TIRED?

I am really TIRED...

Yess..I am...and this blog has been a place for me to let out how i feel...

I wonder when will i never feel tired anymore....sit back and relax sipping the juicy fruit juice near the shore...with the wind blowing onto my face....and yess...I wore the GUCCI/PRADA sunglasses...my first ever sunglasses..(i wish!)..thinking of nothing but relax....emptying my mind from all the pain..ouchhh....all the tiredness i endure for quite a longggggg time......

Really hope that i never feel this much pain ouchh...tiredness anymore...I wish!

Homesick?

What do i do during this late hour? I am not a stay up late kind of person. Actually i just had a little sleep during my kids bedtime..haha...that's typical me since i had children to bear..kihkih..especially when bf...i usually fell asleep too...

When i woke up, rasa2 lapar la pulak..then i went to the kitchen and get something to eat...but...i could not finish the meal as usual...

Being a 8 days temporary single mum really affect my memories...(what's that??)..haha..the thing that i want to share/tell/post here..is.....


I MISS MY LIFE IN EDINBURGH VERY BADLY!!!!

Why???

Dulu sibuk nak balik xmenyempat...skang..rindu2 pulak...haih~~~

It's because, I am husbandless right now...and when I was in Edinburgh...i managed to have my ME-time...pergi tgk rocks..and kt sini??..Oh dear...i think i only had once...tu pon 24 hours pon xsampai....

And many more things about edinburgh that i missed very much...eventho when we were there...we quarrel a lot...yeah...and stucked in the house during winter yg almost made me insane because xdpt tour the europe while was there....but i do really those time...each of every minute...

When ever i feel sad...i can go out easily..xyah drive...g Scotmid find something to eat pon dah OK...or g ASDA..shopping food ok...ASDA got everyday offer...when we were during our term break...since nk g memaner...we will scouting for bargain stuff...best...shopping good stuff really clear my mind tau...it is one of my therapy...hehe...

And the best thing is...my life there is so simple...eventho we have to pay the expensive nursery for Aqil...but we were still manage to save some pounds to bring back...wonderful isn't it? It was lot more than we manger to save yearly here with our monthly salary....i always wonder how we did work on it...and if Malaysian bbsit Aqil...mightbe..we could bring triple of what we brought home...or..maybe...that "Eagle Eye" will be ours...eheheh.....

Susu Banyak...Susu Siket...

Anyone yg baca tajuk entry..mesti make known yg this entry is going to be all about breastfeeding. First of all, I am not a breastfeeding hardcore actually..sape la saya kan...hi hi hi...I am just a mother of two with the passion to give the best to my children...and breastmilk feeding, for me is one of them...which i am capable of la kan..because not all mother is gifted with this gift ok..so please3x don't blame mothers yg xbreastfeed their children tu..perhaps they've tried but due to many or unsolved diffculties...xdpt nk fully breastfeed...(sape yg xberusehe tu.no komen...he he he)...

I am blessed with this gift as according to generations, only me in the family has managed to breastfeed longer and has abundance of milk..I am not sure myself how..but i guess ini rezeki Allah nk beri pd saya...setiap org ade bhgn masing2 kan...betul tak???

Tapi, I know...mesti org still tanya and amaze on how i can have abundance of milk despite of myself yg sgtlah skinny. Now rasa dah OK sket...a little chubbier..org kata laa kan..tp we'll in the next 4-5 months...chubby lg ke???tgk2...sume longgar balik dah baju2....he.he..he...therefore, saya nk share what I did and how I maintain my milk production other than it is a gift from Allah s.w.t.

1. Doa
Sejak dr mengandung, ni tahu je dh ade heartbeat ni..u know..bila scan yg nampak bentuk kacang panggang tu..i niat dlm hati i nak breast feed anak i sampai cukup haul 2 thn hijrah...at least...inshaAllah...i mintak Allah kurniakn rezeki tu pd saya...selain tu saya rajin baca satu surah ni..Al-Hasyar...diperkatakn...utk membykkn susu bdn..(kalau slh surah ckp yer...tp mmg ade 1 surah ni)...masa anak first...saya xtanam niat dr ms awal pregnancy...saya tanam niat after dh tahu kebaikan breastfeeding pas attend antenatal class kt ampang putri (promote tuuu..huhu)...since then, hari2 sy doa smoga saya dpt bf anak saya tu...

2. Istiqomah
Ni yg slalu mak2 lomah..dah berdoa...berusaha..tp xistiqomah...kalau mcm mmg keturunan susu byk...xdelah risau sgt...bende ni kene berterusan...cthnya..kalau pump, haruslah consistent...maknanya...hari2 mesti mau pump kt opis..jgnla ngelat2 if you know that ur body is going to produce less if u mls...so...kene rajin2 kan diri la...saya anak pertama..sy xbuat stok mcm org lain buat...org lain buat sampai ade yg 100 botol pon ada...saya x...sbb sy agak pemls...org yg buat stok byk2 tu...diorg takut diorg kene travel tinggal anak..tu jer...mcm saya...keje saya xde requirement gitew..so xperla..tp still buat jugak...actually have to...sbb ms dlm pantang...baby minum xbyk...tp susu diproduce byk...haruslah dipam kuar utk elakkn bengkak susu yg saket itewww...ouchhh....

3.Water intake
Minum 3 liter sehari taw utk elak dehydration or haus..kalau bf..mmg cpt haus...dan jugak cpt lapar...tapi...if jenis bdn snang naik tu...control2 la jugak mkn tu kalau nk maintain good figure kan....tp kalau bdn sekeping cam i ni...mknlah byk2...lg byk susu terhasill..sume jadi susu gamak nye...tihihi...tp bila minum air byk..haruslah membuang air pon byk..xpe..bagus...buang toxin dlm badan kn...ehehe...Yg jd kerisuan is masa bulan puasa la...so..ms sahur minum air byk2...dan jugak masa berbuka pon sama......;)

4.Motivation
Beruntunglah isteri2 yg dpt motivation drpd suami2 mereka..tu yg paling penting...support drpd suami...selain tu..kenelah berkwn dgn org2 yg bf jugak...org ckp...'hardcore' bab bf2 ni...so..kita akan mendpt aura bf yg baik drpd mereka2 ini...sy terigt diri sy...ms sy sgt2 determined utk bf was ms antenatal class bab breastfeeding...nurse2 situ yg membuat sy teruja utk bf selps baby lahir..kata2 semangat tu la...yg buat sy nekad utk bf xkire ape usehe skalipon...alhamdulillah..suami pon sokong..and we all xpnah g survey brg2 baby..termasuk survey susu FM sbb dlm mindset...dh set...i want to fully bf my babies...yeahh~~~

5. Research
Wat researchlah sikit psl bf ni...jgn menonong...lgpon drpd research ni..dpt tahu kebaikan2 bf ni kan...so..lagilah bersemangat...dan our determination tu...lg bertambah strong...dulu2 la kan...ms anak fes..suka baca forum ibu2 bf...jugak..sy suke baca article psl bf..xkire di mn2...dan rs kembang kuncup jer hidup yg xberapa nk mancung ni...bila baca artikel2 tu psl i am one of the bf mother la....hahaha..bangga tawwww....dan jugak bersyukur....sy bertuah sbb dpt bf anak2 saya...alhamdulillah....

Susu byk ke...susu siket ke...berusaha la nk menten bf pd sape2 yg nk menikmati keunggulan pengalaman bf ni...sy bf yg sulung tu..2 thn 4 bulan...manisss...manisss...kali ni utk adik..inshaAllah...2 thn jugak....sbb sy sgt rindu utk menikmati saat2 manis itu kembali...tp yeah...lain anak...lain manis nya...xsama...walau 2-2 lelaki tulen belaka....hahaha...

Eh...cukupla...xlrt la nk sambung dah entry ni...i ada keje opis yg harus disiapkn di rumah....????

No Thing

It has been 4 days I've been a 'temporary single mum' and today, i feel really tired. I tried to control my patient in handling both kids..and i received some unwanted news from my eldest, die ckp cikgu pukul...hmm..this is not a first time..i checked kt tpt yg die claimed cikgu pukul...yess kt tadika dia..mmg they apply rotan as part of the punishment..especially when the kids beat other fren..so..the principal said, they will give slow talk dulu...if the kid still doing the same...baru kene rotan...and i was made to understand that they will informed the parents when ever the punishment take place...until now..no news about that...

As a mum, I always see my kids a good ones..and i feel that my eldest is still too young to understand the punishment...belum mumayyiz org ckp..i only afraid, the punishment will make him feel more 'tiny' and lose confidence in himself...that is my thinking...even, before i did punish him...and i feel sgtlah menyesal...because, he just don't deserve it...terasa how stupid i was, nk punish toddler...i rather choose psychological way of influencing him to behave good..and yes...i have been practicing it..but yes...really need a lot ...lottt of patient..and he slowly understand...which is good and which is wrong....

Kids love rewards..i used reward system in my approach to discipline him...and...i used 'love' system to get both kids stay together...daddy always worried of the eldest got too rough with baby...but that was before...as parents...we cannot always say...don't go near adik...or tepis2 die whenever die stay near kt adik...becoz he has good intention...so far....the eldest never harm adik...as org slalu ckp...abg jeles kt adik...and buat adik...but not to my kids...i trained and still training both kids to get together in a easy way...just let the eldest do what ever he wants to adik as long as it is safe...so..parents kene keep watching...and the result..tremendously....worth it...you sabar...and you manage to throw away your anger...and your kids feel close to you and respect you....that's what i feel for my kids....

p/s: tajuk xserupe entry kan...hihihi...:)

Outing to KLCC

Today i was on my off day, taking turn to stay with Aqil as his school closed due to school break..(matilah kalau cuti sebulan....mmg xcukup AL ler jwbnye...)

In the morning, I sent off Asif to babysitter and returned to home to continue my sleep. As usual, Aqil will not get back to sleep once he woke up..bagus betul anak soleh mama ni...so, i let him watch his channel, none other than the PHDC laaa...i prepared his breakfast, a simple one...just bread and jam..'drug' him with some vitamin C and ribena...

I laid down on the bed and Aqil did asked me to accompany him watching the tv but I was really damned sleepy and I just said to him, I need some rest and asked him to watch the tv...How lucky I am I have an understanding son, he went out and never enter the room again as he knew i were sleeping..but I could not sleep soundly as you know...there are no safest place in KL even in your own house kan..so...kejap2 terbgn...and that's really made my body more tired after that....

I woke up finally, get something to eat and siap2 for outing. Aqil was so excited, he was behaving really good. And i did slow talk to him to behave good as we will be going out by lrt, not car. I put on his hat as the weather was so sunny and we went out to the lrt station...

We arrived KLCC around 20 minutes later..huh..kalau naik keta...hrp la nk sampai in 20 minutes kn..tambah with me driving like kura2....haha..scared u know..driving in between KL drivers...so straight away we went to our F1 car...parked near to tower 1 and meet the daddy there...Aqil was so excited to see his daddy..and start la...mengader2 sket..and started asking for the scoop ride...

We took him thru escalator OK..since the lift was full..maklum la..time lunch kan..harusla sesak suria KLCC tu kan..all the way Aqil was asking for his scoop...i patiently said to him that we are going there.....

Sesampai jer...ade budak main pulak...so we waited a while...then that budak nyer dad asked his son to move out...xgerak pon bende tu...budak tu just duduk2...then Aqil pon masukla...i put some coins in to make the vehicle move...start move je..he freaked out..haha...hampeh betul...he is still scared of moving toys...ape la...we tried to help him out...but cannot...becoz he almost cry...haha...so we wait until that scoop stop...then we took some piccas...harusla kan...(picture anak jer pon...mak pak tader...ehehe...)

Pas puas main scoop...we all g mkn kt level 2 tu...i sort of agak kenyang..so we just had McD jer..xbagus utk kesihatan OK..!after lunch, we move to other places...sent the daddy off to work...and we continue our jln2 pusing2 Suria KLCC...ehehe...

We went to toy's r us...and i taught him to choose toys...let him know that there is toy shop for kids...where they can look for any toys of their liking...haha..but, must have the limit laa kan...i only taught him for window shopping only...dah byk toys kt rumah...i dun want my house jd another toy shop pulak kn....hehehe...

Next we off to Isetan...area kids...so we window shopping again...and as a reward of his good behavior...i bought him sunglasses...pandai pulak pilih the most expensive kt situ....cis3...and a ben10 wristwatch...he was soooo happy...terus pakai sunglasses and that watch....then we all balik...sbb mummy dh leteh jln sebenarnye....

So, spjg2 naik lrt nk balik...Aqil pon bergaya lahh dgn sunglasess dia.....(hensem sungguh anakku...ehehe...haruslah puji anak sendiri kn....??)

Sampai2 umah...when i asked him whether he had fun or not....of kos he said YESS..."nanti nk jalan lagi.."...then started ty mana adik....syg sungguh kt adik...:)