He is 1 YO

My son has reached 1 year old.Now, he is very capable of standing by holding to something, crawling, joking and talking, he talks so much now but of course baby language.Now, he is so glued to me.Whenever he sees me around, he will crawls to me and ask me to play with him.He is such a wonderful kid.He loves to smile and laughs.He is so adorable to me.Of course i would say that since he is my son.Now i know how is mothers feeling on their children.It is so beautiful to feel like mother.

For his birthday, i prepared a birthday card for him to read when he is able to.I handmade it myself.But somehow, when handed to him, he bites it and the envelope didn;t look nice anymore.Some of the decoration on the card also fell off since the glue was not a good one.(I made it at office, so used only office stuff.)I am glad to have him breastfed for 1 year.It is a long time though.And am happy that my milk still producing at a good rate.There is another 1 year to go, InsyaAllah.Papa bought him toys that will stimulate his problem solving skills and logic thinking skills.Thanx papa.

Early in the morning, i kissed him and wish him birthday.I love to see him while he's sleeping.So cute.Just the same look as the first time i saw him sleeping 1 year ago.I LOVE HIM so much i couldn;t tell.I have a lot of plans for him and hope that all will works.I hope GOD give me the strength and will to raise him to be a good person.

Last Eid, i worn him a baju melayu i made myself.Although it was a slightly bigger, but it looks nice on him.I;m proud that i was capable of finishing it right on time.He was also busy helping me preparing cookies jar for Eid.He's so funny when he felt boring at others house, he would start yawning and put a sign that he wanted to rest and sleep.After we got at our room, he asked to play with him.Unless, there was other kid played with him, then he would not yawningasking for rest.So clever this dude!

I am so happy that we were able to wore one theme of Eid suits.I feel like a family for the first time ever!I hope this will continues from time to time.I hope i can rearrange for a T-shirt for family.Hehehe..

A high chair????

My dear baby was born on 12th October 2006. In next few days, he will turn 1.To me, he is still my little baby although my hubby said he's big enuff to sleep by himself.I resisted since for me, as long as he is not independent, he will still sleep with me.And furthermore, he is still breastfeeding.If we sleep at separate room, it will make a mess for me to feed him during night hours.I know what my hubby was thinking.He wants some attention from me, his wife.Actually, it doesn't mean i never give attention to him but he demands more.Married to a single child and not very socialize, this is what i have to pay.But for me,i still can handle this on my way.Sometimes we can't pamper so much those who are used to have first priority attention.He has to learn to share me with the children instead.It is not all the time my priority is him.For now, raising our children become first priority to me as to raise a good person in future must be nurture from baby age.Like malay wisdom said, Melentur buluh biarlah dari rebungnya.I feel relief since i don't have much challenge as others do in raising m child (i do have sometimes actually).I am happy that i got the chance to raise my child using my own template!I hope the template is good and never spoil my child.

Now, my child can crawls, cruises and ongoing learning how to stand up.He babbles a lot making cute sounds that make me smile.He now know how to reject things and sometimes demand for things.He still has his minor eczema and today i'm going to buy other solution helping him to remove the itchiness.He is healthy and happy baby and i'm glad that he grows healthily only fed from my own milk!He just started to eat a lot, 3 meals per day and still, milk is only BREASTMILK!I really wish that i can feed him up to 2 years.I am motivated to continue since Allah gives me the wealth of having lots of milk eventhough my body is very thin.(people always surprised when looking at me knowing that i am still breastfeeding my baby!..Kuasa Allah sape boleh lawan!)

What to give him as birthday present?I'm looking for a high chair for him.The one that i look for is sellable far away from my home and my hubby doesnt want to bring me there.I guess, i have to go through the hassle to get there by myself!But when is the suitable time?I only had 1 hour lunch time.I guess, i would try it this friday!2 hours but actually during fasting month we are required to work during lunch hour since we are given an early time out.My dream high chair is quite expensive and my hubby said it's not worth it to buy one since its gonna be used for a while.I protested saying that, it got the best features with toys and music to stimulate baby and can be used up to 4 years old.However the size is quite big and it is not meant for travelling.Well, in Malaysia, everything with quality is expensive.Even the not that good also exepnsive.I don't know why.When comparing to US items sold in US, the US citizen is very affordable to buy baby stuff at good price having the best quality products.In Malaysia, evrything is expensive.Not compatible with our salary!The inflation is so bad in Malaysia.I wish govt do something about it.The people is suffering in craving for good products!Even the food are expensive.What the heck! (Melalut pulak!)

Hmm...i think it is definite to buy him a high chair look like the pic.

Already bought but not the same as i wanted.I feel cheated by the shop since when i emailed, they mentioned about the above unit, went to their shop, they said the look may varies from what they've posted.I bought though since we travel so far and afraid that my hubby will scold me.I hate being scolded since he was the driver and it was rainy day, so i bought it at 449.90.Quite dear rite?But what to do, i like to survey and tot of leaving but i cant face being scolded in the car back to home.a litle feeling of "menyesal" exist at home but i remain silent.Actually, can look at another shop at Ipoh but when to go?My hubby doesnt like to travel.How i want to drive?I can't focus on driving for long hour and plus with baby inside.I can;t simply leave my baby and went out for hours except going to work!

Just for update!

It's been so long i haven't written anything in this blog.Actually, i don't know how to blog.I'm not a good story teller after all.I created this blog after i've seen my friend's.And there it goes, not evryday entry since i'm always have no idea on what to write, how to write in fun way though.And today, I just go with the flow of my fingers typing whatever popped out from my head.

Narrating on my beloved son, he's now nearly to 12 months and just happened to crawl. At first i am quite worried when seeing him a little bit slow on movement development.However, i guess, not all the baby experience the same development.Some are slow and some are very fast.My hubby used to have his first step during his 8 months'.That was what my in law said. I asked my mom, when was mine?I was slow to walk, i had mine after 1 year old.So, my son is still normal since he carries my gene too.

Feeding my son was once a problem since he ates very little.But now, he's improving.His eczema is still there and i am strictly control his food intake and also mine.However, sometimes, i can resist to eat those food that i love so much in very small amount.It's nearly 1 year and he has been 6 months suffering from eczema.Wonder when it's going to be over.Evryday i pray to Allah to grant my wishes to have him back to normal, living as a healthy kid and can eat various of halal food that He gives on earth. Currently he just eat veges and rice.(Hope he doesn't become vegetarian one day!!!)

Describing the faces of my son is all i can say, he is the cutest ever.Of course i would say that since i am his mother.In being a mother, a position that applies to for the rest of your life when you got the title is fun, tiring but worth it.Looking to him, all my tiredness faded a while especially when he smiles.So cute.Now, he becoming sweeter and sweeter in the way he carries himself.He would cruised to me and climbed me just to hug me.Tapped my shoulder as soothing me to sleep like i always do for him.Sometimes he knows how to joke hubby and me with his naughty look.He's a big boy now, though.He's now capable of doing anything out of my expectation.I love seeing him developing everyday and am not tired to play with him after work just to have the tiny time that left for him and me evryday. If someone would asked me why not sending him to be taken care by grandparents.I would say, he's my son, my responsibility not his grandparents'.I want to see him everyday and i don't mind to go through the hurdles along the way.I am proud of what i am doing and keep improving myself to become a better mom day after day.I want to give the best out of the best to my son so that in future he will not regret on me.

I am still breastfeeding, fully feeding him breastmilk as main feed.Alhamdulillah, I am still have plenty of milk inside. Also some stored in freezer.Happy to see the stock is improving.Hopefully this will last until he reaches 2 years old.I'm glad that i have virtual frends that support breastfeeding.Luckily, i haven't went tough time to defend my policy of breastfeeding.Everyday i pumped twice and love it.It become a routine for me.Although now is Ramadhan, and i'm also fasting, i pray to Allah that my milk will be enough for my son and me myself will not really that tired to entertain the family.Alhamdulillah, so far, i'm still energetic although experiencing lack of sleep and cramps during this fasting months.

Wow, i guess this is the longest post that i write ever!I really wanted to post everyday but always out of idea.Moreover, later i wouldn't have internet connection i guess since i'll be transfer to another office soon.Hopefully, my good heart neighbor who always shared his wireless networks will keep on sharing so that i can write during weekend at home.I think it I would be better off now unless my work will be unfinished business ever!

Breastfeeding Alert!

Breastfeeding is easy but still need efforts to make it succeed.I have gone through best time and worse time throughout almost 10 months of breastfeeding my baby.My best time that i like the most is when i can get a lots of milk pump at one time ( 12 oz - wonderful!!!).My worse time is the vice versa of my best time ( 12 oz a day!!!!).It is more like a KPI for me to produce enough breastmilk to feed my baby every working day.My daily target is minimum 16 oz. I always set the target every morning i woke up since i believe that psychology plays a role in breastmilk production.At night, my baby wakes up 3-4 times from 11 pm to 7 pm for breastfeed.This also help the prolactin hormon to produce more milk during the day. There was a week where my production dropped tremendously and i was worried to death since the stocks were only for a week.During that time, my son consume 20 oz per day!I tried a lot of milk booster food but still didn't help much.I took my own time to calm down and this time, psychology plays its role again.After a week, I manage to boost up my production to the level like before.Here are my efforts to bring back the sweet time during pumping session:

Pumping efforts:

1-Pump 3 times at office although didn't produce much, but still keep on pumping.

2-Pump after work at home although didn't produce much.

3-Pump at 2 or 4 am although didn't produce much.

Milk booster:

1-Drink during night time feeding just right after feeding the baby.

2-Drink each time after pumped.

3-Eat a lot carbohidrate (rice)

4-Eat water chestnut / drink water chestnut can drink

5-Eat beansprout everyday.

6-Drink honey + lime

Psychology/therapy:

1-Think positive

2-Massage the back neck area

3-Stimulate nipple area frequently (after pump is also OK, some more milk can be expressed out)

4-Always think of your baby

5-Always pray to God for His blessings

All of the above efforts create a joyful pumping session today!I love pumping and breastfeeding!

New books!!

Talking about baby education, just now i went to KLCC to use ISETAN voucher.Wandering inside ISETAN itself took me an hour to find suitable items to be purchased by using the voucher.At first i thought of buying leap pad learning system but it is a bit expensive and i do not know how efficient it would since we already have Alphabet Pal by leapfrog at home and my son love to swallow its tentacles. He kicked and put the string into his mouth.That's all he knows.However, that toy is designed for 1 year old child and my son is only 10 months old.HEHEHE.

After 45 minutes wandering inside ISETAN, finally i decided to buy books for him. But the choices were so limited.Only books from Lamaze, the hard book and soft book.At first, i wanted to buy the soft book, but looking at the content there's pig inside which i never prefer to have any. I never finds pigs are cute.I wonder why they always put pigs in children book inclusive Winnie the Pooh n Friends, they also got Piglet.Why not put Kitty instead.Kitty is much more adorable.

Things that i purchased for my son just now:

1-Lamaze See Through Safari = RM29.90 (10% disc)
2-Lamaze Peekabo Farm = RM29.90 (10% disc)
3-Fisher-Price Doodle Pro (Small) = RM13.30

The books are so wonderful and catchy.I hope my son will love both and make him forget to bite and tear papers.One thing i noticed, my son love newspaper very much.Just like his papa, loves to read newspaper!

Breastfeeding & weight

I loose weight very quickly after giving birth.Breastfeeding helped a lot.However, actually i don't need to loose weight.I need to gain weight!!Now, i am at blow the underweight line.I eat lots and lots everyday.My meals could be as much as the fat ones eats.However, no single kilos i gained from week to week.It's stagnant.I believe bcos i am breastfeeding my baby and that;s why it's hard to gain weight.However, this never tells me to stop breastfeeding bcos i love breastfeeding very much.I objected any kinds of proposal that resulting to stop breastfeeding.I can't help my self from mumbling that i'm thin, tired and etc.It's all because i want to be heard.That's it!!I can't eat foods that i like, which wil cause my son's eczema getting worse.I mumbled.But never put me to stop breastfeeding.Because i love breastfeeding and never ever wanted this thing to leave me very soon.

Actually before getting married, i'm already underweight but not like now.Now it's more.I drink protein mixberries which costs me a lot during that time.And miraculously, my weight was gained within a month.That was fantastic!Like a dream comes true!Yes, the happiness never stayed as long as it wants to.Now i'm getting worried again since i know it not safe to conceive when u r underweight.But it' is still OK since i'm on family planning now, maybe another year, and i'll to conceive.For now, i need to find ways to gain my weight.

Alternatives that've been tried so far:

1-Eat 6 meals per day
2-Drink full cream milk 3 glasses per day
3. Drink weight gain milk 2 glasses per day
4. Drink protein mixberries 2 glasses per day (the only one that works but hard to get at dealers' price)

Oh stool...

Baby is almost 10 months but still no sign of starting to crawl.Lately, he passed stool very frequent that worried me so much.I surfed the net to find the cause.And here is the list that I compiled:

1-Baby doesn't get the hindmilk, mom's milk might be oversupply. (Facts)
2-He is getting too much nutrition from what he eats. (Facts)
3-Virus infection since he's teething and bite evrything he finds on the floor.(My thinking)
4-It's a way to release the inner heat out of from body since the weather is slightly hot.(My thinking)

What else?The stool colour patterns are this way:

Day 1: Dark yellowish mustard - Greenish mustard during the nite.
Day 2: Greenish mustard with slightly brown mucus - Greenish seeds during the nite.
Day 3: Dark yellowish mustard - Greenish seeds during the nite
Day 4: Greenish seeds & slightly watery.

The frequency however is improving:

Day 1: 2 times morning, 2 times afternoon, 3 times nite
Day 2: 1 time morning, 2 times afternoon, 2 times nite
Day 3: 1 time morning, 2 times afternoon, 2 times nite
Day 4: 1 times morning, 2 times afternoon, 1 time nite.

Somewhat better, the frequency has lessen from day to day.There was a time where he hardly passed stool, once in 3-4 days.I asked a friend who is a doc-to-be, it is still OK for a breastfed baby to have frequent stooling as long as he is active, not vomit, not feverish and happy.

Wonder if there is any tips to heal this matter very soon because I myself have no idea except bringing to paedtirician and given some drugs that my son really hates of.Oh stool...