60% completed..Alhamdulillah...

Yesterday marked the finishing line of my "examinable material". However, I am not sure if after this, there will still be any other exam that i;ll be going through in my life.This time around was the very hardest in my life..Why i say so, because i didn't do much of study like i always do..Why didn't i??..It's all because my health..However, I'm glad since I did not panic during exam and still can think what I'm supposed to scribble in my answer papers...this is really surprisingly...I've never experienced this before...I tried to be optimistic as I could that the examiner will be much of generous when marking mine and a PASSED is already a big success for me..Well, that what you will do when you're least expected....Aminn...

Thinking how i went through those time, i don't think i can go through it again. It was really a big challenge for me..and this Msc really thaught me of life survival..And i'm grateful I done my degree in UTP instead of overboard..yeah..I guess I am truly Malay...can't live well at any other places...because my favorites are the malays dishes...owh...i'm drooling for it very badly now actually....

Yeah..I'm glad even though i really hate this Msc stuff because it never make me feel easy though...there's always incoming work...i never get to go for vacation outside UK because of it...i guess that make me feel worst...because i really enjoy vacation...and that's why i chose to study here...to get a little vacation away from Malaysia...(that's my secret on the reason...let only ME know why)..However, deep in my heart, there's a bit of frustration because i can't get the 'distinction' as i always dream of..i know..because my past exam didn't do that good...just average...and this time around...with the sickness i held for weeks...i just hope for a PASSED in every subject...and moreover...the exams carries 60% of total Msc...If I get A for projects...I don't think it would help me...

Inspite of that...a gift from Allah came to me...and that is why I endured all the sickness, stressed because of the greatest gift i've always wish for..and I am very pleased of it...and really THANK YOU ALLAH for granting my DOA...that is what meant by when you're least expected...I hope everything goes smoothly here...getting pregnant at people place is not the same as at my own place...in KL most probably, i can get my first scan by now..at the most prestige hospital with the very best gynae..here, i need to follow the government style of pregnancy care which is a new experience to me...but i hope, i still can deliver in KL...inshaAllah...hopefully everything goes well..

And of course, i kept thinking how's my baby doing..because i never see HER(i don't know..but i hope for a SHE)...last time...i almost dropped a tear when first i see the heartbeat..this time..a bit tougher for me to handle a cheeky toddler around who is always want me to be on his side...and a husband that is bit fussy...my study...and of course my self...i really don't like the weather here now...because it's chilly and I don't like to go to the kitchen because it is very chilly...and I am very sensitive to some odor in the kitchen..which it appears and sometimes dissappears..and unlucky me...my hubby is not a chef...he doesn't like to cook..just eat...if I'm in KL it will be much easier..since there's lots of restaurant around my area with tasty foods...that is why to calm myself...i kept thinking how the good the food i ate before...i imagining that i return to the past..."what a fool i am"...yeah...even i can find the ingredient..my cooking will never taste good since my tounge has lost its sensitivity...i've always taste plain everytime i eat...

THIS IS REALLY A BIG CHALLENGE...HOPE IT WILL GO AWAY IN A QUICK TIME...AMINNN