Merdeka!

Hmm, on 31st August, marked a year after our return from study leave. Oh man, I really missed my life in Edin. I should have separate blog to blog about my experience there, perhaps! It means everything to us last year. We've finished our Msc, we returned home as our visa expired! We left behind memories that could only reminisce in our hearts..Yes, to a few of my friend, I did sometime grumble about my living in Edin, however, everyday, I missed my life there! And I guess I will continue 'homesick' for years to come until I can truly accept that my place belong to here, Malaysia!

I guess, there will be celebration tonight at KLCC park area as they already put barrier at the LRT station. I thought, there would not be any celebration as to respect this Ramadhan, but hey, we are only "Merdeka" in the words but many Malaysian are proudly following the way westeners celebrating the Independence day...hmm...I hope ther will be no concert...fireworks seem OK...:)

In mess

It has been weeks of mess in the house. I could not tidy up over and over again as the mess will reaccumulate over and over again. With the little energy that I've got during the weekends, I could not tidy up the house as usual anymore. Only when I've got extra energy to do some housechores but of course, when those two little kiddos wake up, they create the mess again!

That is why hubby always hinting for a maid recently. I never approved for that for some reasons. I would not clearly state in here but the most thing is I never like having an outsider living with us in the house and I don't want to become a boss to a person that need to told so many times. I hate to instruct unprofesional person because they never listen actually, they only want to do as they wish! ater, I'll be the one who 'makan hati!'.

Actually, I can do everything on my own however, I don't have many hands to do all the job at once. I mean taking care the children wile doing the housechores! I did many times, carrying my lil one while cooking which is very dangerous as it increase the risk of getting burn or so! But this is the thing I have to do. Sometimes, I have to carry the youngest to bathe the eldest, which I feel like my waist is going to rupture anytime soon. Yeah, without a helper is very tiring, but if you other half is really helping out, at least you share the responsibility and still, you are still happy with that, a family bonding time....

Welcome to the world!

My eldest sister has just safely delivered a baby girl yesterday morning. Congratulation my dear sis!

This little princess will be the youngest child for her and will be the most pampered one! Hehe..This little princess has also gave my sister a new experience, since she got a little complication from early beginning and towards the end of labor. She delivered her youngest munchkin via ceasarian section.

She chose a not-baby-friendly hospital. She chose because of the gynae not because of the hospital. She has been with the same gynae for all her trio in the house, therefore she opt for the same gynae although, this time, she has to pay in full. Last time only partial since covered by her husband's company. Now, both are govt servant, therefore, they need to pay by themselves when they opt for private hospital.

She was worried back then of not having the opportunity to breastfeed her baby just like I did(am still doing it right now). I told her my story, btw, both of my kids share the same story when they started to breastfeeding). Then, she said, the hospital she went to is not a baby friendly hospital. Instead of asking do you want to breastfeed, they asked, which brand do you prefer for FM?Oh dear, this is really heartsick, plus her husband is not as fierce as mine. Hehe, if I were at her situation, for sure, my dear hubby already scolded the nurses or doctor. It happened during my last delivery.

I just do not understand why on earth the patient will is bypass by the hospital?? If the patient choose to bf, just give her chance, why advice so and so to get the patient consent to give the baby FM? Like my case, my breastmilk already developed and of course during the first few days, it will produce only a little, but I have a strong believe that, my milk is producing at the rate of how much my baby will consume. And there, I caught the nurse is giving away FM, when I just entered the nursery to give away my expressed milk which is a lot more than FM she filled in the bottle. Lucky my hubby was not there, if not, for sure that young nurse being scolded by him. We have told clearly that everywhen the ebm finishes or about to finish, please inform us, but they never did!

So please, hospital admin, people today, I mean, mothers today are very well educated and aware that giving breastmilk is the best thing in the world which could not be replaced with anything else nor being paid with billion, trillion of money to have the same quality milk for baby. Please support breastfeeding, as many mothers are now opting for breastfeeding as it is a beautiful moment, I could say, no..I couldn't describe in the right word...just a magical thing that one could have. The bonding is so special which I could not translate into words...Btw, I just love breastfeeding and seeing my kids loving it to a drop makes me feel I am the best mother in the world as I give the best to my kids.

My kids are the most happy child I could have ever see...with the smile...which always make my heart melt....love you both ASIF & AQIL...muaaacchhhh..

Morning Glory

Hai darlings, I'm just in! Actually I wanted to blog after 'sahur', however, I was still continuing my never finish business - doing the housechores again!- and then, with little time, the little munchkin awake. From thereon, I would never log in my computer for blogging since I need to attend that little munchkin.

Wonderfully, I can still blog from office. After so long I have waited to log in from office and only now I can! I guess the IP***** is kind enough letting me do my hobby while I am at my free and easy time! Hehe.

What's up this morning, on Wednesday morning, what is my plan for today? First thing at the office, I will always read the free newspaper, hey, lucky govt servant, will get Raya Packet of RM500. Congratulation to you all! Besides, CUEPACS urged the minister to table for next year Budget Planning to put at least RM1000 bonus or 2 months salary. I hope, when the cabinet approved this, all the govt services related, enhanced tremendously. As well as, please, no more price hike! I have a feeling, our ringgit will be just like rupiah one fine day!

Don't you know, even the taxi driver grumbling about how the customer service provided by govt is worsen and that driver said, "they never think that they talk to the people who pay their salary - tax payers!".

I guess, it is in our culture, rude and easily get angry, it does not matter where you belonged to but it is in our blood. And we need to change our mindset and that the hardest part of life changing! People are so accustomed with their ego and this is the problem of all. Don't you think so?

Internet

It took me more than half an hour to log in today. What a dissapointing moment I had with M**** BB today! Not to tell you about how long I had to wait everyday at the office by using office network connection. Oh dear, I really hope the fibre optic connection will soon be installed at our office building so we can google things faster.

It is really heartsick when waiting the page to appear, and then suddenly it said, page cannot be loaded, please retry..haha..I've faced this so many times which make my mood to surf for some information being hold! Oh dear, I really missed my surfing time during my master program, even at the school where we were connected in network connection, internet still faster than here! Not to say at home....:)

I hope our country will become internet savvy in no time..hopefully. Internet is now become a must medium for communication and information transferring. Yes, I do sometimes just check the online free dictionary for the words I don't know and online thesaurus to find suitable or bombastic word for my email...hehe..;)

Ok peep...normally at this time, I've already asleep with my little munchkin..but today, I managed to be awaken and did some housechores! Aha, not so much..just some important ones! Pity y hubby seeing the house in a total mess everyday...hehe...( he's already askign for a maid...which I will never approve unless, he could find me a daily maid at an affordable rate with high quality job and very trustworthy..hehe..)

Picture of You

Reading a blog full of words might be very boring and dull. However, I have a reason on my own not putting any pictures and I might traced my old postings and remove the pictures. Even if it is my kids picture!

Yes, writing a blog that is open for public viewing is inviting foe and friends. There are many kinds of people out there who are maybe like you or dislike you. Unless, you make your blog private to certain number of people that you really trust. I have one my friend who privatised her blog just for friends and relative view - to get know what's going on around her!

Why not I do the same? Heh, being a not-so-IT literate, plus lazy-bum-bum to explore the application, so there it is..my blog is open for public! Not to say that I am also hoping for days that I could make money from blogging! But, if this the case, I don't think I could!

I am planning to put my own artwork as a picture to describe or to represents stuff that are under discussion. I will find time to sketch and upload. Thinking of using computer, Hmm...I don't feel the freedom of sketching on computer or I don't have an appropriate software to do so!

Ohyeh, did you guys receive an email stating that we sinned ourselves by showing off our pictures in facebook? Yes, that email really triggers me and strengthen my view on not putting anymore pictures in this blog maybe only incomplete picture...perhaps...

At Office

Surprisingly, I can blog from office. Opps, it is not that I am cheating during office hour...eheh...btw, I am not operational resource...time is not that critical for me..cheyy...sounds like I am working in the government office.

Oh, speaking of government office..I just remembered to get this M*** clarification on my allowance issue which is unsolved since last year..huh..why take so long to action yeah??..Oh..as well as...to call L*** asking for my money back...I hate PCB...to date, I've paid over 1k to them already which I can guarantee they need to return to me soon next year...

Fast ramblings

I thought I might've stopped blogging during this fasting month. But my fingers can't resist the addiction to type something on this dear blog. Nothing special, or great to be written about but just to keep this blog alive with new post..

It' s already entering the middle of fasting month. Alhamdulillah, many of us has done a great job in this beautiful month. I just got tested with my kids down with fever, one after another, and I've on leave and MC to take care each of them! Alhamdulillah, being a mother of two, it was not as panic as when I was a mother to an only child. I already know what to expect, nad how to react. Alhamdulillah. But still, seeing the kids in pain, a mother never can't bear and always hope the pain transferred to her instead...:)

As for Eid preparation, nothing much I will do, I am not sure I am not that excited anymore. Maybe because I already passed my childhood time. Yeah, Eid is only fun when you were kids, right? Furthermore, I am not fashionista type of woman, so I don't really care how would I look on that day, even my hubby also care less about that! Lucky him having me as wife yeh? Hehehe...I've always wonder when I would have the feeling or wanting to be up-to-date fashionista just like many of my friends...and sometimes, I feel tiny when I am with them because they are really gorgeous and me?? you guess lah!!

Theme color?? Hmm...also not sure..hubby opt for maroon..but I am not into maroon...I am into colorful..haha..no lah...anything that nice would suit me...:)

OK, now, time to sleep..it might be another on-off-on-off nite time again as Asif the little one is down with runny nose and feverish.....

Ramadhan

Hello, I'm blogging from the NS highway. Just got space and time to put my lappy on my lap and jot few stuff in this blog.

Topic would be Ramadhan, since we are entering into this blissful month for Muslim. I love Ramadhan, and in Ramadhan, I gave birth to Aqil, my first son in 2006. And I also had the opportunity to have a full month of fasting in 2009 when carrying Asif during pregnancy. Yes, that were memorable Ramadhan for me so far.

However, not to forget my Ramadhan during my schooltime in boarding school as well as during university time. All of them full of memories which I could not forget (although some of it I might've forgotten!). I just love this month and really welcoming this month every year and glad that I am still alive to be in this fasting month again this year, hopefully, inshaAllah..

Ahlan wa Sahlan ya Ramadhan al-Mubarak!

Laksa

Finally, I am at my childhood hometown. This house really reminds me of the time my not-so-boring childhood live. I stayed here since I was 4-5 years old and left for about 4 years and returned for good. My permanent address is here since then, I haven't got chance to change it to my new permanent (but not so permanent) address in KL.

I had my laksa today. I just finished two bowls for lunch! He he..I am really into Laksa but only my mom's Laksa that I can eat so many times if it still there! During my childhood time, we used to compete who eat the most among my siblings.He he he..quite a fun time in those beautiful days!

I grew up with all time favourite my mom's cooking. I rarely eat outside. I only can remember we ate outside at another place, at my sis's place and once in my town at A&W. I can still remember until today as that the only one we ate outside. And now, it become countless!! (easy life huh!)

I did made laksa several times, but never get into the flavor that how my mom's did it. Maybe it is just 'air tangan' that make the difference, I guess! I feel very lucky as I was able to grow with my mom's cooking and that makes me to be here more often...inshaAllah..

THANKS MAK for the delicious meal you've cooked for us!

D-Day

I just love to imitate what others doing.*wink*wink. Many use the D-Day to describe a day that is very special. Frankly speaking, I have no idea what is the true D-Day mean or I just don't get it when I tried to understand it. (what ever!)

Tomorrow is Friday. I made a plan with few other colleagues to do "makan-makan" at our office. Since Ramadhan is around the corner, so we feel it's the time to have some "kenduri" at our office.

Menu will be "Nasi Beriyani" if am not mistaken. And its going to be a 'brunch' anyway as it is a heavy meal.

I just love to give to people within my own limited budget. I've always waited for this to happen. And yes, this is one of many wishes, and it will come true tomorrow. Alhamdulillah. Happy to make other happy...:) (kenyang perut snang hati kn! *wink*wink)

Tomorrow is D-Day! (^_^)

Stress!

I was in stressed mode recently. Many things came into my thoughts that make me stress. My brain hardly stop thinking of the stupid stuff that I could care less but hey, I was too much concerned on it!

Be in the office is my favourite. But hey, I am not workaholic to some extend. It's just that I feel relaxed when I am away a while from home and responsibilities at home. However, being in the office, there's always jobs waiting for you. I like doing my job. I give my all when I work, but only to the job that is stated in my job description. I hate doing somebody else's job which I always become the victim! And that make me very stressful.

I hate being in the stressed mode. I feel more tired and not happy. The consequence is not to my liking obviously. My ebm collection, fall a little bit. And even worst, during the night time too because I did not feel relaxed when going to sleep.

I took the hardest way to raise my kids, I would say. But this is my passion, I just love breastfeeding which i really can't resist or take a short cut to turn to formula where my stored ebms are still occupying my freezer.....Oh..stress...please...go away...don't come back and bother me again....

Break in

I just read my condo yahoogroup on break ins. Recently, there were two cases of break ins occurred in my block! How scared...Not so long ago, when I was just returned from the UK, there were RELA safeguarded our condo for quite a time. Everynight, they will do rounds at every floor with walkie talkie and i could hear they reporting to their counterpart. At that time, I felt secured enough as at that time, no new break ins were reported.

Before RELA got involved, the break ins were mainly happened at another block. Owners believed this must be an inside job since the break ins occur during day time and at Indians unit. I hardly heard it happened in my block. I was lucky when I was away for a year, my good neighbour has really taken care of my unit. She said, she will always opened her door to see who's outside whenever she heard someone outside the house creating commotion.

While I was in the UK, I never stop praying that my house is safe and away from the robbers' eyes or intention. Alhamdulillah, Allah answered my prayers. And now, I am starting to worry again even there is not so much valuable that I have but still, I am worried if the robbers came with weapon to harm...(i just thought to let Aqil sleep by himself at his room, now...I don't think i would let him...)

I thought living in gated secured community is safe..but heck..there's no any safe place in MALAYSIA I guess...especially KL...hmmm