Metallic Taste..

I wonder when i read about metallic taste, I doubt whether it is true or not. Now, I am experiencing it and believe me, I really want to get away from it as when i eat food, it always doesn't feel right..Oh dear...I really hope my taste bud will be okay as soon as possible as i really need my calorie intake sufficiently..

I am experiencing unusual 'wind' and xtra tiredness...the wind keeps come out however either from front door or back door..ehehe...(quite embarassing though!)...As the wheather here is still cold...I really don't like to go to little girl room quite often...but i have too...and hope this will go away as time passed by...

I always feel to vomit but nothing come out...oh..i need some pickles...i looked at the pickles here, are not the same as in Malaysia...I want to go HOME!!!!...really missed my life at HOME...i tried to eat prune and apricot...but it doesn't works...why oh why, they did well before...the apricot here is not dried enough...oh??? i really want Carrefour apricots??? or Makkah apricot???...dates...where can i get "kurma Nabi" here??....dates here don't look tasty to me...i want "kurma Nabi"...small and sweet...my Arab friends will not be going home as we are going to work very hard after the exam....

I missed my HOME...my usual restaurant....satay...arghhh....September...please come earlier.....

My Home...

Juggles..juggles...

It's been very hard for me to find a time to blog. My semester is almost finish but the exam will be after the easter.Thinking of that, I will not have enough time or as i cans aid, quality time for study as Aqil will also spending his time at home during the easter and my exam starts right after the easter holiday. Need to find someone to take care of Aqil since his nursery will be having away day on our first paper.Hopefully there will be Malaysian families which will not be going anywhere since the school will be closed as well during that period.

Being a mom cum wife cum student, yeah quite challenging and sometimes i almost giving up because i could not tolerate the pressure i'm having right now. On the other hand, thinking of the hard ways I went to through to get the financial support and to get here, I motivate myself to be more determined to achieve my goal that is to complete my study. Even my result will not be as good as my undergrad, I feel that, it is worth it than nothing.At least, i didn't fail any subject so far if considering my condition as compared to other students. But, it is never my excuses of neglecting my studies.I've tried on my very own best, with all the effort i have to get the best result i could. Well, only me know how i'm struggling to manage the family and studies and of course, when married, you will also having upside down quite sometimes and have no one to tell the stories behind it.

There were quite sometimes I was really in stress which I could not described here and it refreshed my memory of my past and it made me cry non-stop. I am the one whom when started crying, it's really hard to stop me.I feel sad when thinking of my good time while study which i did not appreciate that much.I realised that I have wasted lots of time during my undergrad which i forgot to appreciate my social life to the fullest. Ended up, I think, I don't have really such a best friend which will always with me, whom is a part of me. I have always search for this kind of friend and it is really hard to catch one since everyone has their own bestfriend which i don't want to steal from. That would be my very last wish list as i can understand how it is really hard to find a dearest friend in the world and once you meet her...you will never let her down/go. But, I do have few good friends which i fully appreciate their kindness to me, and i regard them as my best friends no matter how they regard me.

Aqil and toby--look what's written on his tee...

Back to my family life, we have now realised that we want more people in our family...hehehe...and am trying to bring one..hopefully it will work well, if not..means, belum rezeki and have to work hard for next year financial plan..ceyy..Aqil is now a grown up todd, very helpful but sometimes very cranky.I had to stop him from breastfeeding session forever since he's already grown up.I feel relief even though it is a paksa-rela kind of approach. It has been 4 days i think, never once he asked for it and in fact, when ever i offered him, he will say..."x cedap..kerahh..."...i don't know why "kerahh" means so many things to him...hahah..he is really funny...and i really love him so much though he is sometimes cry out loud to the maximum volume he has....

Big fan of Thomas..

Update

It has been a long time since the last time I posted a news in this blog. My schedule was really tight and only this week has some days off but still need to go for tutorials in the late afternoon and evenings. I actually wanted to complete the tag but still not int he mood to do it.

Aqil with toby the teddy - mascott nursery...


Last two weeks, we just had a guest from Malaysia. A family of 6 and it came to be my former lecturer back in my undergrad studies. But, they did not stay long as fortunately they've found a nice, cozy apartment int own to stay for 6 month. My lecturer is doing attachment with the Edinburgh Unversity for his PhD with my previous university. It was good to have guests in the house but unfortunately, my family was very hard to be in the house during the day as we all need to go for lectures and Aqil need to go for his nursery (we've paid full month for it anyway..don't waste any pounds for that though!). My lecturer's wife is a very good cook, her dishes tasted like my mom..but of course, i would embarrassed to eat more than i could when the guest is cooking. Then, we helped them to move in into their new apartment and Aqil was helping too. Really get excited in exploring their new home. That night, Aqil slept a bit late than usual....Oh, I did not snap any pix with the guests though..

Airbed Aqil...


In preparing for the guest, we bought an airbed and I insisted to have one for Aqil to for it has THOMAS printed on it. So we bought one with the hope Aqil will move slowly to sleep all by himself..However, it is hopeless as he still want to sleep with me and just toying the readybed instead..Perhaps, some other of my children will make it to full use..hopefully..And instead, he made the box as his sleeping shed...and pretend as he was asleep...Funny little Aqil...

On the day our guests arrived, there was ice rain..due to low temperature..the rain is like ice stone..and early in the next morning...the snow poured the whole city..and instead..the whole UK mainland i believe...the night before..the sky was so bright like a big spotlight highlighted the sky but i could locate where the light came from..and i noticed, everytime the sky brightened during the night, the next day, the snow will pouring down...and that was the thickest snow UK ever had. The snow did not stop pouring until late afternoon and causing traffic jam everywhere in every city in the UK..I tried to get some pic of Aqil on that but he refused...hence, that not much pic of Aqil and me..and fortunately, the snow comes again...and I didn't want to miss this second best opportunity to snap some pic with Aqil in front of his nursery....we actually cautious to go out and play in the snow as we might be caught with flu and fever again. Anyway, it was not anything with the snow I think as the weather was really cold and you were like smoke when u breathe out or speak...

Out of the box...


Aqil was getting friendlier and know how to bring himself in the crowd of people. I am really happy for this as I don't have to stick with him and can really relaxing myself without him on my lap. However, still need to put on eye on him as he would go to anyone who friendly to him though..And there was a funny but I would rather feel embarrassed as when we were at the sports shop, he was dancing like crazy with the music played in the shop...and didn't want to stop and had to bribe him with the thomas shirt and denim set which cost pounds!!!

And there was one funny thing Aqil does....

Papa: Say "Dough"
Aqil: "Dough"
Papa: "Nut"
Aqil: "Nut"
Papa: "Doughnut"
Aqil: "NONUT" ....

In front of nursery...

So jealousssss......

Most of my closest friends has had 2 or more children even they got the first one bit later than mine..I wish I'm in the same boat as they are..I've been prohibited to conceive while studying by my hubby which i feel so stressful and i cried a lot because of this actually. I cool down by myself and think positively.I can't pregnant alone without support and my Aqil is still rely on my milk. I don't blame this study occasion because i chose it willingly due to some other reason. And another thing I have a fear that what if I won't be blessed with any incoming children?? Na'uzubillah...I want more and more..only children makes me happy. Now I have only one and I really want him to have company. At least he won't feel left behind if i'm too busy at work. yeah, work is another thing in my mind. I'm always thinking of balancing work and children and husband and of course my own time in the future. I don't want the past to be repeated as it was so frustrating and am tired of it.

And then, I asked my hubby let's have a try this coming March as I plan to get one by December this year..I hope I can...Ameen...If not..we will try another year...oh..so long to wait for a small baby again...Congratulations my friend who has just had or expecting a new baby....

1 day old Aqil - missed this moment very much...

Wellflo & NHS

That is the conventional pumping system to lift up oil from reservoir on onland well

I thought today we will be having the production technology class but we got an introductory session on wellflo software. What is it? It is a software to analyse well flow la...haha..frankly, I am still blur about this software...The tutors were not really helpful in assisting the student what they are doing.They even didn't explain what are the significance of the results obtained.Oh dear, this going to make me crazy as I'm always stuck with stuff involving simulation. And plagiarism is strictly prohibited.Oh dear, what am i going to do??I have a project to complete and it carries 20% of total coursework..Oh dear..I really hope I'll get it sorted out as soon as possible.However, i am still in holiday mood.Maybe because of too much hardwork during the past exams make me want to rest longer and still i didn't go for leisure vacation during my term break as the weather was so cold and windy, apart of we don't have that much of money to go for vacation.Poor us.Yeah, i did a little shopping but it was not really enjoying as when we were on budgeted shopping.



Tomorrow NHS will be coming over to our home to visit my son.I wonder for what reason but we just got a call before lunch informing that the practitioner will come to check for our son.What we wonder is, do we have to pay for their visit???I hope it will be covered by NHS. Speaking about NHS, we recently changed our centre to the one that accept student and the dependants covered under NHS - meaning FOC on all type of medical treatment. Before, we registered at one centre and they said our son will not be covered. We were really surprised and we asked around about this and they were surprised too. Then the centre in our uni suggested another centre which is nearer to our house.

Our son is still allergic to cow's milk. I wonder when will he become tolerant to cow's milk as actually my own milk is depleting. My body is feeling ache as still need to wake up 3 times nighttime for bf but i am already used to it. The resultant is, I am weak to do other stuff like study, cooking and housechores. I eat a lot but still I feel weak and most of the time I have to beg my hubby to help me on doing the stuff other than study, he obviously can't study for me as he can't sit for my paper anyway. On the other hand, I feel it is not the right time to stop bf him as he is still CMPA or lactose intolerant or what ever, hence if he stops bf, he will not get his protein as he rejected soy milk. He rarely eat veggies and meat. I've tried but he will spit it out after he tasted it. I pray so hard that one fine day, his allergies will gone forever. Poor him, can't even eat ice-cream, chocolates, cakes etc..

I found this is really true...