A brand new year 2010!

What will be your resolution for a new year that will begin in couple of hours?Me?Long ago, i've always set up few resolutions for a new year but none have been accomplished.LOL..so, for me, there's nothing significant to set up new resolution, yet, i feel good that I am still alive to live in the next new year. Years passing by and it has been already 4 years plus, i've been married and left my hu-ha life. And also, have been 3 years plus of being a mother which I am still in learning process. Yeah, everyday before sleep, i wish to become a better person for the next day, a better mom for the next day and a better wife for the next day..I've always muhasabah before sleep so that I'll always remember my mistakes and not to redo them again..I've always did this since i was in school...while in school, before sleep, i plan for tomorrow schedule..and what should i do better for my studies...hehehe...

However, this is going to be the first time, a new year eve without my hubby, he is away for now for tool inspection (i wish i was there..as i love doing the job that he is doing right now!!!).Actually, we never celebrate new year..just happy to see the fire works before..on tv of course..we never like to be in the crowd...the last fireworks we saw was during KKP...that was in the year we got married..heh! I wish to be in KKP fiesta again and bring my kids to play...how i wish my hubby is an outgoing ones! LOL! (better not..if not, he will always be with his friends rather than with me and the kids kan2??)..I like my hubby to be with me all the time...with the kids...hahah..(ade mcm queen control x???..hihihih)..But now, he is starting to have some times with his colleugues (betulke eja nih) to play games (this is permitted as this is good for health kan???)..I have no objection on this. For me? I would like to have girls day out but...I have no close gilfriends which want to go out with me??(pathetic kan i ni??) No lah..it was just before, i never been out with them..and i guess they feel that its really hard for me to hang out as i'm already a someone's wife and kids mom....but i managed to go out once then, so happy but so tiring because i was 8 months pregnant!!..So, penatlah berjlnkn!Hope to meet the gilfriends again someday!!

What i want to do next?I've set up my mind to make over my house..but not now...still juggling with the new baby and old baby(old??)i've always dreamt of having a cozy comfy house which i can relax after having hard times with officeworks. Now? My house is like abandoned ship jer!..Toys everywhere..and even the furniture..we still using the old ones which are most of it temporary ones!..I've asked my hubby to change them..but he is still searching and now..searching for a new house??? WHAT?? I don't feel a need now since I'm already OK living in the condo for now..not so soon...as if landed house..must be a 2storey right??..and with small kids...owh..I really don't want to have 2storey house...turun naik tangga...leteh!!!!but good for exercising yeah??..heheh

Enough of writing...I hope this coming 2010 will bring good to everybody...:)..HAPPY NEW YEAR...(yg bestnyer..cuti..tp xdpt kuar berjln jugak...hishhh...)

Selamat pengantin baru!!

1 Muharam ritu, bertukarlah title abg saya kepada suami org. Alhamdulillah...sy sgt bersyukur, akhirnye beliau bertemu jodoh jugak, dpt org dekat, cikgu pulak tu...mmg idaman kalbu beliau...itulah hikmah nya bila sy membantah hub beliau dgn seorg trainee di tpt beliau bekerja dulu, pasti ade yg lebih secocok buat dia..malangnya, sy pulak masih berpantang dan kurang bertenaga di hari penting beliau..itulah..org dh suggest buat pas raya xmo..nk gak 1 muharam...nak sama hari dgn my parens nyer nikah ler tuuu...hihihi...makcik2 pulak sibuk berbisik, rupa abg sy sebijik cam rupe abah ms muda2...iyeke??...tp rs sy, abg sy mmg awet muda...even adik bwh dia, abg ngah nampak lg tua dari dia...tulah merokok lg...kan dh nampak cepat tua...hihihi..so, dlm kami 4 beradik..tinggal seorg lg yg bujang...ntahlah...bila nk kawen pon xtahu...mujur lelaki...

Berbalik pd cerita hari penting..sebenarnya..mcm2 sy plan..tp sume xjadik psl sy kepenatan menjaga anak kecik dan besar ini..bukan mudah beranak kecik ni kalau tiada pembantu...tp sy tegar...masih xnak terima maid...sy cuba utk melakukn sendiri tanpa maid..sbb, sy mls nk tambah masalah lain dlm keluarga kecil sy...

Sungguhlah ramai org yg kawen bulan disember..mn tidaknye.wiken2 sume cuti pjg kn..mmg molek dibuat majlis kawen mawen ni...kendian..bersambung ke januari pulak...xpasti lah dpt menghadirkn diri ke tidak..sedikit worry nk angkut anak kecil ke kenduri kawen...kalau family sendiri atau kwn rapat..ok lg...mungkin leh demand nk tpt yg selesa utk lepak berbf...mcm ms kenduri abg sy, sy duk dlm bilik..bila bb tido sy turun bwh..sungguh penat berumah 2 tingkat..naik tangga turun tangga...bb sgtlah baik...asyik tido jer...bgn bf then tido..xbyk ragam...sungguh baik memberi kerjasama...

Balik dr ipoh..oh..bb sgtlah meragam..xtahu kenape...igtkn ade hantu in the house..melalak2..then xmo tido mlm kt dlm bilik...xtahu kenape...agaknye xsuka lampu kuning ke??..bila bwk ke ruang tamu..elok tido...atau nk tido berdakap ke..eh..ini mmg xbuleh dibiasakan...susah kendian hari...awal2 dulu senang..letak je dlm cot...tido lah dia...skang...teknik tido meniarap pulak...tp kene selalu tgk2...lama sket tido nyer...kalau x..letak je..bgn...tido paling lama pon sejam...dah bgn...nk berdakap...aduhhh..mmg lenguh...sabar jelah...mujur kt rumah sendiri...selesa...kalau kt rumah parens...mau PND semula...mcm ms first pantang dulu...

Alkisah fridge....

Tepat kul 10.00 mlm local time,on christmas eve, suddenly my fridge was out of order. We've tried to plug in into other socket in the kitchen, as well as testing the socket with my phone charger. The phone charger was working. Therefore, we concluded the fridge was broken, maybe its motor. The first thing i worried for, was my expressed milk that i kept in freezer for after confinement consumption. They are a lot and may take months to stock up that much. That time i was writing my post in this blog. Then i logged in my YM and chat with my friend, asking what i need to do to save my milk.

Then hubby went to 7E and get some ice cube, and we put all the milk inside it and put inside the freezer back.After that, i was wondering what would cause the fridge to break down in the middle of the night? The fridge was only 4 years old..then we started to blame each other...'duit xberkatlah'..'ms beli xikhlas niee..'..huhu..mcm2..but after all we were making fun of ourselves...lucky our sons had gone to sleep..so, less pressure...i started thinking of that if motor was the cause, then, we still have the warranty..but where did i put the warranty??..we started to search for it but couldn't find anywhere...i guessed we might accidentally throw it away while gathering all the unused items in the house...

Then, i just 'tawakal', with the hope, all the milk will still be frozen..

The next morning, hubby checked the freezer and found out milk was still OK.And we try to find resolution to our fridge problem...buy a chest freezer or small fridge, whichever the lowest...then, get our fridge repaired..as it is a toshiba...not a 'cikai' one..Then, hubby went out...while he was out, my mind keep questioning..'nape nk rosak??'..then i felt thirsty...intend to make milo...so i have to boil some water...i get my kettle and plug it..but it was not working..then i tried the same socket for my rice cooker..also not working...then i tried other socket in the dining hall...and..the kettle was fine!!!

Quicky i rushed in the middle room to get the only long extension that we had.I plug and connect it to my fridge..and..the fridge is fine too!!!...Oh my dear...'napelah xterpk mlm td???try socket lain dulu...dok igt fridge rosak..mustahil rosak...bukan fridge jatuh ke ape...penat je hubby kuar g 7E mlm td and i risked my susu2 mlm td...isk3...'

So, lesson learnt..be cool and don't panic, think first of possible causes then action..haha..berguna kan ilmu electric electronics yg blajar ms kt skolah kn???..kemahiran hidup???...punca nya...hubby ade biarkan 1 socket open..xmati kan..and i guess they are all connected kt kitchen...so..live wired x matikan..so..die short circuit.....;p

Baby baru vs baby lama..

Since i had two kids in the house..mula2 OK..but after traveling tu..horror babe..but now..i'm getting into it..alhamdulillah...my anger is under controlled..my energy is back to normal..Alhamdulillah, my decision for this second delivery was very worth it..i feel more energetic as compared to the first delivery..maybe because i did not take any drugs or medication except antibiotiks and ubat nak yak2..ehehe..seriously...energy mmg cpt pulih...just that, my stitches tu quite long i guess and rs sore because i walked too much because need to visit my son at the nursery due to jaundice...

Baby Asif was delivered normal with weight slightly more than 4kg, just slightly..but the size was the same as Aqil.I was delighted I managed to deliver him safely as many said that my size is too small to deliver big babies...and i prove it wrong...inilah kuasa Allah...:)..but bb Asif kuar xnanges..kene paksa nanges..barulah menangis...same like Aqil..xnanges gak...after a while baru nanges..muka dia merah...bdn pon merah....and it was said, ms kuar tu...cord lilit kt neck dia...wallahualam..bila tgk gambar ms die baru kuar..xnmpak pon cord around his neck...

Aqil is so syg to Asif, can't tell in words how much Aqil lives his bro.Always kiss his bro sampai lemas menengoknya..but rs xpatut pulak nk tegah as, this is the time to connect both of them...mudah2 rapatlah diorg as sibling...:)..Aqil? still like baby....but i love to see him..a lots of tough time i went thru with him that unforgettable...Aqil was really tough...yet he is really 'manja'...


Aqil ms umur 1 month plus


Asif ms umur 3 minggu lebih

Rupa paras..still not confirmed as muka Asif berubah2 dr hari ke hari...he is still merah...and even Aqil pon berubah2...ape pon..hopefully both of them will grow up dan menjadi hamba Allah yg beriman dan anak2 yg soleh...Amin....

Pantang sendiri???

Gambar hiasan...Asif masih dlm perut...missed this place very much!!

I am still in my confinement period, however, this time, i'm doing it all by myself, no mom around, i'm taking care 2 kids in the house all by myself. I feel more comfy when staying at my own house rather than be in my parent's without hubby by my side. I had experienced it once during my first confinement, where i got terrible PND when hubby was not around. Then, after 2 weeks, I asked to be at home and my excuses during that time was to have Aqil first paed visit..hihi..and this time, my mom did not ask anything since she knew her dotter is really stubborn and independent.

Be a mother of two, actually, it was fine before i went back for my bro wedding. My stress level was OK, xde mrh2..but..after the wedding, we had a night time travelling, and i was so exhausted for many days..mengantuk xigt sampai xlrt nk bgn nk mandikn anak..it was really tiring..and i swear, never travel during early weeks of my confinement...or during confinement...better be at home and take of yourself...after this, no more traveling until further notice..dekat2 OK...but if a journet takes more than hour...OMG..kematu bontot....

I am easily get my anger bila penat2 ni..so yg jadi mangsa..Aqil..pantang wat slh..mesti i naik hangin..before..i cuba utk bersbr...dan guna sikologi kt dia whenever he makes mistake...now, i'm trying to get to normal...just like before the traveling took place..but...Asif is kind of 'manja'...need to be hold for a long time until he fall asleep..and now, my left arm dah lenguh...camne xlenguh..dok carry almost 5kg baby....Asif is quite a big baby for his age..he managed to gain 600g in 2 weeks...myself?..belum timbang lg..but last time...50kg..wah3...but perut..masih belum surut sepenuhnya..any tips??? nak kempis spt muda remaja dulu???heheh....

lain2 kesakitan...alhamdulillah..all gone...only that...worry of my perut...bila nk kempis ni...xceluih kebayaku....huhuhu....Asif still in his redness....his true color xkuar lg...kaler ape agaknye ehh??...ehehe..anyway...Aqil is really helpful...sgt syg kat Asif...always kiss his adik and now...sgt bijak berkata2...his sentences both in english and bahasa are really improving...however...masih ade lg sifat penakut dia...huhu..

i am glad i have given birth to these two wonderful boys and i am proud that having a husband that really understand my requirement for this second delivery...(barulah rs xserik nak beranak lg utk sayang!!!..ehehe)...I really love my 3 heroes of my life...Asif, cpt2 besar...mama nk bwk jenjalan gold coast~~~..ehehe....(entry ida berjln ke gold coast sgt megujakan...nnt aku follow up dgn ko ehh ida sume psl gold coast..tp lambat lg lah....)

Experience of using TENS Machine during labor..

My contraction was not really felt and i've decided to admit into hospital on 1st Dec just in case there might be a little opening or contraction which i didn't feel. I was on CTG and everything was OK and the Doc advised me to go home and wait until labor came. However, I've decided to get induced as I think, i might not feel the contraction as I think my bb love being in my tummy. And also, another reason is, i might not have sufficient time to recover rapidly since my brother wedding will take place on Awal Muharam..so, really need to recover fast.

Then, the Doc agreed to send me to maternity ward and had the induction tablet in. I really don't like it as when everytime they check the opening, however, this time around I'm glad because it was not as frequent as the first one which really put me into stress and the results, i was having bad postnatal depression and phobic. I really like the way the Doc compromising with me, really love this Doc which is really sporting and fullfilled my dreams to have the labor without any drugs..alhamdulillah..only during the stitching, she put some anesthetic injection as that already passed the delivery.

What did i use to relief the pain? I've requested to use my own TENS machine and the Doc allowed me, with the help of physioterapist, she put all the 4 electrodes on my back and with the brilliant understanding of the instruction from my hubby, I was able to control the machine myself. Actually, I intended to use this machine form the first pregnancy, however, it is need to be rented and the rental fee is quite expensive and I have no idea how big the machine is. And while in UK, I've studied about this machine and many have used it and recommend it. Then, I've decided to buy one for my own as I am going to use it for every pregnancy in future.Even it is costly, but, i really love it..plus, the electrode is sold in the hospital pharmacy as this machine is also being used for physioteraphy purposes.

I started to use it when i was in the labor room, after the water bag rupture by the Doc, I really don't like it, I guessed my "Vjj" has gotten very sensitive after the first pregnancy as during the first one, I'm OK when ever they put their hand inside my "Vjj".This time, I really like 'cacing kepanasan' and feel like want to knock the person out...hehe..Alhamdulillah I passed all the contraction very well with the help of the machine. But this machine is only recommended to those who can bear the real pain of labor, the Doc said I have very high pain treshhold, I don't know, but I think, my mom must be higher than me I guessed.And many others has high pain treshhold as it is said that the no 1 pain is the labor pain...

I tried to think of other thing but I can't.And that is why i feel very sore after the delivery..psikology also plays role in pain relief..if you have a really good brain nerve distraction (apa ni - meaning that u easily get distracted to other thing and forget about the pain) then, it is really good...

So, get yourself one TENS machine, it can be used not only in labor but for other thing as well. CEPAT2 PESAN pd diorg kt UK tuh....lots of choices...worth buying!!!

Short update...

Mesti ramai yg tertanya2, apesal lah xupdate blog ni..hehe.actually, i've tried to log in from the officce but was blocked, i can only read blogs but can't log in into my blog to give update..that is why blog ni dah berusang selama lebih 2 months after i returned to Malaysia..and now, i am in maternity ward, being induced, as the bb doesn't want to come out, happy playing inside my tummy i guess..so i've decided to induce today as it is already passed the EDD..there's none in my family history, anyone passed the EDD too long..doc told me to return...but i pity my husband dah amik cuti...so induce jelah...again..my dream nak rasa the thrill going to labor xdapek gak...xperla...belum rezeki lg...hehe...so tumpang happy dgr experience kwn2 yg dpt rs saket sebenar nk going to labor...

hmm..cite psl balik ritu...haih..mcm bunyi dah berlapuk pon ade...sampai 1 september..treus lepak sat kt hotel psl dah sedia maklum rumah kotor...and also, saya ni allergic habuk..so tuhlah pasal tido kt hotel one night...esok nyer cek out baru balik rumah....ok lah...just berhabuk je...mmg tebal...lantai itam....huhuhu...jenuh gak nk membersihkna..yerlah dgn jet lag lagi kan...haha...dgn rs bahang nye KL nih..maklumlah...baru sampi dr tpt sejuk...so..cepat2 psg aircond...psl mmg xthn panas...Aqil pon naik ruam2 semula...terus tuka pakai singlet je hari2...huhuh...

To be continued...psl tgh thn contraction and dah lenguh dok atas katil....nk berjln2....