsa Telemarketing

Hari ni hari yg malang utk saya..xtahu cemane saya terjerumus ke dlm perangkap telemarketing...sungguh pandai wanita itu mengayat saya...

Saya sedang lena..tibe2 telefon berbunyi...terus angkat...tgk no mcm area KLCC...igt opis...sekali die ckp from service card center...ty saya ade x kad dgn ***bank...sy pon dgn lurusnya..menjwp segala pertanyaan...termasuk memberi no kredit kad...konon saya terselected utk dpt diskaun kad sempena visit malaysia 2010...offer mcm best...tp awal2...ms die mintak verify no kad...xckp pon kene byr...alih2...kata kene byr...saya dh ckp xnak...die paksa saya terima...cuba bhs die molek sikit..."kami xadvise penerima menolak tawaran ini"...dan kemudian...die ckp lg...buleh byr ikot kemampuan...maksudnya ansuran...dan saya sangka...semua ini berlaku apabila saya turunkn tandatgn kt borang yg bakal dihantarnya...yg mengesahkn saya menerima pakej tersebut...

Kemudian..saya berchatting dgn seorg sahabat..cerita pd dia...kemudian die pun cerita...perkara ini bhy sbb die pernah terkena...nasihatnya...cpt2 usehekn sesuatu...jadi sy telefon customer service...***bank...punyalah bersabar sy tunggu mesin tu mnjwp...sampailah dpt manusia yg menjwp..hehe..a lady...saya ceritakn ape yg berlaku...alih2...nada suaranya spt menyalahkn saya semula...hangin ape minah ni...mrh kt org semula...PMS ke???...mmg silap saya...tp saya adalah mangsa...ape perasaan anda sekiranya anda ditipu...kemudian org menyalahkn anda semula...bukan menenangkn anda...tp lady itu ttp memberi cdgn...kol syarikat itu...mintak kensel...

Saya kol no yg tertera...pompuan manis mulut yg angkat..sy ckp nk kensel...die kata dh tolak byrn..wtf???..sy mati2 igt...transaction akan berlaku bila pakej sampai dan saya tandatgni pakej tersebut dan menghantar reply...kemudian die ckp xbuleh kansel..wth??..sy ckp..nk kensel jugak..if xbuleh sy nk repot polis...sbb sy telah dipaksa menerima pakej tersebut...kemudian telefon beralih tgn...lelaki pula...saya merayu spy kensel...amaun yg ditolak bukan sedikit...cukup utk byr tadika Aqil utk sebulan....tambahan...income saya seperti dihujung tanduk...dan pakej2 itu..xmungkin sy dpt gunakn dlm masa sethn....hubby bukan jenis suka bercuti...kan membazir namanya..tibe lelaki itu letak telefon without saying goodbye...

Saya kol ***bank semula..kali ni lelaki budiman yg angkat...En Eddy namanya...sungguh tenang beliau melyn cerita saya...beliau bersungguh2 membantu saya...inilah customer service yg bagus..menepikn emosi dlm mengendalikn pelanggan...esok baru sy dpt tahu...syarikat tersebut dah tarik balik transaction atau tidak...sbb En Eddy beritahu...ade reversal dlm akaun saya...tp esok baru active...akhirnya...kad saya dibatalkn....alhamdulillah...lady PMS td ckp kene dtg bank batalkn...apekah???..kenape En Eddy buleh blockedkn kad saya tetapi lady td refused to do so????...Ape2 pon...saya bersyukur dpt berckp dgn En Eddy...terima kasih byk2...moga murah rezeki awak...=)

Saya benci dgn telemarketing...ini kali pertama dan terakhir saya...slps ini...saya xnak angkat telepon kalau bukan no talipon ofis...dan lagi satu...kol dr agent2 insurans...geram....mana dpt nombor ntah...please jgn kasi no saya pd agent insuran OK???..sy sendiri xpernah beri no talipon rakan2 pd org2 yg bukan2....saya siap ckp...sy xbuleh beri no kwn saya tanpa kebenaran dia..not nice OK....(kita tolak offer die...die siap mintak no kwn2 kita pulak...)

Blog Tergendala....

Blog tergendala sekejap sbb saya sgt2 busy...dan exhausted dgn perkara2 remeh yg berlaku lately...dan masih belum selesai 100%...hmm..bkn senang nk jadi ibu dan isteri sekali gus...my brain dah overworked...belum masuk kije lg...my body pon overworked...now jln pon terhuyung hayang dah...dh mcm zombie....i'm not sleep deprived...but seriously...my body is exhausted still...rs mcm baru bersalin smlm...huhu..hope the sore will go away very soon..xtahu cemane masuk kije nnt...mau tertido kt opis nih....=)

Apekah yg membuat saya kehilangan begitu byk tenaga??..Fikiran serabut...dlm pencarian babysitter...punyalah mencabar kali ni...ujian...sampai 3 org...harap2 org ke-3 ni persistent...walaupon...keadaan fizikal saya bakal bertambah tenat..sbb rumahnya tingkat 2...kene turun naik tangga hari2...harapan saya cuma 1...anak saya berada dlm keadaan baik di bwh jagaan beliau...hrp2 beliau byk bersbr dgn anak saya....saya dah train minum botol..tp agak tidak berjaya...harap2..bila dah dgn bbsitter...takdelah melalak2 spt mn sms dgn saya...

Hal yg belum selesai...pencarian tadika utk Aqil...dah jumpa yg berkenan..tp punyalah payah nk dpt berjumpa dgn pentadbir...letak no talipon terpampang gah di kain rentang dpn tadika...talipon sekali jer berjwp..ajak berjumpa...pergi2...tadika terkunci kemas...talipon semula..xberjwp sampai ke sudah...mcm ni ke bisnes???kita berminat nk letak anak kita kt situ...tp penerimaan dan sambutan...amat mendukacitakan..inilah MELAYU...sms pon xberbalas...balasan suruh kol semula...tp xberjwp...apekah???...terpaksa pk kn jln lain pula....pening..memikirkn yg terbaik utk anak2...diri sendiri???..sgtlah terabai....