Pada hari minggu lepas, saya dan kluarga pulang ke rumah tpt saya dibesarkan di Ipoh, Perak. Menghantar mak yg 3 minggu membantu saya mengawal anak-anak. Terima Kasih Mak!
Kami tiba di Ipoh dalam tengahari gitu. Sampai rumah, Abah xde pulak. Abg Ngah pon xde jugak, kerja la tu. Abgli pulak, tgh tunggu anak sementara kak ipar masak lauk tgh hari kt rumah dia. Last-last, mak panaskan roti canai, kami bekal perut dgn roti canai lebih breakfast pagi td. Suami bli byk giler (die mmg suke bli byk-byk, igt perut istri die perut tong kot!). Lepas tu tunggu Abah lg, rupanye die pegi service beskal die.
Abah skang ni mungkin tgh kayuh beskal utk mengcompletekan ekspidisi berbasikal warga emas die. Nak larang pon dah xdpt, psl kita risaukan keselamatan die, tp die ckp die buleh buat. Jadi ikotkan shj, asal die gembira. Umur Abah tu dah nk masuk 69 thn. Kuatkan Abah saya! Harap-harap die selamat!
Hari Ahad, kiterg nk pulang cepat, byk bende nk buat kt rumah. Mmg dh mcm tongkang pecah. Senin cuti, xtahu nape suami suh amik cuti.
Kami bertolak agak lewat, tunggu mak abes msk, dpt bawak balik bekal, beras kt umah pon dh abes, so siap dgn nasi la kami bwk balik. Hehehe. On the way balik, suami ty, nk g Cameron tak. Mula-mula rs xnak, psl dh mmg igt nk kemas rumah ni. Tp sbb dh sampai simpang nk masuk Cameron Highland, terus setuju ajer! Dalam kepala dah terbyg-byg sayuran cameron highland dah ni!
Perjalanan mmg lalu ikot jln ular, tp xlah curam sgt kalau naik dr tapah. Dari simpang pulai, akan jumpe brinchang dulu. Dr tapah, akan jumpe tanah rata dulu.
Tetiba hujan turun. Hujan turun sekejap-sekejap. Jadi xmenyinggah pon mana walau nampak ade bende-bende menarik tepi kiri kanan jln. Satu lg, susah pon nk kuar dgn budak2 kalau tgh hujan. Asif sdap tido dlm pangkuan. Hampir sejam lebih gak nk sampai brinchang.
Tetiba lalu la kt area rumah-rumah penginapan. Kendian lalu kt satu resort. Resort tu berhadapan dgn padang golf. Hari masih hujan, jadi saya pon xtahu nk decide nk singgah mana. Tetiba suami pusing, masuk ke perkarangan Cameron Highland Resort. Saya sangka suami nk wat U-turn, nk patah balik ke Kea farm, buat beli sayur seblum sambung perjalanan nk balik KL.
Tiba dpn tangga resort, saya dah pelik, nape benti kt sini. So, igt, mungkin ni tpt fine dining kot. Kebetulan masa tu pon lunch hour. So, saya turun dgn anak-anak. Tunggu kt lobi. Terjenguk2 gak, mana tpt mkn nye. Takde org pon. Saya dah rs termalu, isk, watper kt sini nih. Mahal tpt nih! Sofa, perhiasan sume tersusun kemas. Cantik.
Kemudian, nampak suami angkut beg kami dgn porter tu kelam kabut membantu. Suami terus direct ke reception. Eh laa, nk bermlm kt sini ke? Seriusly, saya xtahu menahu ttg rancangan ini. Baju-baju packed ukt keperluan 1 mlm jer. Sudahhhh....
Saya ke tandas dgn Aqil, dh nk terkencing sgt die. Pas balik dr tandas, nampak suami tgh duduk, ade gelas atas meja menunggu. Air teh bunga panas. Wah, sdap, pestu kami beransur dgn porter ke bilik penginapan. Sampai di eskot, porter tu terangkan facilities yg ada kt resort tu. Wah, terasa cam org kaya-kaya g bercuti lak! Padahal baju selekeh ajer, segan saya!
Sampai bilik ade 2 biji limau menanti yg telah dikerjakn oleh Asif, dibuatnya spt bola. Die makan limau tu sampai habes baju basah dgn limau. Sementara tunggu hujan benti, kiterg mkndulu bekal mak bagi dlm bilik. Bila hujan dh benti, kitorg pon kuar, nk jln-jln. Kami sempat g minum teh kt tepi ldg teh Bharat jer. Nk turun petik daun teh xdpt, psl hujan renyai-renyai dan laluan agak lecah. Tambah Asif sibuk nk main payung kaki.
Selesai situ, kami g cari baju kt mana eh? lupa lak. Tnh rata ke atas siket dr tnh rata. Ada mcm psr mlm kt situ. So, buleh bli mkn dinner sekali. Elok jer pilih punya pilih baju, hujan balik. Hmm, asyik hujan jer kan! Bertuah sungguh, xangkut payung kaki Asif ms kuar dr keta. Ha, so, tunggu la hujan benti. Dah benti hujan, g psr mlm, bli apam balik mini yg crispy tu, sdap sungguh!! Beli nasi lemak wat dinner.
On the way balik ke resort, hujan lagii. So, Masuk bilik letak brg, saya cdgkan jom bwk bebudak main kt playroom. Sbb playroom die indoor, so budak-budak dpt have fun! So off, we went to playroom. Masuk playroom, ade 2 tV game, 2 pc, 1 tv besar. Wah, sy dh teruja nk main PS2 dgn suami. Sementara anak-anak main toys budak2 kt the other side dlm bilik tu. Tapi, start je suami nk main PS2, tetibe, sorg-sorg dtg menyibuk. Terus xjadi main. Kami main dgn budak-budak ajer lah sambil curi-curi surfing ikot turn!
Seronok, psl bilik tu, kami sekeluarga ajer yg main. Adala sekali family chinese ni dtg masuk nk amik gambar baby sulung die. Sungguh excited psgn tu! Oh, seblum ke playroom tu, kami tgk-tgk ikan. Sayangnye terlps ms mkn. ms tu dh kul 6++ ptg. Jadi tgk jelah. Besar gilerrr ikan Kap jepun die. Anak-anak sampai cuak. Jgn kata anak-anak, mak budak pon cuak, psl diorg berpusu-pusu dtg kt kami.
Pukul 7ptg kami naik bilik, sbb Aqil nk tgk BoboiBoy dia. Tak habes-habes dgn BoboiBoy, Asif pon dah pandai sebut Boboi.
Malam kami xkuar, so berehat kt bilik sbb budak2 pon dah restless. Main seronok sgt kt playroom.
Pagi esoknye, kami turun bersarapan. Seblum berjln-jln sekitar Cameron. Kami masuk dining hall, tapi xnampak pun buffet nya. Pelayan situ ty kami dr bilik mana, terus bawak kami ke meja yang agak hujung. Dalam tu ade 2 meja jer yg berorang, tgh mkn. Saya dah pelik, erk, fine dining ke ape ni? Pepagi buta dh kene serve. Suami pon pelik, siap tolak kn kusi, letakkan kain napkin. Wah, mmg kelasss.Then, dtg sebakul roti campuran. Owh, croissant dia sgt sdap ok. Mak tgh lapar giler, mmg balun ajer. Cereal Aqil pon diorg serve. Air minum, pure juice, pun diorg tuangkan. Saya tergamam jap. Erk, mhl kang nk byr breakfast camni, siap ade 2-3 org melayan kami semeja. Maklum la, meja ade budak-budak kan. Order pon ikot menu atas meja. So, kami mmg order utk 4 org, siap dgn penkek khas utk Asif tp Asif xmkn, die sdap minum juice watermelon dgn separuh croissant yg sdap tu. Last-last, penkek die Aqil yg mkn. Pdhal order waffle utk Aqil, tp stroberi jem die xsdap kt tekak kampung ni ha...so xmkn. Saya dan suami order kuetiow goring, isk..apela..order la western breakfast kn! Huhuhu...pastu dh nk cpt, kang mkn masa lama lak kt meja mkn, terus off g jln2.
Ni lah pertama kali, kami dilyn cam org kaya-kaya waktu breakfast. Best tp sebenarnye rs awkward sgt2 sbb kiterg ni org kebanyakan ajer, bukan bangsawan. Resort manager siap dtg kt meja kiterg ty how's everything, and bagi namecard. Saya sangka cuma for business stay jer org wat gitu, eh, family stay pon die lyn cemtu gak. Kelas-kelas.
Tanya suami, bp rate kt situ. Die ckp, resort tu 5 star resort kt Cameron Highland. Yg paling best, dan paling mhl kt Cameron. Tapi of kos, xde maknenye nk stay in ms peak time. Tu psl Aqil kene ponteng skolah senin tu...ehehe..so merasa la kejap duduk rumah sejuk walau utk semlm. Budak-budak pon sgt happy sbb xberpeluh kot..so xcranky. Cuaca sedap gitu, saya siap ckp, jum bli umah kt cameron utk masa tua..sejuk..nyaman jerrr..tp suami ckp, susah anak cucu nk dtg jenguk...hahaha...
Percutian yg simple but sweet. Macih sayang..Muah-muah..lain kali buat lagi ehh...tp jgn lupa sorok baju2 kiterg dlm beg tau....xmo recycle baju-baju busuk!..eheehe...:)
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Award 2011
Rule #1: to thank those who awarded me Thank you CAHYA SCHATZ for awarding me with this award
wahhhhhhhhh!!
Rule #2: to write 7 and few things about me
No. 1
I am THIN!
No.2
I am GenY baby!
No.3
I am Married with a husband and 2 kids.
No.4
I love to EAT!
No.5
I love cooking!
No.6
I love baking!
No.7
I love spending time with husband n kids!
Rule #3: to award it to others to keep the cycle going
This one I disobeyed.
Anyone from my PeeKaBoo list can do this at their own comfortable time!
Rule #4: to inform those recipients
When you read this, you've been awarded with this award!!
Styleeee!!!!
Friday, March 18, 2011
Panas & Hujan = Hujan Panas
Skang ni isu hangat is tsunami kt Jepun. Saya bersimpati sgt2 dgn mangsa2, hari2 saya mendoakan spy mereka tabah dan yg masih selamat, terus selamat terutama rakan2 yg saya kenal tinggal kt jepun. Musibah dtg tanpa dijangka, itulah qadha dan qadar Allah.
Begitu jugak yg terjadi pd saya. Manusia merancang, Allah juga penentu. Panas yg disangka berpanjangan sampai berpeluh-peluh...xdisangka tetibe hujan petir siap guruh datang bertandang (eh madah pulak...geli ai!!..kekeke).
Igt tak entry saya psl SUKA!...entry tu sy rs, sy patut delete atau tuka tajuk jd DUKACITA! Tapi saya xnak meluahkan segala terbuku kt dlm ni sbb nnt mcm mengada2 pulak. Tapi rsnya sy perlu share ape yg terbuku kt sini, spy menjadi peringatan buat diri saya yg bende ni pnah terjadi pd sy, dan bila sy baca balik in future, dan sy tahu, betapa sy bertabah dan berlikunyer kehidupan sy yg penah saya tempuhi sehingga sy menjadi org tertentu pd hari tertentu.
DUKACITA yg saya maksudkan adalah ttg policy/governance kompeni tpt sy keje skang. Ikutkan hati, saya ingin cari pekerjaan diluar, ttp tahap keyakinan diri sy teramat rendah kerana pengalaman yg ada, xmungkin menjustify/support application saya kt luar sana. Mungkin gaji pon lebih rendah dr apa yg saya dpt skang. Itu mungkin sukar utk saya terima dgn ape yg ada skang cukup-cukup utk keperluan keluarga saya. Alhamdulillah.
Tambahan, perlu menapak dr bawah, kalau kompeni skang, sy dpt jawatan permanent which is sgt bersyukur, kalau kt luar sana, pasti contractual dan sgt agresif, hmm, susah pulak saya nk meet KPI rumahtangga iaitu melahirkan generasi cerdik pandai! Kompeni eh department skang pulak xmenjamin perkembangan career sy dimn job gred saya mungkin xberubah sampai bila-bila kalau saya xkluar dr dept saya. Dalam erti kata lain, tiada career progression. Pengurus besar pulak xbegitu concern ttg permasalahan saya sbb die ade authority to make anything happens. So, saya sgt rs dianaktirikan.
Nak mengadu kt bos yg akan bersara 2 thn lg pon, mcm xnampak penyelesaian sbb pdgn die pon akan hantar ke division yg dh dimangga/atau diseal selama-lamanya (sampai bertuka VP dan VP tu bermurah hati bukak seal tersebut). Jadi ke mana arah saya?
Saya kemam mulut, saya cubit tgn saya sendiri spy jgn menangis. Supaya tabah, tiap yg terjadi pasti ade hikmah, saya mula berfikir, apa silap saya, adakah ini kifarah atas dosa-dosa saya seblum ni? Mcm-mcm merasuk fikiran saya semalam. Berkali-kali sy pujuk diri, jgn slhkn suami sbb dia apply masuk tpt yg saya idam-idam sbb dulu pon pnah terjadi, dan sy xmahu terjadi lagi, di mana saya dan suami jadi xsebulu dan asyik memendam rasa dgn suami.
Saya sedih, pilu, sbb saya xdpt mencapai cita-cita saya, saya xkenal org besar-besar dlm kompeni saya, saya agak pendiam, saya mungkin xbegitu reach out type of person tapi saya ada cita-cita. Disebbkn cita-cita itu sy berhempas pulas meletakkn diri saya utk mengqualifykn diri sy utk jawatan itu.
Saya beristigfar byk kali, spy saya xbuat sesuatu diluar pemikiran saya. Saya beristigfar memujuk diri saya spy bersabar. Namun akhirnya, saya luahkan kt stereng kerete. Saya menangis sepuas-puasnya, seblum saya menapak ke rumah spy reda bungkam di hati. Reda kekecewaan di hati. Spy saya tetap dpt tersenyum dgn kepulangan suami ke pangkuan saya. Spy sy xmrh2 anak2 disbbkn sy keciwa. Saya menangis spt anak kecil xdpt lolipop kesukaan. Mendayu-dayu sambil pdg kiri kanan takut2 org ketuk pintu kete dan ty "what's wrong mem?"..sbb ms tu kt parking kete bwh condo.
Saya ke psr, bli apa yg patut sbb suami minta nasi lemak sambal udang. Beli udang, beli char kuey tiow, amik adik, dan balik. Dalam perancangan, nk msk nasi lemak dan sambal udang sbb suami ckp dijangka tiba mlm. Saya agak, dlm 8 mlm, just in time for dinner.
Sampai dpn pintu rumah, istigfar lg, dlm kete seblum naik, sempat ngadu kt adik.."Adik, mama sedih". Asif cuma buat muka comel ajer. Sejuk siket hati. Depan pintu rumah, dlm hati terasa, mcm suami dh balik. Grill xbermangga, cume terkunci, Mula agak, mungkin mak kuar buang sampah kot.
Naluri seorg isteri tu kuat. Bila nk bukak pintu rumah, pintu xkunci, pehtu nampak muka Aqil berseri-seri, saya dah agak, mesti suami dh balik, die menyorok blkg pintu rupanya. Saya pujuk diri, senyum-senyum. Suami pulang dr jauh, xkn nk tgk isteri bad mood pulak. Saya cuba diamkan ape yg terbuku.
Saya jd awkward dgn suami, setelah hampir 4 bulan xbertemu. Tambah sy sedang dilanda dukacita. Saya kesiankn suami, saya pulang lewat, hampir jam 7 pm. Sempat masak nasi goreng, dan buatkn air. Hrp2 nasi goreng tu ada rasa, siap berdoa ms solat magrib, biarlah hidangan mlm tu sedap pd tekak suami. Saya letak sikit jer, tahu mlm2 suami mkn siket kalau saya msk, mujur habes...(jg hati kot!ekeke..) kalau tak..mungkin dukacita saya bertambah...
Lepas tidokn Asif, setelah puas die mengenal semula papa die dan bermain sepuas-puasnye papa die. Saya menung kejap, saya xsdar airmata mengalir lg mengenang nasib. Sekali lagi, sy pujuk hati, jgn menangis dpn suami yg baru pulang dr jauh, nnt hilang keseronokan die berjumpe semula dgn keluarga yg terpaksa ditinggalkan sbb kerjaya.
Saya masih belajar terima hakikat, saya masih berkira-kira ttg option2 lain kecuali menjadi surirumah sepenuh masa atau berbisnes kecilan/besaran. Saya boleh melupakan cita-cita saya, dan teruskn apa yg saya lakukan skang, tp sy pilu apabila mengenang ijazah master yg sy genggam dlm segala kepayahan tu, terbiar....
Begitu jugak yg terjadi pd saya. Manusia merancang, Allah juga penentu. Panas yg disangka berpanjangan sampai berpeluh-peluh...xdisangka tetibe hujan petir siap guruh datang bertandang (eh madah pulak...geli ai!!..kekeke).
Igt tak entry saya psl SUKA!...entry tu sy rs, sy patut delete atau tuka tajuk jd DUKACITA! Tapi saya xnak meluahkan segala terbuku kt dlm ni sbb nnt mcm mengada2 pulak. Tapi rsnya sy perlu share ape yg terbuku kt sini, spy menjadi peringatan buat diri saya yg bende ni pnah terjadi pd sy, dan bila sy baca balik in future, dan sy tahu, betapa sy bertabah dan berlikunyer kehidupan sy yg penah saya tempuhi sehingga sy menjadi org tertentu pd hari tertentu.
DUKACITA yg saya maksudkan adalah ttg policy/governance kompeni tpt sy keje skang. Ikutkan hati, saya ingin cari pekerjaan diluar, ttp tahap keyakinan diri sy teramat rendah kerana pengalaman yg ada, xmungkin menjustify/support application saya kt luar sana. Mungkin gaji pon lebih rendah dr apa yg saya dpt skang. Itu mungkin sukar utk saya terima dgn ape yg ada skang cukup-cukup utk keperluan keluarga saya. Alhamdulillah.
Tambahan, perlu menapak dr bawah, kalau kompeni skang, sy dpt jawatan permanent which is sgt bersyukur, kalau kt luar sana, pasti contractual dan sgt agresif, hmm, susah pulak saya nk meet KPI rumahtangga iaitu melahirkan generasi cerdik pandai! Kompeni eh department skang pulak xmenjamin perkembangan career sy dimn job gred saya mungkin xberubah sampai bila-bila kalau saya xkluar dr dept saya. Dalam erti kata lain, tiada career progression. Pengurus besar pulak xbegitu concern ttg permasalahan saya sbb die ade authority to make anything happens. So, saya sgt rs dianaktirikan.
Nak mengadu kt bos yg akan bersara 2 thn lg pon, mcm xnampak penyelesaian sbb pdgn die pon akan hantar ke division yg dh dimangga/atau diseal selama-lamanya (sampai bertuka VP dan VP tu bermurah hati bukak seal tersebut). Jadi ke mana arah saya?
Saya kemam mulut, saya cubit tgn saya sendiri spy jgn menangis. Supaya tabah, tiap yg terjadi pasti ade hikmah, saya mula berfikir, apa silap saya, adakah ini kifarah atas dosa-dosa saya seblum ni? Mcm-mcm merasuk fikiran saya semalam. Berkali-kali sy pujuk diri, jgn slhkn suami sbb dia apply masuk tpt yg saya idam-idam sbb dulu pon pnah terjadi, dan sy xmahu terjadi lagi, di mana saya dan suami jadi xsebulu dan asyik memendam rasa dgn suami.
Saya sedih, pilu, sbb saya xdpt mencapai cita-cita saya, saya xkenal org besar-besar dlm kompeni saya, saya agak pendiam, saya mungkin xbegitu reach out type of person tapi saya ada cita-cita. Disebbkn cita-cita itu sy berhempas pulas meletakkn diri saya utk mengqualifykn diri sy utk jawatan itu.
Saya beristigfar byk kali, spy saya xbuat sesuatu diluar pemikiran saya. Saya beristigfar memujuk diri saya spy bersabar. Namun akhirnya, saya luahkan kt stereng kerete. Saya menangis sepuas-puasnya, seblum saya menapak ke rumah spy reda bungkam di hati. Reda kekecewaan di hati. Spy saya tetap dpt tersenyum dgn kepulangan suami ke pangkuan saya. Spy sy xmrh2 anak2 disbbkn sy keciwa. Saya menangis spt anak kecil xdpt lolipop kesukaan. Mendayu-dayu sambil pdg kiri kanan takut2 org ketuk pintu kete dan ty "what's wrong mem?"..sbb ms tu kt parking kete bwh condo.
Saya ke psr, bli apa yg patut sbb suami minta nasi lemak sambal udang. Beli udang, beli char kuey tiow, amik adik, dan balik. Dalam perancangan, nk msk nasi lemak dan sambal udang sbb suami ckp dijangka tiba mlm. Saya agak, dlm 8 mlm, just in time for dinner.
Sampai dpn pintu rumah, istigfar lg, dlm kete seblum naik, sempat ngadu kt adik.."Adik, mama sedih". Asif cuma buat muka comel ajer. Sejuk siket hati. Depan pintu rumah, dlm hati terasa, mcm suami dh balik. Grill xbermangga, cume terkunci, Mula agak, mungkin mak kuar buang sampah kot.
Naluri seorg isteri tu kuat. Bila nk bukak pintu rumah, pintu xkunci, pehtu nampak muka Aqil berseri-seri, saya dah agak, mesti suami dh balik, die menyorok blkg pintu rupanya. Saya pujuk diri, senyum-senyum. Suami pulang dr jauh, xkn nk tgk isteri bad mood pulak. Saya cuba diamkan ape yg terbuku.
Saya jd awkward dgn suami, setelah hampir 4 bulan xbertemu. Tambah sy sedang dilanda dukacita. Saya kesiankn suami, saya pulang lewat, hampir jam 7 pm. Sempat masak nasi goreng, dan buatkn air. Hrp2 nasi goreng tu ada rasa, siap berdoa ms solat magrib, biarlah hidangan mlm tu sedap pd tekak suami. Saya letak sikit jer, tahu mlm2 suami mkn siket kalau saya msk, mujur habes...(jg hati kot!ekeke..) kalau tak..mungkin dukacita saya bertambah...
Lepas tidokn Asif, setelah puas die mengenal semula papa die dan bermain sepuas-puasnye papa die. Saya menung kejap, saya xsdar airmata mengalir lg mengenang nasib. Sekali lagi, sy pujuk hati, jgn menangis dpn suami yg baru pulang dr jauh, nnt hilang keseronokan die berjumpe semula dgn keluarga yg terpaksa ditinggalkan sbb kerjaya.
Saya masih belajar terima hakikat, saya masih berkira-kira ttg option2 lain kecuali menjadi surirumah sepenuh masa atau berbisnes kecilan/besaran. Saya boleh melupakan cita-cita saya, dan teruskn apa yg saya lakukan skang, tp sy pilu apabila mengenang ijazah master yg sy genggam dlm segala kepayahan tu, terbiar....
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Penakut
Scene 1:
Dalam kereta,
Aqil: Mama, nnt opah balik ipoh, sape nk kawan saya tido?
Mama: Aqil tidola sorang2.
Aqil: Alaaaa...xnak...jgn kasi opah balik ipoh tau mama...
Mama: Hmm...opah kene balik, tgk atuk..
Aqil: Ala, jgn kasi opah balik ipoh tau mama..
Mama: Aqil ikotlah opah balik ipoh..
Aqil: Mama?
Mama: Mama keje...
Aqil: Adik?
Mama: Adik tinggal la dgn mama, adik kn minum susu kat mama..
Aqil: Hmm, kalau camtu, saya pon kene tinggal lah...
Since opah came, he sleeps with his opah in his room. He sleeps on his bed, then, opah has to sleep on the floor. However, when he awakes somewhen during the night time, he may transfer himself to the floor, sleeping next to his opah. So penakut la this little boy.
He has been "penakut" quite a while now. I always asked him why, did he had nightmares, what kind of nightmares to make him tell me the reason behind his behavior. Because, it is just so weird! Even to watch tele, he will ask anyone of us to accompany him. As well as going for toilet!
Last night I asked him politely, what went wrong that make him behave like that. I even told him, that Allah is always with us. Why so afraid of?And that, our home is not that big to feel so awry. (I pun penakut jugak sebenornye! hehe). But he kept silent, looking at the ceiling. At that time, he was waiting for opah to finish solat.
He was so curious that why opah solat so many times and take a long time to complete. So, I explained to him ( I don't know whether he can receive it or not but still explaining) about the RUKUN ISLAM (mak pon dh terlupe susunan..teruknye!) and I explained to him about SYURGA and NERAKA resultance of doing what ALLAH ruled out and prohibits.
I always wonder what he did learn at school. He has been "penakut" since he always told me that he watched "SYETAN" at school. And keeps saying that SYETAN masuk api neraka. Then, he keeps comparing, bad people just like SYETAN, and will go to hell. I was so surprised with his statement anyway. He is just 4 and half years old. And he easily get angry with small little things, not like before, he speaks politely, ask politely, but now, if late a few seconds or I need to attend on something else, he will throw his tantrum so bad. I wonder...I wonder...ada gangguan kah???
Dalam kereta,
Aqil: Mama, nnt opah balik ipoh, sape nk kawan saya tido?
Mama: Aqil tidola sorang2.
Aqil: Alaaaa...xnak...jgn kasi opah balik ipoh tau mama...
Mama: Hmm...opah kene balik, tgk atuk..
Aqil: Ala, jgn kasi opah balik ipoh tau mama..
Mama: Aqil ikotlah opah balik ipoh..
Aqil: Mama?
Mama: Mama keje...
Aqil: Adik?
Mama: Adik tinggal la dgn mama, adik kn minum susu kat mama..
Aqil: Hmm, kalau camtu, saya pon kene tinggal lah...
Since opah came, he sleeps with his opah in his room. He sleeps on his bed, then, opah has to sleep on the floor. However, when he awakes somewhen during the night time, he may transfer himself to the floor, sleeping next to his opah. So penakut la this little boy.
He has been "penakut" quite a while now. I always asked him why, did he had nightmares, what kind of nightmares to make him tell me the reason behind his behavior. Because, it is just so weird! Even to watch tele, he will ask anyone of us to accompany him. As well as going for toilet!
Last night I asked him politely, what went wrong that make him behave like that. I even told him, that Allah is always with us. Why so afraid of?And that, our home is not that big to feel so awry. (I pun penakut jugak sebenornye! hehe). But he kept silent, looking at the ceiling. At that time, he was waiting for opah to finish solat.
He was so curious that why opah solat so many times and take a long time to complete. So, I explained to him ( I don't know whether he can receive it or not but still explaining) about the RUKUN ISLAM (mak pon dh terlupe susunan..teruknye!) and I explained to him about SYURGA and NERAKA resultance of doing what ALLAH ruled out and prohibits.
I always wonder what he did learn at school. He has been "penakut" since he always told me that he watched "SYETAN" at school. And keeps saying that SYETAN masuk api neraka. Then, he keeps comparing, bad people just like SYETAN, and will go to hell. I was so surprised with his statement anyway. He is just 4 and half years old. And he easily get angry with small little things, not like before, he speaks politely, ask politely, but now, if late a few seconds or I need to attend on something else, he will throw his tantrum so bad. I wonder...I wonder...ada gangguan kah???
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Baking Soda/Baking Powder
Semalam ade meeting special komiti kt opis. Kiterg xde source utk order refreshment, unless hmm, someone in the komiti willing to sedekah duit department dia. And since all of us cuma anak buah ajer, jadi kiterg xde LOA nk approved utk order kt Kopet**. So, saya selaku setiausaha komiti, dah pesan, air sile bwk sendiri yer!
Jadinye, saya amik initiative sendiri, kesian kang miting lama2 dahla petang lak tu, xde bende nk kunyah. Sebenarnye nk bwk cikedi tayar yg Aqil nak sgt tp pehtu xmkn kt rumah. Pehtu sekali nk buat red velvet cupcake sbb bhn2 mmg sedia ada dah.
So, mlm rabu, bersilat lah kat dapur menyediakan bhn-bhn sambil terteleng-teleng kat recipe. Haha. yer, ikot recipe, bukan rekaan, kalau xsedap, slhkn recipe..hahaha...
Alih ade satu bhn, die tulis baking soda. Recipe dlm bhs omputih la ni. So ms tu dh konfiden gile baking soda tu was baking powder. So letak baking powder jelah. OK, kek pon masak dgn baik. Naik sume, moist sume, sedap sume (ceyy!).
Bgn pagi, wat topping die, pun ikot recipe gak, kalau xsdap, salahkn recipe yer! hahaha..
Pehtu ms berjln nk g lrt, tibe-tibe terigt perkataan baking soda. Pehtu berteka teki lak dlm hati, baking soda tu soda bicarbonate ke baking powder. Alamak, kek xjadi la tu..Ish, tp dah bawak lebih kurang 10 biji cupcake siap topping ni, nk jamu meeting ptg tu. Pehtu decided nk surfing, baking soda tu ape.
Masuk lrt, terus bukak safari, google cr baking soda. So, sumber dr wikipedia kot, xigt, die ckp, baking soda is purely soda bicarbonate. Dush!..cuak dah masa baca tu, dlm hati ckp, sah, kek ni xjadi la tu! Pehtu baca lagi explanation, wiki tu ckp, kalau recipe yg gune baking soda, buleh subs gune baking powder, psl baking powder contains soda bicarbonate dgn cream of tartar. Tapiiiii...kalau recipe gune baking powder, TAKLEH subs dgn gune baking soda. Chemical reaction die lainnnnn....
Baking soda, bile die react dgn other ingredient, product akhir die, kek akan moist. Terbalik dgn baking powder, die ade agent pengering, tu psl byk gune dlm cake, baking powder + soda bicarb bile nk kek yg moist gitu. Tapiiiii, baking soda ni, die leh bagi rs bitter sket kalau gune byk sgttttt...normally, resepi yg gune buttermilk, yogurt, mmg gune baking soda. So red velvet, recipe die gune buttermilk, yg resipi saya pulak, guna yogurt, so die cuma guna baking soda ajer!
Satu lg perkara yg saya dpt belajar melalui kesilapan saya! Atau org putih ckp, Learn from Mistakes!
Jadinye, saya amik initiative sendiri, kesian kang miting lama2 dahla petang lak tu, xde bende nk kunyah. Sebenarnye nk bwk cikedi tayar yg Aqil nak sgt tp pehtu xmkn kt rumah. Pehtu sekali nk buat red velvet cupcake sbb bhn2 mmg sedia ada dah.
So, mlm rabu, bersilat lah kat dapur menyediakan bhn-bhn sambil terteleng-teleng kat recipe. Haha. yer, ikot recipe, bukan rekaan, kalau xsedap, slhkn recipe..hahaha...
Alih ade satu bhn, die tulis baking soda. Recipe dlm bhs omputih la ni. So ms tu dh konfiden gile baking soda tu was baking powder. So letak baking powder jelah. OK, kek pon masak dgn baik. Naik sume, moist sume, sedap sume (ceyy!).
Bgn pagi, wat topping die, pun ikot recipe gak, kalau xsdap, salahkn recipe yer! hahaha..
Pehtu ms berjln nk g lrt, tibe-tibe terigt perkataan baking soda. Pehtu berteka teki lak dlm hati, baking soda tu soda bicarbonate ke baking powder. Alamak, kek xjadi la tu..Ish, tp dah bawak lebih kurang 10 biji cupcake siap topping ni, nk jamu meeting ptg tu. Pehtu decided nk surfing, baking soda tu ape.
Masuk lrt, terus bukak safari, google cr baking soda. So, sumber dr wikipedia kot, xigt, die ckp, baking soda is purely soda bicarbonate. Dush!..cuak dah masa baca tu, dlm hati ckp, sah, kek ni xjadi la tu! Pehtu baca lagi explanation, wiki tu ckp, kalau recipe yg gune baking soda, buleh subs gune baking powder, psl baking powder contains soda bicarbonate dgn cream of tartar. Tapiiiii...kalau recipe gune baking powder, TAKLEH subs dgn gune baking soda. Chemical reaction die lainnnnn....
Baking soda, bile die react dgn other ingredient, product akhir die, kek akan moist. Terbalik dgn baking powder, die ade agent pengering, tu psl byk gune dlm cake, baking powder + soda bicarb bile nk kek yg moist gitu. Tapiiiii, baking soda ni, die leh bagi rs bitter sket kalau gune byk sgttttt...normally, resepi yg gune buttermilk, yogurt, mmg gune baking soda. So red velvet, recipe die gune buttermilk, yg resipi saya pulak, guna yogurt, so die cuma guna baking soda ajer!
Satu lg perkara yg saya dpt belajar melalui kesilapan saya! Atau org putih ckp, Learn from Mistakes!
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
SUKA!
Disaat hampir-hampir putus harapan, tetibe rezeki dtg mengetuk pintu. Rasa nk melompat-lompat pun ado sbb terasa spt Allah telah menjwb doa saya. Terima kasih Ya Allah. Walaubagaimanapun masih jauh utk menjadikan impian itu suatu realiti.
Kawan-kawan, doakan sy dpt menempuh percubaan utk saya menjadikan impian saya suatu realiti (mcm bunyik lirik menuju puncak lak!). Amin ya rabbal alamin...
Mood sgt terkejut, terkesima, seronok, rs nk guling-guling pon ado. Rs nk peluk cium cubit tampar en Suami pun ado (xper, nnt qadha pas die dah kembali di sisi)...ehehe..:)
Kawan-kawan, doakan sy dpt menempuh percubaan utk saya menjadikan impian saya suatu realiti (mcm bunyik lirik menuju puncak lak!). Amin ya rabbal alamin...
Mood sgt terkejut, terkesima, seronok, rs nk guling-guling pon ado. Rs nk peluk cium cubit tampar en Suami pun ado (xper, nnt qadha pas die dah kembali di sisi)...ehehe..:)
Birthday Bash!!
Birthday boy xde, tp kek jer ade, try wat choc ganache, menjadik, suke! Eventhough xbape nk ikot resepi, just nk perabiskn sourcream lebihan wat cheesecake yg xbape nk menjadi. Sebb ckp xbape nk menjadi, bhgn top cheesecake tu xbp keras, die cam jadi lembik, kene mkn gune scoop. Bahagian crust tu, jadik. So, skang ni tersimpan kt freezer, so keras la...hahaha...resepi gune simple resepi jer, xde gune gelatin. Nnt nk cube yg gune gelatin pulak. Rasanya ritu ms buat tu, urm...rs mcm terlebih sourcream psl xsukat pon (mls nk punya psl! main boh jer!), tp rs cheesecake tu ade, sedap, lg sedap dr secret resepi, ehehehe...buleh buat lagi...oh, sy buat stroberi cheesecake campur dgn basic cheesecake recipe tu. Potong stoberi kecik2, campur dlm batter cheesecake tu jer...eheheh..tp serius, rs cheesecake die...hmm..buleh wat jual kot...ehehe..masuk bakul angkat sendiri yek! hihihi...
Oh gambar di atas tu, sikecik nk usik stoberi, xdpt, tu yg nanges2. Suh duduk amik gambar dgn kek, nanges-nanges jugak psl die xdpt nk usik stoberi tu, Si abang, gambar kabur sbb dh suh duk diam-diam posing depan kek, xmau, die igt mamanye tgh amik video ke ape (nampak gaya kene bli hi-speed camera ni!) dok beraksi gaya ben10 nk tuka jadi alien. Tu la psl gambar kabur...:)
Stoberi asal australia, beli kt psr mlm jer, sekotak dlm 400g, RM6 jer, 2 kotak, RM10, rasa die pulak, masam-masam manis. Lagi lama simpan, lagi masam....:)
Resepi Choc Ganache (topping tu je, bukan kek) - ni utk siket jer
Lebih kurang 100g Cooking Chocolate (bittersweet/dark choc/semisweet) dipotong-potong kecil - hancur pon xper, lagi bagus. Ketepikan dalam mangkuk.
Lebih kurang 50 ml sourcream (atau ape-ape cream - whipped cream ke, saya nk perabiskan sour cream psl tu gune sourcream) + 1/2 sudu makan butter (atau unsalted butter to saya gune butter biasa tu jer), masuk dlm periuk, panaskan sampai die menggelegak, dah menggelegak tu, tutup api. Nak panas dlm microwave pon buleh, make sure butter cair dan mixed well dgn sourcream tu.
Cepat-cepat, tuang ke atas coklat yg dah separa hancur/hancur tu. Recipe ckp, tunggu sat, tp saya terus kacau, dan chocolate tu akan melted bersama-sama cairan sour cream+butter tu. Kacau cepat-cepat until smooth.
Kemudian, leh gune tuang atas kek, nak letak in between kek pun buleh...cepat-cepat kemaskn semasa ganache tu masih cair. Sbb nnt bile dh sejuk, die susah nk kemas-kemas kan..jadi buruk pulak...ehehe...
Simple je kan...selamat mencube!
Kek tu, Banana Choc Cake, recipe leh tgk kt joyofbaking.com. Sedap, anak2 saya sgt suka kek tu, especially kalau buat gune pisang emas, mmg sgt sedap, kurangkn sukatan gula sedikit kalau gune pisang emas. Senang membuatnye! Xgune mixer pon!Selamat mencube!
Monday, March 7, 2011
Impian Saya
Baru jap ni baca blog isteri kepada seorg kawan. Pengalaman bersalin die. Adalah lebih kurang macam pengalaman ke-2 saya. Gynae pon gynae yg sama, baby yg kuar pon agak besar jugak. Untungnya dia, die xperlu byk jahitan, xmacam saya, banyakkkk sebab degil xnak episiotomy gara-gara, takut menjerit ala tarzan perempuan bila dgr bunyik digunting itu.
Tapi sebenarnye, pengalaman VE yang paling menggerunkan. Itu adalah saket yg sgt tak terthn beb! Buleh agak dh mcm melecet. Satu lagi pengalaman masa nk insert/take out catheter utk buang urine. So, 2 tu la, pd saya lebih saket drpd nk beranak. Dan perkara itu masih mengerikan saya. Sama ada nurse tu kasar atau pengalaman xcukup atau mmg badan saya sensitif, xtahu la. Tapi tu la 2 kesakitan yg sgt sy rs traume utk experience berkali-kali.
Pengalaman pertama, sbb fresh, so rs jelah sume, tp serius, ade penyesalan, dan sy baiki utk pengalamn ke-2, pun masih ade kekurangan, jadi inshaAllah, saya akan cube sesuatu yg lain yg org lain dh cuba dan ternyata berkesan, especially nk elakkn koyak..(gulp!)
Rasa dah xsanggup menahan kesakitan selepas bersalin tu, ms yg pertama, hampir 3 hari, saya xmampu nk angkat punggung. Org kene papah. Saya pon xtahu kenape? Sbb pethidine kah? Bersalin kedua, ubat cuci xsesuai, dpt yg sesuai, tp hospital buleh pulak xbg bwk balik, teruk kn?? So ada jelah ujian nya, suami dh hangin2 dah, yelah, dah isteri asyik mengadu pedih2, duduk cemane pon asyik xkene ajer disbbkn ubat basuh yg xsesuai dgn kulit.
Jadi utk ke-3? Saya tangguhkan sehingga rasa keberanian itu datang sekali lagi. Apepun saya tetap mengimpikan bersalin secara natural, xpelru warded dulu, xperlu induce, xperlu nk masuk ubat bontot, xperlu nk psg catheter (oh, kali kedua saya bernasib baik, sbb dpt nurse sgt baik dan memahami sy xnak catheter jadi selamat la, sbb pengalaman pertama wat saya serik sbb rs pedih nk pee after delivery tu -- GILA PEDIH + saket nyut2 pas bersalin!), owh...sambung impian bersalin saya, contraction kt rumah, sampai2 spital, terus bersalin baby kuar, xde jahit2...sume natural, xyah nk cucuk2...owh..indahnya! AMEEENNNNN....
Jadi bila nk ke-3 tu jgnlah ty sy, nnt sy stress! hehehe..:)
Tapi sebenarnye, pengalaman VE yang paling menggerunkan. Itu adalah saket yg sgt tak terthn beb! Buleh agak dh mcm melecet. Satu lagi pengalaman masa nk insert/take out catheter utk buang urine. So, 2 tu la, pd saya lebih saket drpd nk beranak. Dan perkara itu masih mengerikan saya. Sama ada nurse tu kasar atau pengalaman xcukup atau mmg badan saya sensitif, xtahu la. Tapi tu la 2 kesakitan yg sgt sy rs traume utk experience berkali-kali.
Pengalaman pertama, sbb fresh, so rs jelah sume, tp serius, ade penyesalan, dan sy baiki utk pengalamn ke-2, pun masih ade kekurangan, jadi inshaAllah, saya akan cube sesuatu yg lain yg org lain dh cuba dan ternyata berkesan, especially nk elakkn koyak..(gulp!)
Rasa dah xsanggup menahan kesakitan selepas bersalin tu, ms yg pertama, hampir 3 hari, saya xmampu nk angkat punggung. Org kene papah. Saya pon xtahu kenape? Sbb pethidine kah? Bersalin kedua, ubat cuci xsesuai, dpt yg sesuai, tp hospital buleh pulak xbg bwk balik, teruk kn?? So ada jelah ujian nya, suami dh hangin2 dah, yelah, dah isteri asyik mengadu pedih2, duduk cemane pon asyik xkene ajer disbbkn ubat basuh yg xsesuai dgn kulit.
Jadi utk ke-3? Saya tangguhkan sehingga rasa keberanian itu datang sekali lagi. Apepun saya tetap mengimpikan bersalin secara natural, xpelru warded dulu, xperlu induce, xperlu nk masuk ubat bontot, xperlu nk psg catheter (oh, kali kedua saya bernasib baik, sbb dpt nurse sgt baik dan memahami sy xnak catheter jadi selamat la, sbb pengalaman pertama wat saya serik sbb rs pedih nk pee after delivery tu -- GILA PEDIH + saket nyut2 pas bersalin!), owh...sambung impian bersalin saya, contraction kt rumah, sampai2 spital, terus bersalin baby kuar, xde jahit2...sume natural, xyah nk cucuk2...owh..indahnya! AMEEENNNNN....
Jadi bila nk ke-3 tu jgnlah ty sy, nnt sy stress! hehehe..:)
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Sarcastic
Actually I just read some of the emails thread from my condo yahoogroup. I feel a little bit annoyed with a few commentators which leaves sarcastic comments. They simply condemning the others without really knowing the others. I bet they never talk to each other pun in real life.
People makes mistake. Nobody is perfect. That is reality. It is really annoying, some people loves to loath that they are bright, smart, got skills and talent in some area and is that permit you to criticise other people without investigate in depth whether the allegations are true or fake?
I feel pity to those who have to read those comments which is really sarcastically condemning people. (ala..mcm perli-perli la...tp yg perli-perli tu macam bagus sgt!) I feel these people yg suka condemn2 ni is very unprofessional. And the same person, also raised about racial sentiment in the yahoogroup when nobody raised about it! The same person also raised faith issue when no other person raised about it!
And then, the same person really loves to blame people. I really wish this lady got off from the yahoogroup because, she has already create disharmony among the owners. And her comments is about a page long. Sometimes I read the thread because I would like to know the update of issues in my condo but the moderator blocked the JMB from giving comments in the yahoogroup. (Macam on purpose, so everybody hates JMB, kesian diorg!)
Why can't we just be a good person with a good heart?
People makes mistake. Nobody is perfect. That is reality. It is really annoying, some people loves to loath that they are bright, smart, got skills and talent in some area and is that permit you to criticise other people without investigate in depth whether the allegations are true or fake?
I feel pity to those who have to read those comments which is really sarcastically condemning people. (ala..mcm perli-perli la...tp yg perli-perli tu macam bagus sgt!) I feel these people yg suka condemn2 ni is very unprofessional. And the same person, also raised about racial sentiment in the yahoogroup when nobody raised about it! The same person also raised faith issue when no other person raised about it!
And then, the same person really loves to blame people. I really wish this lady got off from the yahoogroup because, she has already create disharmony among the owners. And her comments is about a page long. Sometimes I read the thread because I would like to know the update of issues in my condo but the moderator blocked the JMB from giving comments in the yahoogroup. (Macam on purpose, so everybody hates JMB, kesian diorg!)
Why can't we just be a good person with a good heart?
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Gem Bowling
Yesterday I had a fun 'hi tea' with my colleaugues. We went out @4pm headed to Times Square for a bowling tournament. Wah..sounds like wow! Nahh...it was only just for fun anyway after a tiring weeks of getting the best words out of head for PPA..eheh..
28 registered, but only 23 turns up. So there was an xtra lane. Some of them really utilized the time given of 2 hours game. I've only managed to complete 2 games as I need to go back early (but still late though..:(..).
Yesterday was my comeback for bowling after almost 6 years since the last bowl I had (the first time I met my husband then, hehe). I don't have any special skill to bowl. Just swing the bowl on the lane..but I guess, I need my own sweet time next time I played. I was in a rush as I want to finish early!
And guess what, I got 6 'masuk longkang', no strike..:(..so 'hampehs'!!
I must do better next time! My promise! :)
28 registered, but only 23 turns up. So there was an xtra lane. Some of them really utilized the time given of 2 hours game. I've only managed to complete 2 games as I need to go back early (but still late though..:(..).
Yesterday was my comeback for bowling after almost 6 years since the last bowl I had (the first time I met my husband then, hehe). I don't have any special skill to bowl. Just swing the bowl on the lane..but I guess, I need my own sweet time next time I played. I was in a rush as I want to finish early!
And guess what, I got 6 'masuk longkang', no strike..:(..so 'hampehs'!!
I must do better next time! My promise! :)
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
A Bliss Birthday!
I am 29th now. Feel OLD though! Fortunately, I always think I am 23rd, don't know why. hehehe...last time, I feel like I am always 18th. Well, my body age is actually 18! :)
I would rather say I was all alone on my birthday. My most loved ones was not around, and what kind of birthday feeling would I have? Empty and feel lost! This is the 2nd time! Last year was almost the same, he was not with me the day I celebrated another increment in my age!
Where was he? He gone for WORK! (Camni la keje petonas!)
But Allah knows best! This time, just coincidence, my mom and bro came by. And my day was filled with chit chat which made me forget about the empty and lost! I kept myself busy from the morning. Preparing meal for the duo. I made Laksa Johor for the first time! Alhamdulillah, it tasted good although not all the ingredients I managed to follow.
Then, suddenly my doorbell rang! Aqil said, "Mama, pizza..." He thought that I've ordered pizza. I thought my hubby is HOME!Because I told him earlier, I don't want any present this time, I want him back at home!
I opened the door, and it was not him. It was only a delivery of flower bouquet, together with a love shaped balloon and a box of my all time favourite chocolate, ferrero rocher. I know, it must be from him, who else aight?
I opened the message, and it reads,
So sweet kan my hubby. Actually I've always wish that he will give flowers on my birthday, on our anniversary but never. Only on our 5th anni and my birthday he did that. It is just because, both days, he was not around with me. He appreciates our presence for each other rather than to celebrate with materials. Better to put the money into something good use in the future. (we are not that rich though! :))
All time Fav choc!
In my 6 years knowing him, my birthday in Edinburgh was still the best! Simple but sweet. And he was always with me, no matter what!
LOVE YOU SAYANG SO MUCH!!!
THANX!! XOXO
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