Kuih-kuih...

Heee..sbb hari ni dpt mengupload gambo ke dlm blog nieh...jadi mari kita lihat kuih2 saya...haha..nk kembang semangkuk lah ni...psl ape nk kembang semangkuk??..sbb nyer...sy yg PEMALAS benor masuk ke dapur sejak menjak pregnant ni...berhasil jugak membuat beberapa jenis kuih..beberapa kah???..xsemua sempat di snap gambo2...hehe...tp saje nk tunjuk kuih2 sy...cantikkk takkk????...poyo kan???..


Ni muffin saya...rasenya before pregnant buat nih....ntahler...xigt...buat ms hubby nk pi amik kete....buat bekal die dan kwn2...Serupa kilang muffin dah...Sian Aqil xley mkn nih..ade susu dan coklat....die pon faham die xley mkn susu dan coklat....


Nih pulak donut yg hubby dok suh buat...jap jer habes mknnyer...Aqil suka giler...buat 2 round berturut-turut..psl esok nyer die mintak lagii...nk menguli nyer..mak aih...mujur xlenguh tgn...breadmaker xterbeli2 lg...jgn lupa udah...hihihi....


Ni karipap saya...suka2...hihihi...skang dh expert sket mengelim..kalau dulu2..sure huduh jer kelim nyer...hihihi...buat quite a few time..yg nih rsnyer inti sardin...hihihi...Aqil mkn kelim jer...isi xmo mkn...

The two bridge...

I feel very happy to write on today..so I separated today's activities into 2 posts.After we done with strawberries picking, we went down to forth bridge and another bridge which i dunno what the name is. Forth bridge is just like a lego creation..hehe...it is for the train rails...not for cars...the other bridge is for cars..There were so many people there...as I said, the weather today is really good for outing. There was a bot cruising too but we did not ride on it because we only be there for photography..chewah..I never thought that there's lot of thing in Edinburgh that are scenic and tourist attractions....yerlah...asyik masuk kelas...kuar kelas dh ptg....pehtu winter dok umah saja....xkuar psl sejuk menggigit tulang....then..masuk kelas balik....pehtu bersambung group project pulak..then bershopping online pulak..so..last..terperuk lah dirumah ajer...haha...


At the right..bridge for cars..At the left is the forth bridge..

I love to see the sea..I dunno why...the sea, the scenery...really make me enjoy my day...i love to take picture of the naturals...i dunno why..but I'm not into photography..I know..if you are really fond to it..you could have spend lots of money for it...but for me...I love to see with my own eyes..take picture..just for myself...i have a lots...but not printed...maklumlah..skang ni gune digicamm.... I could see the seabirds...i could see the boats..the cars...the train passing through the bridge...and my son keep calling the train.."Oh..there's Thomas..there's Thomas"


This is the boat ride that we did not explore...

When I point to the sea..he would say..."I want to go the water"..and he tried to climb up the fence...OMG...And when he saw the seabirds...he called them "look...ducks.."...When he saw the helicopter up in the sky...He would scream..."Heli-Op-ter.."....When he saw aeroplane..he would scream " Ae-lo-plane"..he just can say the "R" correcty....when i taught him to do..rrrrrrrr..he will keep silent and smile...hahah...kene ajar sebut R ni...adeh....my in law family..they can't even say "nombor" corretly...they say..."nombol"..hahaha.....


Tired Aqil....hehehe..

PYO Strawberries....Yummy!!!

This morning, my family and i were invited to join my former lecturer's trip to strawberry farm just not far from our house. I was so excited to join...I love going out with family friends so i can have adult conversation or watch the kids play together...So then, we departed from our house around half past 11 and arrived aroudn 15 minutes later...I thought it was really far as my hubby said the farm is near to the forth bridge...and the weather today is really good...no rain...so it is really enjoyable to spend the day out...


Strawberry secret hideout...:)

The farm name is Craigie's Farm..it has lots of berries...such as gooseberries, raspberries, strawberries, blueberries, redcurrants and also vegetables...and they are all organic...I think so!!...heheh..there's also a cafe for drinks and breads...also ice-cream....there's also tractor-like toys for children to play with..but we did not have time to try on since there was a lot of people at the farm today...


Aqil picking up his gooseberry....see the basket...all the strawberries had gone into his mouth...

We then picked up our basket, a big one and a small one for our little boy to pick up for himself. We were really enjoying the sunshine although there were not much of strawberries left...I think because it's already near end of season...however, we were still managed to pick some sweet and crunchy strawberries...We just went straight to the strawberries without testing the taste of other berries because I only loves strawberries, so does my son...while picking, he was eating..and for the first few strawberries...all gone into his mouth...so i was wondering how good the taste is..then, i have a try on myself...subhanallah...it was really sweet which u can't taste it when you buy one at the store...the taste and crunchyness you can taste it fresh!!! Even the color was not so red...it was still sweet...only few...i think ones which near to best before date that I wrongly picked, taste a bit sour...


Aqil was looking for his strawberry..

At the end, I was tired since I need to bend down to search for strawberries, I surrender when my son had his poopoo..lucky that i brought his nappy along...so we got changed and rest a while in the car. While in the car, i screen again the strawberries that we picked, only the best will be weighted and paid..hehe..the rest...will be put into our mouth...eheh...and we gained 875 grams of strawberries today...most of them were small and i think..if i spend the whole day there...i could have brought back the big ones...ehehe..and now...all the strawberries had been eaten by our little strawberries monster...only left a few that i saved for myself...hahaha...i think..all the harvest will finish by today...:)

New Policy lagiii...

Saya ni baru keje dgn kompeni P xsampai 5 thn..tp punyalah mcm2 perubahan management buat..seblum tu rsnya aman ja pekerja2 kompeni2 P ni..perubahan tang gaji tu OK jugak...buleh diterima sbbnya..mmg tangga gaji kompeni P yg kunun bertaraf antarabangsa mmg xsetara dgn kompeni2 seangkatannya di negara2 lain even negara yg politiknya asyik berkocak...haha..ramai rakan2 igt..kerja dgn kompeni P, dpt gaji besar, saya mmg cukup emo dgn anggapan ini..lainlah kalau gaji saya 5 angka tiap bulan..ya..mmg cukup besar tu...nk mkn kt starbuck bekfas hari2 pon buleh..xdak hal....

Berbalik pd perubahan policy terbaru yg dgr khabar nya staff xley kawen sama2 staff..uiks?? Hendak mencabar hukum alam kah??Kemudian ada pulak yg ckp, utk existing staff akan dioffer VSS pulak...haih..mcm2..apa yg sy doakan..biarlah usul2 ni xmenjadi dan biarlah sediakala..kenapa ini berlaku..sy pasti semua kerana desakan org2 luar yg sentiasa tidak berpuas hati dgn kebahagiaan staff2 di kompeni P.Inilah masyarakat kita, pantang tgk org lain lebih, mesti nk cucuk2..Alih, utk menjaga hati org luar, maka timbullah perubahan2 yg tidak enak kpd staff2 kompeni P...terbaru, sampaikan bonus kompeni P jatuh kurang berbanding thn2 terdahulu walaupon keuntungan berlipat kali ganda berlebih dr thn2 terdahulu..kenapa??..Pasti ada org2 luar yg komplen..kononnya staff2 kompeni P dpt bonus byk tiap tahun..Tp sy heran..kenapa meraka asyik xpuas hati..haih..sy mmg emo bab ni..walau keja saya taklah sampai dimaterialisekn kpd duit..tp keja2 kwn2 sy yg berhempas pulas mencari keuntungan syarikat, tentu lebih terasa drpd sy....keja kwn2 sy yg mn tiap2 kali buku akaun hendak ditutup...pasti lebih terasa drpd sy...masyarakat di luar..masih tidak memahami kenape staff2 kompeni wajar diberi keistimewaan itu...pd sy...jika...jika...kompeni P gagal beroperasi dgn baik...tiadalah MALAYSIA pd hari ini..tiadalah KLCC pd hari ini..jadi...masyarakat perlu sedar kehadiran kompeni P yg telah menaikkn martabat Negara..jadi apalah slhnya kompeni P timang2 staff2 yg telah pulun utk menjaga nama negara ini???? Hish..emo ni...

Pertukaran management pon menjadi titik perubahan terhdp policy2 dlm kompeni P..konon nk lebih outstanding..tp sy heran dgn sikap manusia yg tidak habes2 hendak mengejar nama spy dimarked..oh..inilah perubahan yg telah dilakukn..spjg ini, perubahan yg sy buleh terima ialah kenaikan gaji pd kali pertama dahulu...lain2..sumer nyer terpaksa ikot..nak tak nak..perkara itu ttp akan dilaksanakan...lagipon keja sy tidaklah seberapa berat..mungkin jika kerja sy dh berat kelak...sy akan lebih terasa...apabila dibandingkn dgn mereka2 yg bekerja di opis lain yg menerima gaji lumayan dr sy...tp sy anggap itu rezeki mereka...sy sudah sgt bersyukur sewaktu diterima masuk kompeni P..sy suka benefit2 nya..dan skang sy mulai risau benefit2 itu ditarik balik atas sbb nk jg hati org luar...top2 management yg baik2 dan berakal..kebyknnya nk pencen..tinggal org2 baru yg eager nk buat perubahan..mungkin ada kepentingan tertentu tanpa memikirkn org bwhn....ntahlah...yg menajdi mangsa..eksekutif yg tidak berpersatuan....terpaksalah terima segalanya...redha xredha..situlah periuk nasi...dahla skang ni ekonomi xmenentu...dgn cerita VSS...bila agaknya sy dpt berumah diatas tnh..ptg2 buleh bercucuk tnm kt laman rumah yer....hmmm.....angan...oh..angan.....

A tiring vacation...serik deh....

Last weekend we went to London, Mr Hubby's arrangement. But it was a really tiring experience and I hope I will asked no more for this while pregnant. I was not enjoying my self at all but what I get is all a tiring experience. I've been imagining this but I still proceed with the plan just to "jaga hati" my hubby as I've always asked to go to London to see how is it looks like and guess what, I don't think I like London. Yeah, London must be a shopping heaven for some people but not me. I am not a luxurious shopaholic so I don't see the attractiveness of London. Ha Ha..Guess what, all the big2 boutiques along the Oxford Street are having sales and I don't even eager to have a look because my tiring feet was killing me badly..I had to carry 12 kg todd whenever he got cranky and I know..He's also didn't like London..Always asked to get home from the very first day...Lucky we don't study in London but in Edinburgh where we really got a peaceful life.

London is just like KL, that is why I don't like it. I like a peaceful place..like kampung lahh...because I know, in a Metropolitan city like London, people are rude and the crime rate is high. My hubby was really worry as I was carrying handbag and I said there's nothing in it..just Quran...my walllet always in pocket and so my hp..It was just because my handbag is not a zipped ones. Yeah, while strolling around London, we don't feel so secured as we strolled around edinburgh. We travelled a lot by Tube and there i found the London's people just the same as KL people...which I really don't like..even they are said to be very civilised but i think, London is full with foreigners and people from outside. They don;t even care to give a seat to a pregnant lady or a father who holding a kid...and they even looked up...what the ****???? I was really shocked to see London's people atttitude...and at the tube station, during rush hour...just the same as at our LRT station...OMG..i feel like I was in KL...surrounded by people who walked really fast and just bumped you without saying sorry.....

The streets were always full of cars and buses...I dd not see any tram though..I think it is at farther zone.And the tube ticket is really expensive...so does the bus ticket...Glad I am in Edinburgh...I think...Scotts are more decent and polite though.....The buses are not stroller friendly as in edinburgh...the steps are quite high...I can see that...also the tube station are not all steps free...that is why we stopped using stroller on the second day as pity my hubby need to carry the stroller up n down the stairs..and I have to carry the todd....that is why I said..it was really a tiring trip....

However, despite the bad things or unforgiven things happened in London., we managed to get to Malaysian Hall and have Malaysian food everyday...haha..yummy yeahh...lucky my baby in the tummy still there as i was really worried because I was damned tired during the end of the day...which I know, baby will also experiencing the same thing..we also get to capture some picture on the attractive sites of London..couldn't post it here..maybe somewhen next time..We went around London by tour bus which is not stroller friendly at all...remember this...huhu...and the bus is damned really fast...just like you were on the city bus...huhu....it was really different when we ride on tour bus in Vienna...the bus went slow so the tourist can see the whole city clearly and take pictures....I like Vienna...very peaceful...but they don't speak english of course...hahaha....and difficult to find Halal food...not like London..it is really easy to find Halal food...but i did not get to Halal KFC or Nandos...as I'm on saving mode....hihi...

If you plan to go to London for vacation..please consider these few things I listed below:

1. Don't go if you're pregnant more than 4 months and with toddlers. Toddler gets cranky easily when they are tired or get too excited...Sian my Aqil..sampai lebam2 kene cubit dgn papa...but I cannot do anything as I was really damned tired to handle all by myself...

2. London streets are busy during weekdays..Less busy during weekend..I would suggest, go on weekend for strolling but if you want to shop...I think..best is Saturday...please don't bring children with you while shopping...xdapek nyer nk shopping babe....

3. Plan where you are going to stay...I would suggest for you all to stay nearby Malaysian Hall..snang nk mkn...hehe...there's a few travelodge there....I stayed in Premier Inn..ok la..nearby the train station..so xyah nk travel2 to get to the train station kan...snang...book as early as possible...so you can get the cheapest rate in town...hihi....oh ya..Malaysia Hall is located nearby to Bayswater Tube station or to be specific...in Queensborough Terrace...

4. If you bwk kids..better to go for kids attraction places rather than historical places...mcm Big Ben, Tower Bridge..this is a lesson learnt to me...don't plan to a place that u want to...but think of the kids...if you want to bring them along...:)..kalau x...haru biru lah vacation itu....penat je dpt...budak nanges ajer..sian kt budak....

5. Plan your trip..jgn main terjah ajer...like mine...main terjah..so jd penat...and I think..I will not be going anywhere dah after this...sbb dh sgt serik...plus My Hubby cam terpaksa jer bwk...sbb I insisted so long nk jln2...but then, he brought me at the wrong time...because I was in no mood of travelling....and I am in 20 weeks of pregnancy...my tummy is already big though....

6. Make sure yourselves are really fit if you bring kids..kalau budak kecik less than 3 years...kdg mintak dukung...so make sure you are really strong to do so...and please...jgn merungut...lg penat kalau merungut...and..yeah..pity the kids...use your psychology to treat the kids OK...I've almost cry when seeing my son cry sbb kene cubit...then my heart sobbed when seeing the bruises he had....so don't allowed your hubby to punish the kids as they have no heart....(mrh nih....tp ape nk buat...bende dh jadik kn...mmg dh tahu kalau ayah yg punis..mesti berbekas....)

I am still tired...my body ached badly...I hope the sore will gone in a quick time as I need to finish my homework...only a month to go..oh...so quick...cepat2...wat report....huhu...

Planning for Aqil's 3rd Birthday!!!

Tak pernah celebrate birthday Aqil buat jamuan kt rumah..jamu kwn2 dan saudara mara yg dkt2 dgn rumah. Sendiri pon pnah dpt only once jer birthday party kt rumah...hihi..tu pon kecil-kecilan ajer..jemput kwn2 sepermainan jer...dgn jiran2 seblah menyebelah...Igt kali ni...nk buat jugak utk Aqil..so die akan rs occupied with budak2 sebaya dgn dia...dan mama dia boleh lah beramah mesra dgn kwn2 mama....tp...di mn yg sesuai nk diadakn yer??...dulu kecik2..pnahlah makcik2 yg tinggal kt KL (ms tu baru 6 thn kot) bwk g Macdonald celebrate bday...Best sgt...dpt mcm2 toys...tp skang Mcdonald kasi toys kecik2 jer..dulu2..besar2....huhuhu....siyap dpt coloring book lagi...best3...so...pergi Macdonald..hanya apabila kaki menjengah KL...psl diorg stay kt bangsar....slalu pergi Macdonald yg kt bangsar tu lah...sampai skang masih wujud lg Macdonald tu....

OK, back to Aqil's birthday plan...since birthday die jatuh hari isnin...rs2 wajar buat weekend seblum ke??? selepas yer??? Aper list yg kene sedia utk wat jamuan mkn2 tu yer???...and waktu ape yg sesuai??? Sbb xpnah ade pengalaman kan....Menu dia....hmmm..birthday cake nampak gaya kene special booking sbb die xley gune butter or milk...pehtu....as he wish...die cake ade muka THOMAS....ade ke kedai kek yg pandai buat kek cemtu...igt nk wat sendiri...tp mamanyer ni..mana lah reti deco2....huhuhu....

Mama, Aqil nak cake cenggini...hihihi....

Then...rumah dok kondo...kecik jer rumah...muat ke kalau jemput org ramai2..huhuh...nk jemput siapa pon xtahu lg...kalau buat kt kolam renang bwh tu...kene jemput 2 blok kondo tu pulak...hihihi...sekali lah...birthday Aqil tu dgn housewarming..xpnah buat lg...psl br jer pindah...dah dtg UK pulak..brg2 pon byk dlm kotak lg...tp rasenyer...bulan 10 tu pon..brg2 byk dlm kotak lg...or..brg2 dr UK yg diship tu pon...rase2nyer...xsampai2 lagi....huhuhu....kwn2 sudi ke dtg ker teratak buruk saya nih??????

The result....

I just went to scan this afternoon.It was an anomaly scan and was done for about more than half an hour. The radiographer was really kind and she explained everything she saw to me and i just like, wow, feeling like I'm having a first class treatment. She scanned everything and when she could not get good picture of my baby, she asked me to empty the bladder and waited me outside so that I won't enter the wrong room because there were so many many rooms and I was second time being there. I really like the atmosphere, very friendly and you'll feel it is worth waiting before you got your scan. And I was really satisfied with the scanning processes which I learned a lot today about my baby. Now i list what i can see - anyway this is the normal scanning not 3 D:

1. I saw the baby yawning - sleepy yeh?? it was afternoon anyway...time for nap...hehe
2. I saw the lip - i think the baby got mine..hihi...I don't know...but it is as beautiful as the brother though...
3. I can see the legs - crossed legs ok...hehe..bersila ke???
4. I can see the feet with all the fingers...alhamdulillah..all looks fine..
5. I can see the hands - sempat lagi hi-5 mama yer baby!!!
6. I can see the heart beating and my guts said the beats were gentle and I think the baby was at calm mode..xmcm abg..laju giler dgr heartbeat dia...huhu...asyik melompat jer...hihi..
7. I saw the baby putting the hand into mouth...
8. I saw the nose - looks like mine ajer....got batang hidung...
9. I saw the spine...looks fine...
10. I saw the kidneys...and they are fine....
11. The brain development - she measured the cereblum, medula...and all are fine..

Alhamdulillah...the baby is in a good position - liquor OK, placenta OK and the age is 20 weeks and 4 days...EDD still on 27th Nov 2009...hope the baby goes out earlier than that...mama want to get dressed in university robe and grabbed my Msc...ehehe...

Only that...............................

I feel frustrated.......................

Maybe I put too much hope...............

Maybe I wasn't pray so hard.............

Maybe my life was really sinful in Edinburgh...........

I will get another hero.................my fear....my big fear has come again......

Then.......I blames Mr Hubby...of course....huhu...nobody to be blamed though...just him or me....I tried my best...and still a boy....I wish for a girl...and still the feeling to have a girl still there....kempunan nk beli baju pink....kempunan sgt...

But....I do love the baby...I'll do the same as I took care your bro....I'll never make any difference of my love to you...it's just I have the fear...that...there will be no girls in our family...it just that....it just that....really....because my sister got girl for her second...and also hub's cousin...and my side...if 2nd boy...then...it become all boys in the family....And the fear also came...what will be the family sayings...specially from Mr Hubby's side...specially my MIL....she was hoping for girl too...my mom...oh dear...will she has time to have another granddaughter???....Pity to my niece...xde gegirl cousin....all boys....oh..dear...and it's gonna be another 'anak mama' which the greatest fear....as I will never have a good time for myself...Mr Hubby will treat the same as the first one....this truly a challenge to me....I need helper but i don't want 'alien' in the house...Aqil is still small to help me....But he must be really happy got a company to share his toys....Thomas and Bob freak!! :) Anyway...I still happy...I got 2 bodyguards....and easy for me to plan the room...they can instantly share the room...I plan to decorate their room with blue theme...everything blue....

"Ya Allah...berilah kekuatan untukku menerima kenyataan ini..jauhi lah aku drpd kufur akan nikmat-Mu...Ya Allah...berilah aku keyakinan dlm mendidik anak2 ku menjadi anak yg soleh semoga dpt menyelamatkn ku dr siksa api neraka-Mu....Ya Allah...celikkn mata dan hatiku agar aku dpt melihat dgn jelas hikmah di sebalik setiap pemberian-Mu...Amin...."

2nd pregnancy experience...

The first one was unexpected and unplanned but everything went OK only a few months of morning sickness which happened usually in the evening and at home. However, I was still energetic to do stuffs eventhough I was having morning sickness.

The second one is quite different though. This time was a planned pregnancy and Alhamdulillah, Allah granted our prayers.:) However, the challenges are so big that there's sometimes I felt unbearable. With coming to 3 y.o boy around me really makes me sick everyday. He is so brilliant with tricks and stuffs and always cling with me whenever he is at home. Also he's started to make some cues to gain attention from me regardless whether I'm sick or tired or hungry. He cries a lot nowadays and I was really at my uppermost temper. Since I don't want to be cruel to him, I just let him cry and i kept silent just to wash away my anger. But, sometimes, I do gently 'pukul' him or pinch him whenever I have to repeat the same instruction again and again - cannot 'sabar' anymore..huhu..I was wrong when i thought getting pregnant when the first child is already grown up will be easier but it is tougher i think..

Yeah, this second pregnancy, although i did not vomit a lot like last time but my nausea was still as bad as last time. Furthermore, I can't hold to do housework frequently as everytime i do it, my body will turn into blue, i guess. I never explore why I always be like this but it was really terrifying everytime I'm almost turn to black out. This always happened after i just about to finish doing the cooking. I will feel very cold, my feet, hands were all cold, my body just felt restless more a like want to fall down and i becoming breathless. I quickly sat down or lie down a few minutes until the feeling fade away.First I thought maybe because I started to do work before I eat anything but today, I do eat something...but it is still happening...It was already the third time and I was really freaking out if I were to collapsed - this never happened in my life though...I was also thinking of my low blood pressure or low HB count, but the blood test result showed that I am all right, my HB count is still safe but i'm not sure how about now since i did not take any supplement to maintain my HB like last time. I was told by the midwife that here, they don't supply iron to pregnant women and instead advice me to eat balanced diet and take multivitamin which i've been taking at my own cost..-nasib baik xmahal beb-

Tomorrow I'll be having my anomaly scan and i guess the final scan in UK, sorry baby, mommy will not give birth to you in the UK..:)..Your daddy doesn't want to...I hope my baby will all fine. I just bought the prenatal heart listening system, and I just listened to the tiny heartbeat yesterday. It was really hard to get her heartbeat heard only her kicking can be heard loud. I bought the stuff secondhand though, from a mother of two who had one pair of boy and girl...hope I'll get a girl this time...but i don't want to so much high hope though...whether she or he...I'll accept as is...because he/she is my child....
Angelcare nappy disposal system

I also bought few more baby stuff in addition to what we already have where I find appropriate because I know, in KL, it is really hard to find them..at a cheaper price...:)..or..they don't sell it in KL...hahah...I am also planning to buy the TENS machine which will reduce (i hope so) the contraction pain during labor and i hope the private hospital allow this machine to be used in the labor room as i really hate the drugs being put in my body as i was really restless after labor last time due to consuming too much of drug while having contraction pain...
Prenatal heart listening system