12.10.2011

This is my sweetiecuppycake son, Aqil. He has turn 5 today! He is cheerful, loving, caring, independent and tough young boy I've ever seen. I'm blessed by having him around my arms for 5 years now. I cherished every moment we've been through together and am looking forward to see you succeed in your future undertakings! I've always love you despite all the scold I throw towards you. You are my dearest son, forever and always praying for your health, good attitude and success! Happy Birthday Aqil!!

I have no idea why the cake photo turn up like that, I've photoed it vertically, and it appears like that. Sorry pals, you have to turn your head to see the sweet cake I've ordered for him to take to his schools today! And below it, was the last minutes preparation for his party pack, I've no idea what to put inside, I bought the toys earlier, not toys, it's an artwork and brain stimulus wood pieces. The balloon and the stick (whatever it is called) was added by my husband.

Aqil has asked for Cars2 party bag and Jake and the neverland pirates cake. He asked me to do it myself but, I don't know how to decorate actually, so, I delegated it to the expert! hehe..

I did nto get to taste the cake, I'll ask Aqil once he get back from school today! But, really, the deco amazed me so much! I did not expect it will be as such sweet! Thank you kak Naz! (Sorry, I forgot her website actually..I will google it later!)

Pau inti Jem

Tepung pau dah abes...erk..ada sape2 leh tolong blikan kt kedai bakeri? Bwk g KLCC ehh.. nk 2 kg jer.. Aqil suke betul mkn pau inti jem!

Asalnya, mmg ada beli tepung pau kt EZ bakeri kt muor sbb dh dekat dgn umah MIL tapi bli 1 kg jer..utk trial. pastu lama gile tersimpan, xbuat-buat. Asyik delay jer. Pastu cari punya cari resepi terjumpa pulak resepi kt blog nor..jadinya try lah resepi tu. Kendian, baru perasan, xde seri kaya kt umah..haha..jadi amik ganti jem stroberi yg slalu buat bekfes Aqil tu jadi pengganti utk inti. Nak buat inti lain, kentang xde, ayam xde kan...jd nk cepat..buat jem jer jadi inti.

Dah abes bersilat kt dapur wat pau, siap la pau inti jem. Aqil suke gila. Tapi papa dia xgemar, die nk inti kari ayam+kentang, Almaklum wife dia nk cepat ajer, yelah bdn sekeping kan, cepatlah penatnya..ehehe..makan lak kurang...kdg2 terlupa yg diri ni xmkn lagi...xminum lg..psl dok sibuk sediakan itu ini kt rumah..

Oh gambo xde pulak..eheh..so 1 paket 1kg tu..dpt wat 3 kali jer..2nd time buat baru lah dpt inti kaya...byk gila buat..dh igt leh dibuat frozen..tp esoknya abes...:P..jd xsempat ler masuk dlm freezer..kali ke-3 kes nk perabis saki baki tepung..so buat 1/3 dijadikan donut..fuh lembut giler hokey..ehehe..buat mini donuts...yg lain wat mini pau inti jem...tp sygnyer sebiji pau terpaksa masuk tong sampah sbb die basah kene air wap..:(..geram2..mini donut tu..ade la dapat dlm 10 ketul cemtu..sy dpt mkn seketul jer...yg lain dingap oleh Aqil dgn papa dia..Asif mkn separuh jer..Saya mkn keledek goreng..ntah hangin ape..saja nk mkn keledek..tp keledek dia xbp manis..but ok lah...nk perabiskan santan belen wat rendang daging tgh hari tu...sedap jugak....eheheh...keledek goreng perisa santan...hmmm..tinggi calori tuu....

Curi masa siket

Harini dapat curi masa sket sbb keje urgent dah siap, tinggal tunggu org review. Org tu lak busy. Ada lagi satu kerja yg xsiap2, tp bhn asas dah ada, tinggal nk make up2 ajer. Alhamdulillah. Taskforce pulak, stop for 2 weeks, utk siapkan homework termasuk keje yg xsiap2 tu. So, terisi gak ms kt opis ni sbb ada keje walau pon area yg diexplore tu, bukanlah pilihan hati. But, it's OK, it is still add new knowledge and skill sbb I just love to learn and practice what I've learnt.

Eventhough jrg2 update blog, but am a consistent reader to my blog lists, sapa yg ade buat update lah. Seronok baca update korang, sometimes made me frown, sometimes made me smile, sometime made me ketawa kekek2 sorg2 kt sini. Thank you all for your lovely write-up. Really make my day everyday tau!

Skang still bulan raya, lagi seminggu nk abes. Citer psl raya, kt KL, mmg xberaya sgt, sbb nak elak tersangkut dlm jem!Alah, bkn ade org jemput openhouse pun kan! Eh ada, tp timing xsesuai.(nampak mcm xramai kwn jer!hihik!) Org dtg rumah pon xde, ehehe, bukan xnak jemput, mailah dtg, tp jgn dtg terkejut tergempak..xde bende nk jamu kang! Tapi kalau nk dtg terkejut tergempak pon ape salahnya...Surprise gitu! Hihik..mkn jelah ape yg ada kt umah tu yer! Kalau bitau awal2..mungkin leh msk sikit2 buat alas perut...hihihi..saya ni jrg msk, konfiden tu kureng...ehehe..

Ha, cite psl bos ritu, die dh xmrh2 dah, sy dh dpt prektik kan apa yg kwn2 lain nasihatkn, alhamdulillah, so dah xde stress kt opis dah. Sejak2 work together dgn omputih ni, mcm ade new motivation pulak, cewah. Hrp2, berkekalan lah motivation at work ni! Nak jd cam omputih tu rsnya xmampu kot..sgt sabar dgn client..maklumlah..diorg consultant kan! English diorg sgt best! Haruslah kan! Hihihi..

Dulu2 ade pnah cite psl tadika Aqil ni kan, kebetulan pulak ade CIC baru nk bukak kt situ. InshaAllah nk anta Aqil for one year kt situ. Sbb franchise, sure dia ada dah established module. So hrp2 akademik dia majulah siket. Currently, academic dia lemah, and die nampak stress bila disuruh blajar kt rumah pulak. Lagipun mmg permintaan dia, dia xnak skolah kt tadika dia dah. Bosan agaknya sbb dh 2 thn kt situ, xde new environment, blajar bende yg sama ajer tiap thn. So lesson learnt, xyah kot anta tadika awal2..budak2 bosan! Kalu kelas xbercampur, I think OK. CIC ni mahal la siket yuran bulan2 dia, tp mcm xsanggup nk teruskan kt tadika yg skang sbb risaukan nnt dia xley catch up bila masuk dajah 1 besok. Ada jugak consideration nk enroll KMS, tp mcm xkonfiden nk g interview and assessment dia..buleh lepaske Aqil ni, sbb dpt info leh enroll ms budak umur 6 thn..so next year Aqil 6 thn...thn critical utk early education..Saya pon dulu tadika sethn jer pun..tadika kemas jer...kalau kemas tu ade daycare...mmg saya anta situ jer...sbb module dah extablish dan masih relevan utk persediaan budak ke thn 1...Kita tgk jelah papa enroll Aqil kt mn sbb die project sponsor..hahaha..mama jd consultant jer!

Oklah, gtg, kene keje pulak..baru nk merapu2..ehehe..

Nasi Arab yg Kantoi

Hah, teruja bila membelek resipi-resipi di internet, lalu terpahat kt resepi nasi arab. Lalu, tersimpanlah impian untuk merealisasikan resipi tersebut.

Kemudian, setiap bahan diteliti dan disemak 'availability' di dapur comel kt rumah. Mana yg tak ada, masuk dlm senarai beli. Kemudian, pergilah membeli belah rempah2 yg tidak 'available', oh, masa ni lah, saya mengenal rempah secara lebih dekat. Selama ni, mkn beli kt kedai, tunggu 20 minit, siap..ehehe..

Setelah bhn dibli, "contemplating" nk bli basmathi, setelah di"ponder" dgn lebih mendalam, maka "decision" nya, guna beras biasa dulu, sbb fes time, takut xjadi.

Apa yg yg ditakut, itulah terjadi, gambar xamik sbb "frust" teramat sgt, konon nk buat lauk berbuka pose, lalu dgn sepantas kilat, terus goreng nasi lebihan sahur pg tu sbg back up. Kebtulan pulak suami xg param sbb hujan rahmat turun dgn lebatnya, jd sukar utk meninjau2 menu di param.

Tetapi, "lesson is learnt!". Sukatan perlu menggunakan sukatan yg sama. Mana nk jadi kalau nasi terlbih air, mujur xjadi bubur, lum masuk hangit lagi..habes periuk nasi ku...ehehe..setelah di "CSI" kan, sbb musabab kenape nasi ku hangit dan lembik, mmg 1 jer perkara yg terlps pandang, cwn sukatan beras dan air xsama saiz. Bila tak sama, sukatan air lari, namun rasa tetap ada, sedap..cuma rsnya xbuat lg dah kut, sbb nasi berempah-rempah ni, mmg bukan feveret saya.

Niat nk buat utk suami tapi xmenjadi pulak..sbb die gemar nasi berempah2 ni, especially nasi beriani..hmm..jom cari resepi beriani yg mudah...:)..hrp2 xterkantoi lagi la...sbb jwpnnya...ke tong sampah...ehehe

Oh, resepi nyer, cr kt myresipi. Tajuk dia, Nasi ARAB Berempah.

Tanam Anak

Tajuk mmg ngeri. Tapi itulah hakikatnya. Walaupun cite ni cite dlm sok kabar, yg kesahihan nya pun diragui (sok kabar skang suka siar isu panas, kesahihan xdpt dipasti, ade tokok tambah atau pengurangan jln cite yg sebenar - wartawan skang sgt kreatif mengarangkan!).

Tapi sekiranya benar, saya rasa pelik, org yg bunuh anak sendiri buleh terlepas hukuman dan dibebaskan. Saya baca lagi, hukuman di kensel sbb testimoni xcukup, cuma ada dari isterinya. Lepas pada dibebaskan, buleh pulak si isteri dan seorg lagi anak, peluk cium si suami yg dituduh. Keluarga ni, bukan keluarga Islam.

Bila baca2 lagi, si isteri dlm testimoni, bitau kata, bila anak dia buat perangai, die cuma bagi pelempang gitu, and ada lagi lah hukuman2 dia bagi kat anak yg buat perangai. Tapi camna sampai boleh mati anak tu? Lepas tu, pegi tanam anak tu mlm2, xckp kt org, so org syak die bunuh anak dia sendiri.

Yang saya rs ngilu tu bila si isteri boleh ckp, pelempang tu amalan biasa mereka dlm mendidik anak, anak dia mati beberapa thn yg lps, kecik lagi xsilap, mesti kuat sungguh pelempang sampai terjatuh kt mn2 kah, pendarahan dalaman lalu mati.

Bagaimana ibu bapa sanggup bg pelempang kt anak2? Tergamaknya buat cemtu kt darah daging sendiri, saya pon kalau dh xthn sgt, saya menangis sendiri, rs hopeless sendiri sbb anak tu xsalah, ibu bapa yg mencorakkn anak2, jd sy xnampak kenapa perlu hukum anak tu secara fizikal. Siket2 tu ok lah, tp yg pelempang penuh perasaan, mcm dlm drama2 kt TV, mmg sy haramkn tgk kalau anak2 ada sama2. Sbb diorg ni mudah terikut2. Apa yg diorg nampak, itulah diorg ikot.

Jadi, asas didikan bermula dr rumah, bukan dr nursery, bukan dr babysitter, walau org ckp, ms yg dispend kt tpt2 tu lg lama utk ibu bapa yg bekerja. Utk future, spy anak2 masa depan ni, berakhlak mulia, kita ibu bapa, kene byk bersabar, kene byk berfikir strategi utk didik anak kt zaman yg serba canggih ni. Kalau tak, hanyut anak2 muda nanti....InshaAllah, selalu-selalu lah berdoa, anak2 kita sentiasa dilindungi Allah dan sentiasa bersama manusia-manusia yg berhati mulia..Ameen...

Perangai Bos

Macam-macam la perangai bos ni. Saya pulak asyik terkena perkara yg saya tak suka. Perkara yg membuatkn saya rasa rendah diri teramat-amat, dlm kata lain, jatuh air muka saya! Walau perkara tu kecil, kalau one to one, saya boleh terima, tapi, punishment depan org lain, mmg saya xley blah! Saya mmg akan terasa hati sbb saya mmg sensitip.

Lagi satu, saya mmg paling xtahan bekerja dgn bos yg ego. Dia jelah yg betul, pendapat dialah yg paling bagus, org lain suma xbetul, cuma ade certain2 org jer yg dia suka, dia puji2. Lagi satu, bila kita tegur kesilapan dia, dia pusing kot lain nak dia jugak betul. Saya tahulah dia pangkat tinggi, high achiever, tp serius, saya siap tunjuk bukti nk betulkan statement dia, still, nak dia jugak betul.

Opismet saya pon geleng kepala sbb time dia handle bende tu, ok jer, time saya, mmg dia kasi hard times kt saya, dh byk kali, walau saya xreport direct dgn dia. Sampai satu masa-masa tu, saya jadi avoiding dia tiap kali nampak bayang dia. Benda ni bukan jadi kt saya sorg, kwn sy pon sama. Masing2 xsbr nk pindah keluar dr dept ni. Bos itu salah satu sebab saya xselesa bekerja.

Sapa jd bos, tolonglah considerate kat anak buah. Mmg la awak tu bos, tp ingat yer, hidup ni ade turun naik, eh silap, mcm roda...kalau awak buat kt org, nnt perkara tu berbalik kt awak pulak..so, jadilah bos yg considerate, and igtlah, manusia xperfect, so blajar2 lah terima teguran walau dr bilis cam saya ni....

KL Gangster

Semalam, hubby ajak tgk KL Gangster, die donlod jer. No free vacation time for two of us to watch kt cinema. Last time, we watched Harry Potter, (the one before the part 7 tu), we took annual leave to watch it together durign the weekdays. And after the movie ended, I felt so horrible, because leaving my poor baby and enjoy ourselves for the movie. Some people may said, it's ok to have "couple outing" but depends. So, no need to badmouth for both type of parents lah, it's their choice, they know what's best for themselves.

OK, back to KL Gangster, media said, this movie has collected millions during its first week (was it??). So, that's why my hubby donloded it and we watched it. Me, who is really hates violence and "ckp carut" really1000x dislike this movie. But I took some salient points from the movie,

1. Not all gangster are bad, they still have soft part in themselve but just to ego to show it!
2. Once you become a gangster, you put yourself in risk, you also put your friends/family in risk as well. And your enemy will be your forever enemy until both repent! (which is hard, they are like "hati keras macam batu/intan, susah mau pecah - dendam kesumat mmg buleh mati bersama2 mereka)
3. Bila nk berubah, susah jugak life gangster tu, sbb ketua gengster mesti ajak join balik, walau xpaksa, tp sbb mmg dh ade musuh ketat, mmg buleh ubah niat dr nk bertaubat, rejoin balik.Hanya yg hati kental jer, xkan rejoin dan tawakal, ape nk jadi, jadilah...mcm kes Malik dlm cite ni.
4.Gangster ni, die suke duit dan kuasa, sama mcm politik gak kot, suke duit dan kuasa, xkisah apa pun, janji dpt duit dan kuasa, xkire la walau terpaksa bunuh adik badik, kawan baik...khianat, menipu, bunuh org, ugut org...utk dpt duit nk hidup senang...janji ketua kasi duit byk, walau ketua tu yg khianat adik badik dia....pokoknya...mmg org xcerdik la yg jd "dog" kpd gangster2..ketua buat salah...pun masih agung2 kan..
5.Bahasa pertuturan, mmg giler kesat, xsdap lgsg didgr oleh halwa telinga.Tapi lakonan ajib (sape tah nama pelakon tu) dgn fadil (zizan) mmg best sbb diorg jer yg rsnyer penghidup cerita tu...kire bagi cool sket...sbb jln cerita die tegang...bergaduh ajer....malek (aaron) mmg watak serius muka xde perasaan, shark (syamsul) pulak mcm gengster poyo,

Kesimpulannya, xdelah best sgt pon, mungkin utk anak muda drh panas, suka la kot bab gaduh2bertumbuk2 tu..martial arts tu quite nampak real lahh...kelass la jugak..tu jer...pemilihan pelakon...kene la jugak kot...cuma aaron tu..nampak muka baik sgt lah!pehtu ending die xbest...mcm tergantung...pehtu die cuma buat penceritaan jer ape jadi kt malek dgn dragon tu...org tunjuklah scene selari dgn penceritaan..apedaaaa...bosan!

Yellow

Org ckp, sensitif kaler kuning ni. Hari ni je kt opis, baju kuning jd bhn lawak satu opis. Smlm ade jugak dgr omelan org sana sini psl perhimpunan BERSIH 2.0. Hmm, ada jugak terbaca dlm paper, tp agak malas nk amik pot serius sgt sbb, xuntung ape pun, rugi adalah...sbb GERAM bila baca (naik pulak blood pressure kang!). Byk ketidakadilan di situ. Bila la Mesia nk matang ni? Mcm2 hal.Kenape lah suka ikot-ikot org? Kenapa nk berhimpun bagai sbb nk adil? Kenapa kerajaan xlaksana kan sesuatu dgn adil, bkn semata-mata inginkan kuasa dan wang?(Takdelah rakyat nk berhimpun mintak keadilan) Kenapa wujud org2 yg camni?(Org gila kuasa & wang) Sampai bila agaknya tiap kali nk dekat2 pilihanraya, perang mulut, perang media, perhimpunan...akan berlaku. (Rimas sbb kt berita kutuk sana sini, malu seh...dgn foreigner2 yg tonton, baca berita2 cemtu...xmalu ke?)

Tapi, betullah, x adil sungguh nk tangkap org sbb die cuma pakai baju BERSIH jer??Adil ke cemtu ek?Saya pelik, sampai kdg2 rs takut diam di negara tumpah drh sendiri ni. Belum masuk jenayah2 yg sering berlaku. Smlm, bwk beg galas, mmg xtenteram hidup spjg nk balik ke rumah naik LRT. Hari ni, back to bagpack semula. Dah macam tomboy pulak. Padahal pakai baju kurung, skirt pergi keje...sbb takut peragut..fobia...sbb dh pernah terkena..selama nya teringat...even tiap kali lalu kt tpt kene ragut tu...rs menyumpah2 dan benci sbb kat tpt suci pon ade penjenayah...Sedih, negaraku bukan negara yg selamat..Penjenayah merata-rata...(Trauma itu masih ada...)

The price of tax

This morning, when passed through the flat housing area, just next to the LRT, I saw a banner written with "Jangan Kacau Hak Kami"..something like that. The banner just hang up at the front entrance of illegal parking area at that flat housing. The area was supposed to be an empty spaces with green grass purposely planted on it by the DBKL, I guess. Since, the flat is currently fully occupied or tenanted to singles or family, so, there are a lot of cars parked at that area.

I guess, this low cost flat was meant for low income family to live in which may not affordable to get their own car and much relying on public transportation. Because this area is mostly visited by RapidKL buses.

Then, since recently, I was told by someone, when we were having chitchatting during the break, she told me the story about tax deduction. Only now I know how much the govt has taken from me and others. I never know that the tax paid is quite high and become higher when your income become more. 1/4 of the annual income is taken by the govt every year! Now I understand why the taxpayers are really mad on how the govt spent the money into. Because, most of the taxpayers are non-govt employee because there is the minimum income that one is required to pay tax.

So, when I saw that banner, I was mumbling that, "korang bukan byr tax pun..every facilities ni, taxpayers yg provide the money to put things in action, korang yg enjoy all the facilities prepared by govt...middle income yg tersekat in between, but diligently paying tax.Kami nk bli rumah low cost xbley, rumah medium cost pun dah xavailable, tinggal rumah lama yg rege naik mencanak2 mcm xlojik! Rumah yg besar, lagila diluar kemampuan...bersyukur jelah...share parking pon kedekut, mcm korang byr cukai tanah utk area tu pun!"

Sometimes I doubt about the house pricing. I see it as it is not controlled by the govt. The price hike is too steep. For example area in setiawangsa, launching price 4 years ago was 399k, now, the price is doubled! I am very much puzzled since the land is leasehold. And what about another 4 years down the road?? Can it be triple???

Ape-ape ajer

Dah lama xmembebel kat sini. Asal terasa nk update, tiba-tiba otak jadi kosong, xde idea ape nk cerita. Nak cerita hal kehidupan seharian ke, isu semasa ke, resipi baru ke (takdenyer nak reka-reka resepi baru..eheh..amik resepi org jer!). Betul, hampir-hampir nk tutup account ni dah. Tapi bila renung-renung balik, byk dah dititip kat dalam ni, dlm english, rojak, melayu, sayang pulak rasanya nk tutup blog ni sbb tuan blog dah malas nk type entry baru. Hehe.Bukan sibuk sangat pon, asyik bertangguh-tangguh lama-lama idea yg tiba-tiba muncul "ting!" tu hilang bila dah berhari-hari tangguh kan.Hehe.

Skang ni kt umah demam Boboiboy. Asyik mintak tgk katun tu jer. Padahal katun tu dok ulang tayang episod yg sama ajer berkali-kali, rasa-rasa nya adalah nk dekat 4 kali kot. Punya lah TV nak kaut untung kan!Budak igt xtahu ke diorg dah tgk episod tu belum, diorg tahu lah! Sbb dulu BEN10 pun suke diulang tayang, sama lah mcm mickeymouse clubhouse dan katun2 lain. Lama-lama, bila dah asyik tgk episod yang sama, boringlah budak, so, demam BEN10 dah pulih, skang ni Boboiboy pulak, mentang skang ada version english. Haiya...padahal jln cerita sama, CD pun dah dibeli yg original...budak-budak...

Tahun depan, cadangnya nk masukkan Aqil skolah baru, tp belum lagi buat survey tadika yg baru. Aqil ckp nk tadika mickey mouse. Sbb dekat2 umah tu ade tadika mickey mouse sebenarnya, tp saya agak kurang berkenan bila tgk keadaaan persekitaran tadika tu yg kurang keceriaan nya, pilihan kaler yang agak out.

Bab pilih tadika kat Malaysia ni, kalau yg "big value" tu, susah nk ckp. Byk jer yg xkenanya. Tapi yg penting adalah security dan jugak hygiene. Bukan nk mengutuk, tp mmg mcm kenyataan, org Malaysia ni, pd observation saya, kurang menjaga kebersihan. Terutama pd kanak-kanak, diorg ni mmg suka main redah jer. Makan xbasuh tgn pas main puas-puas. Jadi mmg saya hari-hari risau kalau anak-anak ni terkene infection ke ape. Semlm, yg kecik mcm dh nk demam, mujur semangat die kuat, tambah support dr papa, abang, mama, alhamdulillah..pagi ni as usual.

Saya bersyukur jugak, Alhamdulillah, anak-anak ceria dan sihat walau org buleh ckp diorg ni kurus. Saya senang ckp, tgk saiz mak dia lah, camtula saiz anak dia, ehehe..:)..sbb mak dia yg selalu available untuk anak-anak kan.Hehe.Masa baby, kuar besar, bile membesar, kurus-kurus jer tapi bukan cikeding yer! Just appropriate!Saya pun xnak anak-anak saya gemuk-gemuk, nnt tak larat saya nak angkat, bahayakan tulang belakang saya jugak!

Tadi nk cerita pilih tadika. Kalau ada cadangan buleh la bagitahu saya. Nak area2 dr daerah wangsa maju ke KLCC. Kalau ade daycare lg bagus.Kalau g keje lalu MRR2 lah biasa nya. Oh ya, sesiapa keje kt KLCC, yg dah xnak guna season parking kt bwh tu utk kereta yer, kutlah, nk berhijrah ke, nk bercuti ke, nk retire, nk benti ke, hulur2 lah kata saya tanpa ambil untung yer. Orang skang sume pk nk amik untung atas angin kan. Sume perkara nk dijadikan bisnes, mcm desperate sgt jer...ish!

Whining

I'm sitting here, feeling empty. Works coming in, the excitement is fading. I'm whining again. I feel lost, be in the dead end. I've done all I've to do but there's still more I could do. I need the courage which I've lost long ago. I need the confidence that 've been buried long ago. I'm not a wait-n-see but now, I feel like I am one of it. There's nothing much I could do when it comes to governance which I never see.I'm whining, I'm unhappy with my work. I lost my passion long ago, friends heard me so many times, but 'people' did'nt hear me screaming out everyday that I really wanted to work on my skill & knowledge. Yes, I'm whining again. I should stop this. I must love my work, whatever it is, just learn to love it even it took me for granted. This is what I'm getting now, the future, no one knows God's plan. Hopefully it's going to be a fair future for my career. I need to live up my talent to the fullest which I currently can't because of 'them' making it impossible of absurd reason. This is life. Life is never been fair to everyone.

In Silent

Sometimes, when we say so much, our words eat us. Better to be in silence. But deep in heart, the arguments never stop. The brain keeps thinking of possible question and answers to an issue. It never stop until it gets tired, and even, during sleeptime, the brain is always working. That is why, when in coma, we are encourage to chit chat to the "dead" person to stimulate the brain so the "dead" will fight againts the sickness and gets recovered.

Sometimes, when we keep silence, people tends to misinterprete our silo. There could be anything in the world that make a person suddenly in silo. We are very complicated in nature, its up to us how we manage ourselves, either we carry on to be a complicated person, or we gets ourselves improved from day to day. It is us. Solely depends on us! Some people may say, I am like this, not much you can do. If your action does not affecting others negatively, then it is OK, but if your action/behaviour/attitude make other people feels irritating, then, you need to change, seriously. Just don't be selfish to stick at your status quo attitude which irritate others.

Why I am writing this, just to make the reader, don't judge me on anything if I didnt post a new topic...:)...Don't rumors, don't gossips, don't slanders...my silence has nothing to do with the readers or others. Btw, my blog is just an ordinary one where no one would even wait for a new topic to pop out day by day...:)

Long Weekend

Baru hari Rabu, dah nk cerita pasal weekend. Hehe..maklumlah, this coming weekend will be a not-so-long weekend, ala, 3 hari jer cuti. Ada kwn dah tanya, apa plan saya. Apa yer plan weekend ni?

Jom kita main masak-masak nak? Tak lama lagi ade Malaysia Masterchef, apa la agaknye masakan diorg nnt yeh? International dishes ke, asian dishes ke...hmm...can't wait to watch it in all malay language. Hrp2 jgn ikot skrip sudah...skema sgt bunyik nyer!! Xreal!

Saket Telinga

Semalam masa nk amik Aqil dari tadika, belikan la sedikit kuih-kuih utk die makan sementara tunggu dinner. Sebabnya, setiap kali balik dr tadika, mesti ckp, "Mama, saya lapar ni, ada makanan?" Then, mmg die sendiri akan cari lah. Tambah skang ni saya single, jd pakat bli ajerlah kuih-kuih tu. Bila suami ada, saya buatlah siket2 ajer kt rumah, macam cekodok ke, tp suami mrh sbb oily, pehtu yg kecik die suke lenyek2 cekodok tu, xmkn. Tapi Aqil mmg sgt happy kalau saya buatkn kuih utk dia. Kdg-kdg rs surprise, anak sebesar 4thn ni tahu nk menghargai orang dan jaga hati org terutama hati mama dia.

Sampai umah, pas amik adik, tetiba Aqil terbaring kat sofa. Saya tanyalah kenapa baring jer, macam xsihat. Naluri ibu, mesti dpt tangkap ade yg xkena dgn anak dia. Lepas tu saya tgk muka dia macam nk menangis. Saya tanyalah kenapa sekali lg. Dia ckp, dia saket. Saya tanya lagi, saket kt mana? Hati dah mula risau, yelah, sorang-sorang nk handle difficult situation, gabra jugak. Sbb rs xmenang tgn jer sbb dah ada 2 org anak.

Lepas tu Aqil buka cerita. Dia cakap dia saket telinga, even baring pon telinga yg xsaket yg atas bantal. Saya tanya lagi, Cemane leh saket? Ade gigi nk tumbuh ke? Saya pon xtahu ape kaitan, saya assume mungkin sbb geraham nk tumbuh ke kan. Saya tanya telinga lg satu saket ke tidak, die jawab tak. Lepas tu, dia bagitahu ada cikgu tarik telinga dia masa blajar sbb dia xtahu membaca. Die pun bagitahu nama cikgu tu, tp sy mmg xknal yg mn satu, cikgu2 situ xpakai nametag, saya kenal muka jer...ehehe..Saya pun agak terkejut, sbb principle tadika dia dh maklumkan hukuman-hukuman bg pelajar2 nakal, xde pulak tarik telinga tu dibenarkn. Dan disbbkn kenakalan barulah pelajar tu dihukum, itupun akan dimaklumkn kepada ibu bapa.

Saya tahu Aqil ni nakal, budak lelaki, main je byk, mmg die belum mahir membaca, kdg2 hangin jugak, sbb 2 thn tadika, masih xtahu membaca. Saya pun kdg2 terlps angin radang sy kt dia sbb terlalu kecewa dgn pencapaian dia. Lepas tu saya menyesal sampai nk menangis bila kenangkn kemarahan saya kt dia. Terukkn saya!

Saya pun belek telinga dia, ok, xde ape-ape, mungkin cikgu tu tertarik kuat sgt. Saya tanya die balik, sama ada saya penah tak tarik telinga dia sbb dia notty. Dia geleng kepala. Sampai dia xlalu nk mkn nasi walau saya suapkan sbb dia ckp, telinga dia saket. Saya mmg questioned dia betul nak pastikn dia xkeliru dgn sebab yg dia beritahu saya. Lepas tu, saya promise, saya akan ckp dgn cikgu @ ustazah dia pasal hal tu.

Kemudian, sy masih xpuas hati, sbb saya xnak, hal kecil Aqil perbesarkn. Jadi, saya mintak die demo kat saya. Saya mintak dia tarik telinga saya utk sahkan cerita dia. Then suddenly...die geleng kepala, saya tanya kenape,

"Sebab SAYANG..."

Masa tu rs luluh hati sy dgr ape yg kuar dr mulut dia. Terharu sgt bila dgr dia ckp camtu. No wonder, die xpnah kasar dgn adik dia, dan bising-bising mulut saya ms die suke pukul2 saya dulu tu, berkesan kt dlm diri dia. Anak sekecil 4 thn pun dah tahu erti kasih sayang, iaitu bila kita sayang org, kita xkn harm org tu, kita akan protect org tu.

Saya xheran kalau ade ibubapa yg mrh cikgu sbb pukul anak dia. Tapi kenelah rasional. Sebab kalau overprotected, nnt jadi lain pulak. Pada saya, hukuman utk tujuan mendidik dan tidak keterlaluan, selagi xmendtgkan kecacatan fizikal dan mental kat anak-anak saya, saya masih buleh tolerate lg. Saya pon dulu pnah kene cubit sampai lebam dgn cikgu masa sekolah rendah sbb xhantar keje sekolah.

Kadang-kadang, cikgu pun perlu igt, bila mendidik anak-anak kecil, perlu kesabaran yg sgt tinggi, mereka amanah org, jagalah amanah tu baik-baik, sbb sume org bakal disoal diakhirat kelak. Sebab tu, pekerjaan pendidik ni sgt mulia kalau pendidik tu ikhlas hatinya.

MBMMBI

Lama betul xwrite entry in this blog. Not too busy but, I think more to MALAS...:)

There were several issues happened to me lately, and it really kills my motivation to do extra things such as writing entry. But I will not going to tell you what were the issues, because it personal, and some people may don't like to read about personal issues here and I myself don't like to get any offensive comments as I had before.

So, lets story about more realistic issue. I just read in the today's newspaper, the MBMMBI.

What is that?? - Mermartabatkan Bahasa Melayu Memperkukuhkan Bahasa Inggeris.- It is an initiative of Ministry of Education towards our education system. It will be implemented starting from Year One pupil.

From what I read, they structured the system so as the pupils will grab both languages and be fluent in both languages. I fully support this initiatives, as I know, it is not easy to come out with a strategic planning, when you need to deal with the high level management approval and endorsement.

What I hope, this system will not get negative feedback from "overconcerns" parents. And actually, I don't see any lacking of our educational system. It's depend on people perception, how do they see it are all in different perspective. Because I was the product of Malaysian Government Education System too.

Thanks to Malaysia Government for giving me such a plentiful of opportunity and benefits to me until I get what I want and improve my standard of living. :)

MASTERCHEF Malaysia

I saw an advert on TV yesterday..now they are looking for Malaysian MasterChef!!

So, who ever out there who wants to be on real TV contest, go and submit your application form ONLINE!..

Err, I don't know but I guess you can go into astro.com.my..and find from there!!

This is cool, we will see how our people cook!

Hope all the contestants really have a good skill and of course tastebud too!!!! Why so? Because, I've eaten in some of the hotels, and the taste...huh!, warung tepi jln lagi better!! Huhu! For me, food presentation is not justifying the taste of the food! It must come together for a delicious food!! It's a package after all!

So, anyone interested, go in astro.com and get yourself register!! Who knows, you'll be the first MASTERCHEF in Malaysia Edition!!!

Srott..srott..

Bila hati xtenteram, senang nyer jatuh saket. Penangan stress jadilah srott...srott...hajat hati nk jer MC, tp kaki malasnya nk g klinik sbb pasti, nnt mulut berat nk mintak MC dr doctor...ditambah pulak dgn fobia akibat preskripsi hari tu yg membuatkan saket yg medium bertuka jadi horror ....

solusi, berthn ajerlah kt opis sambil ditemani sebotol air mineral yg dibeli dgn harga RM2.40 - sama harga dgn minyak kete utk 1.5 liter..

Semoga cepat sembuh bintang hati!

Eh, terasa lapar pulak selepas mkn 2 ketul roti RM0.60 + Mee goring RM2

Sape lah sudi nk blanja saya mkn?

Serius xrugi!

hehehehehehehehehehe

My Creative Cooking

I think the other day, was actually to babble on my cooking experiments. However, on the day I wrote the post, I did not bring my cable to connect my phone to the computer. So, here we go with the first experiment after the return of my husband.

The first one is the tiramisu,

I took the simplest recipe from MYR, which was contributed by one of my friend back in edinburgh actually. The first time I tasted this recipe, it was so marvellous, eating in during the summer outing at the farm, was reallu mouthwatering! Or, err, maybe the taste of the UK ingredients were different?

Here is another close up,

I modified a bit in the recipe which I add some lemon juice which is turn out very yummeh! Oh, all the ingredient can be found in Cold Storage especially for mascarpone cheese and lady finger biscuits.

Another experiment was popped out when there was a lot of bread skin leftovers, since Aqil will request to remove the outer skin of the bread to make his bread with jam.

Actually I was about to open the MYR to get the recipe out as I did once in using bread in the recipe but it turns out failed! So, this time, I was following my guts on the ingredient or I would say, just mixed what ever is there without discounting the right measurement of water and jelly powder! I used a little bit more water to have a jellyish pudding!


Here is the recipe that I made up.

3 layers bread pudding
5-6gm jelly powder
600 ml water - estimated! - kindly refer to the instruction at the jelly packet and add some more water
bread skin or bread - about 1 cup
1 sachet Hi-Goat - can use any other form of milk too or creamer powder, I used this because Aqil is allergic to cow's milk
1/2 cup sugar - you can increase or decrease the amount according to your liking!
pandan leave
2 teaspoon of brown sugar
Food coloring/ flavoring

Method:
On stove, heat up about 400ml water + jelly powder + sugar + brown sugar + pandan leave until it boils, then put on slow heat.

Using blender, blend together, the bread + hi goat powder +the remaining water of 200ml or more is OK. Blend until smooth.

Add the blended ingredient into the pudding mixture. Mix it well. Bring it to boils a bit then shut the stove.

Prepare 3 bowls, pour in the pudding into the 3 bowls evenly. Add different food coloring and flavoring to each bowl as you wish.Mix them well until the color evenly distributed.

Then, prepare a 7 inch x 7 inch square tin, pour in the bowl. Bring it to cool under the fan until the surface a little bit hardened.

Then carefully, using a spoon, pour in from side onto the top of the first layer until all have been used up. Bring it to cool.

Then, repeat the above step for the third layer. Bring it to cool under the fan before putting in the fridge.

So simple right? I was so happy when first cutting the pudding, I can see the three layers....:)


Happy trying!

Jom Skolah!

Lega 50% hati ni bila dah register sekolah utk Aqil pagi td. Register online, tp kene g gak skolah tu utk validation. Suami bising sbb ms register letak current address, takut tak xdpt tempat kt skolah tersebut. Maklumlah, sekolah tersebut dikatakan sekolah contoh kt area tu dan location pulak, mmg bukan area 1km radius dr rumah lah!

Kadang geram pon ada, sbb kementerian sibuk nk letak penempatan budak2 skolah kt sekolah yg paling hampir dgn rumah parents. Dah kalau parents 2-2 bekerja, relevan ke? Serupa gak, kalau emergency, kene call parents dr office jugak jwpnye. Jadi, kami decided nk masukkn sekolah on the way g keje, snang drop by, and tambahan, kompeni kini sdg dlm tempoh pilot implementation utk flexi hours, jd my view, xjadi masalah nk drop die kat skolah pagi2 on the way g keje 2 thn lg sbb sekolah tu ala-ala tepi jalan jer, kene masuk siket jer. So, strategik dah tu. Jarak dr rumah pon xjauh, 4 minit drive (kelajuan suami) dah sampai pon, kelajuan saya, double dr itu lah..ehehe..Jarak dr opis pon xjauh, tambah ade AKLEH, mmg 7 minit jer, leh sampai waktu habes skolah depan pintu pagar skolah. Hehehe.

Tapi sume decision, terletak pd kementerian, PPD daerah gombak. Jgn p letak anak sy skolah kt gombak, udahla.Kene pth blkg lak nk anta g skolah sdgkn saya mmg xfamiliar lgsg area gombak sana. Jadi, saya tawakal ajerlah, nak menipu, guna alamat org lain yg rumah dkt2 dgn skolah tersebut, sy rs unethical walaupon cara itu yg paling berkesan dan terjamin. Tapi sy tetap dgn keputusan saya, kalau dpt, Alhamdulillah, kalau xdpt, buleh buat rayuan, xdpt jugak, mungkin di tpt lain lebih baik utk Aqil & Asif...:)

p/s: Doa-doakan application Aqil nk masuk SK Tmn Melawati 2 diterima utk thn 2013 yer! Ameen.

Bestfren

Sebenarnya nak citer psl percubaan memasak saya, tp terlupa pulak nk bwk kabel utk transfer gambar. Nak cite menu-menu, kene tempek gambo ye dak...aiseh! Baru la terliur sket (kalu terliur lah kan!) bila baca entry tu. Lama jugak xupdate apa-apa. Sebenarnye xde idea tambah dgn Malas pon ada jugak.

Tp saya baca entry-entry terkini blog-blog yg saya mmg slalu follow xkira lah dlm list saya kt tepi ni ataupun tidak. Macam-macam berlaku dlm 2 minggu kebelakangan ni. Suami balik sekejap, nnt hujung minggu ni outstation balik ke tpt hari tu jugak. So, kembali lah saya bersilat sorang kt rumah dgn anak-anak yg makin hari makin lah bijak-bijak belaka. Ada ajalah idea diorg nk sepahkan rumah.Hehehe.

Citer psl 2 beradik ni, lega hati saya tgk keakraban diorg 2 org nih. Terasa dh berbayar kepayahan saya menjaga 2 org ms saya dlm pantang bila tgk diorg mmg betul love each other so much! Lelebih drpd mama diorg pulak. Maybe ramai xtahu kot, selepas sy lahirkn Asif, Aqil pon stay kt rumah, ms tu die baru 3 thn, saya jugak mandikn die, sy jugak suapkn mkn die, saya jugak melyn die spjg die dirumah termasuk tidokn die mlm2.

Anak-anak saya, kalau xde saya, xtahulah cemane, tp sy yakin diorg mmg buleh survive. Ada mama, mengader ajer lebih kn! Biasalah tu! Anak lelaki, haruslah tabah dan berjiwa kuat! Berbalik citer keakraban mereka, ms kecik2, yakni Asif masih blum lepas hari, Aqil suke cium-cium belai-belai adik dia. Mmg sy didik spy die sygkn adik die sejak adik lahir. Sebenarnya, ms pertama kali Aqil dtg jumpa adik die, sy sebak seolah-olah cam kesian kt Aqil sbb mebe lps ni sy mungkin xdpt bg perhatian sgt kt dia. Lagipon mcm-mcm dah sy dan Aqil lalui ms susah dan senang, ms sihat dan saket, mmg byk sy korbankn utk Aqil. Saya bersyukur, Aqil seorg yg lembut hati dan die mmg xberkasar dgn adik die. Terbalik dgn adik, agak kasar mungkin sbb bergaul dgn budak2 besar kt rumah pengasuh die kot. Ckp pun garau-garau. Jauh beza dgn Aqil, ckp pun manja dan agak sensitif.

Saya mmg learn day to day utk control anger sy dlm mendidik anak-anak. Frankly speaking, saya ni bukan penyabar sgt orgnyer! Tambah sy xpnah ade adik, jd sy xpasti nk sabar cemane dgn budak-budak ni. Jadi, mmg simpati tu lebih sket kt Aqil. Sbb mmg sy akan mrh kalau die wat slh yg berulang-ulang. Tapi bagusnya Aqil, die cepat belajar dr kesilapan. Kiranya, yg saya sound-sound kan tu, berkesan kt dia, dan die mmg berusaha utk xmengulangi kesalahan tersebut.

Asif lak, sgt witty. Die berkasar dgn Aqil, sampai Aqil menangis sbb kene gigit. Asif agak agresif orgnye, selagi xdpt ape yg die nak, selagi tu die akan memberontak sambil cium lantai. Kalau tak cium lantai, melalak sekuat hati! Tapi die mmg sgt syg Aqil, bgn pagi-pagi, die akan kiss pipi Aqil dulu. Nak tido, pun akan kiss pipi Aqil dulu. Balik rumah dr rumah bbsitter die akan kiss Aqil dulu as compared to org lain. Saya lega, terus hilang penat tgk keakraban anak-anak. Harap-harap diorg bestfren forever. InshaAllah...Ameen..:)

5 bintang

Pada hari minggu lepas, saya dan kluarga pulang ke rumah tpt saya dibesarkan di Ipoh, Perak. Menghantar mak yg 3 minggu membantu saya mengawal anak-anak. Terima Kasih Mak!

Kami tiba di Ipoh dalam tengahari gitu. Sampai rumah, Abah xde pulak. Abg Ngah pon xde jugak, kerja la tu. Abgli pulak, tgh tunggu anak sementara kak ipar masak lauk tgh hari kt rumah dia. Last-last, mak panaskan roti canai, kami bekal perut dgn roti canai lebih breakfast pagi td. Suami bli byk giler (die mmg suke bli byk-byk, igt perut istri die perut tong kot!). Lepas tu tunggu Abah lg, rupanye die pegi service beskal die.

Abah skang ni mungkin tgh kayuh beskal utk mengcompletekan ekspidisi berbasikal warga emas die. Nak larang pon dah xdpt, psl kita risaukan keselamatan die, tp die ckp die buleh buat. Jadi ikotkan shj, asal die gembira. Umur Abah tu dah nk masuk 69 thn. Kuatkan Abah saya! Harap-harap die selamat!

Hari Ahad, kiterg nk pulang cepat, byk bende nk buat kt rumah. Mmg dh mcm tongkang pecah. Senin cuti, xtahu nape suami suh amik cuti.

Kami bertolak agak lewat, tunggu mak abes msk, dpt bawak balik bekal, beras kt umah pon dh abes, so siap dgn nasi la kami bwk balik. Hehehe. On the way balik, suami ty, nk g Cameron tak. Mula-mula rs xnak, psl dh mmg igt nk kemas rumah ni. Tp sbb dh sampai simpang nk masuk Cameron Highland, terus setuju ajer! Dalam kepala dah terbyg-byg sayuran cameron highland dah ni!

Perjalanan mmg lalu ikot jln ular, tp xlah curam sgt kalau naik dr tapah. Dari simpang pulai, akan jumpe brinchang dulu. Dr tapah, akan jumpe tanah rata dulu.

Tetiba hujan turun. Hujan turun sekejap-sekejap. Jadi xmenyinggah pon mana walau nampak ade bende-bende menarik tepi kiri kanan jln. Satu lg, susah pon nk kuar dgn budak2 kalau tgh hujan. Asif sdap tido dlm pangkuan. Hampir sejam lebih gak nk sampai brinchang.

Tetiba lalu la kt area rumah-rumah penginapan. Kendian lalu kt satu resort. Resort tu berhadapan dgn padang golf. Hari masih hujan, jadi saya pon xtahu nk decide nk singgah mana. Tetiba suami pusing, masuk ke perkarangan Cameron Highland Resort. Saya sangka suami nk wat U-turn, nk patah balik ke Kea farm, buat beli sayur seblum sambung perjalanan nk balik KL.

Tiba dpn tangga resort, saya dah pelik, nape benti kt sini. So, igt, mungkin ni tpt fine dining kot. Kebetulan masa tu pon lunch hour. So, saya turun dgn anak-anak. Tunggu kt lobi. Terjenguk2 gak, mana tpt mkn nye. Takde org pon. Saya dah rs termalu, isk, watper kt sini nih. Mahal tpt nih! Sofa, perhiasan sume tersusun kemas. Cantik.

Kemudian, nampak suami angkut beg kami dgn porter tu kelam kabut membantu. Suami terus direct ke reception. Eh laa, nk bermlm kt sini ke? Seriusly, saya xtahu menahu ttg rancangan ini. Baju-baju packed ukt keperluan 1 mlm jer. Sudahhhh....

Saya ke tandas dgn Aqil, dh nk terkencing sgt die. Pas balik dr tandas, nampak suami tgh duduk, ade gelas atas meja menunggu. Air teh bunga panas. Wah, sdap, pestu kami beransur dgn porter ke bilik penginapan. Sampai di eskot, porter tu terangkan facilities yg ada kt resort tu. Wah, terasa cam org kaya-kaya g bercuti lak! Padahal baju selekeh ajer, segan saya!

Sampai bilik ade 2 biji limau menanti yg telah dikerjakn oleh Asif, dibuatnya spt bola. Die makan limau tu sampai habes baju basah dgn limau. Sementara tunggu hujan benti, kiterg mkndulu bekal mak bagi dlm bilik. Bila hujan dh benti, kitorg pon kuar, nk jln-jln. Kami sempat g minum teh kt tepi ldg teh Bharat jer. Nk turun petik daun teh xdpt, psl hujan renyai-renyai dan laluan agak lecah. Tambah Asif sibuk nk main payung kaki.

Selesai situ, kami g cari baju kt mana eh? lupa lak. Tnh rata ke atas siket dr tnh rata. Ada mcm psr mlm kt situ. So, buleh bli mkn dinner sekali. Elok jer pilih punya pilih baju, hujan balik. Hmm, asyik hujan jer kan! Bertuah sungguh, xangkut payung kaki Asif ms kuar dr keta. Ha, so, tunggu la hujan benti. Dah benti hujan, g psr mlm, bli apam balik mini yg crispy tu, sdap sungguh!! Beli nasi lemak wat dinner.

On the way balik ke resort, hujan lagii. So, Masuk bilik letak brg, saya cdgkan jom bwk bebudak main kt playroom. Sbb playroom die indoor, so budak-budak dpt have fun! So off, we went to playroom. Masuk playroom, ade 2 tV game, 2 pc, 1 tv besar. Wah, sy dh teruja nk main PS2 dgn suami. Sementara anak-anak main toys budak2 kt the other side dlm bilik tu. Tapi, start je suami nk main PS2, tetibe, sorg-sorg dtg menyibuk. Terus xjadi main. Kami main dgn budak-budak ajer lah sambil curi-curi surfing ikot turn!

Seronok, psl bilik tu, kami sekeluarga ajer yg main. Adala sekali family chinese ni dtg masuk nk amik gambar baby sulung die. Sungguh excited psgn tu! Oh, seblum ke playroom tu, kami tgk-tgk ikan. Sayangnye terlps ms mkn. ms tu dh kul 6++ ptg. Jadi tgk jelah. Besar gilerrr ikan Kap jepun die. Anak-anak sampai cuak. Jgn kata anak-anak, mak budak pon cuak, psl diorg berpusu-pusu dtg kt kami.

Pukul 7ptg kami naik bilik, sbb Aqil nk tgk BoboiBoy dia. Tak habes-habes dgn BoboiBoy, Asif pon dah pandai sebut Boboi.

Malam kami xkuar, so berehat kt bilik sbb budak2 pon dah restless. Main seronok sgt kt playroom.

Pagi esoknye, kami turun bersarapan. Seblum berjln-jln sekitar Cameron. Kami masuk dining hall, tapi xnampak pun buffet nya. Pelayan situ ty kami dr bilik mana, terus bawak kami ke meja yang agak hujung. Dalam tu ade 2 meja jer yg berorang, tgh mkn. Saya dah pelik, erk, fine dining ke ape ni? Pepagi buta dh kene serve. Suami pon pelik, siap tolak kn kusi, letakkan kain napkin. Wah, mmg kelasss.Then, dtg sebakul roti campuran. Owh, croissant dia sgt sdap ok. Mak tgh lapar giler, mmg balun ajer. Cereal Aqil pon diorg serve. Air minum, pure juice, pun diorg tuangkan. Saya tergamam jap. Erk, mhl kang nk byr breakfast camni, siap ade 2-3 org melayan kami semeja. Maklum la, meja ade budak-budak kan. Order pon ikot menu atas meja. So, kami mmg order utk 4 org, siap dgn penkek khas utk Asif tp Asif xmkn, die sdap minum juice watermelon dgn separuh croissant yg sdap tu. Last-last, penkek die Aqil yg mkn. Pdhal order waffle utk Aqil, tp stroberi jem die xsdap kt tekak kampung ni ha...so xmkn. Saya dan suami order kuetiow goring, isk..apela..order la western breakfast kn! Huhuhu...pastu dh nk cpt, kang mkn masa lama lak kt meja mkn, terus off g jln2.

Ni lah pertama kali, kami dilyn cam org kaya-kaya waktu breakfast. Best tp sebenarnye rs awkward sgt2 sbb kiterg ni org kebanyakan ajer, bukan bangsawan. Resort manager siap dtg kt meja kiterg ty how's everything, and bagi namecard. Saya sangka cuma for business stay jer org wat gitu, eh, family stay pon die lyn cemtu gak. Kelas-kelas.

Tanya suami, bp rate kt situ. Die ckp, resort tu 5 star resort kt Cameron Highland. Yg paling best, dan paling mhl kt Cameron. Tapi of kos, xde maknenye nk stay in ms peak time. Tu psl Aqil kene ponteng skolah senin tu...ehehe..so merasa la kejap duduk rumah sejuk walau utk semlm. Budak-budak pon sgt happy sbb xberpeluh kot..so xcranky. Cuaca sedap gitu, saya siap ckp, jum bli umah kt cameron utk masa tua..sejuk..nyaman jerrr..tp suami ckp, susah anak cucu nk dtg jenguk...hahaha...

Percutian yg simple but sweet. Macih sayang..Muah-muah..lain kali buat lagi ehh...tp jgn lupa sorok baju2 kiterg dlm beg tau....xmo recycle baju-baju busuk!..eheehe...:)

Award 2011

Rule #1: to thank those who awarded me

Thank you CAHYA SCHATZ for awarding me with this award

wahhhhhhhhh!!

Rule #2: to write 7 and few things about me

No. 1

I am THIN!

No.2

I am GenY baby!

No.3

I am Married with a husband and 2 kids.

No.4

I love to EAT!

No.5

I love cooking!

No.6

I love baking!

No.7

I love spending time with husband n kids!

Rule #3: to award it to others to keep the cycle going

This one I disobeyed.

Anyone from my PeeKaBoo list can do this at their own comfortable time!

Rule #4: to inform those recipients

When you read this, you've been awarded with this award!!

Styleeee!!!!

Panas & Hujan = Hujan Panas

Skang ni isu hangat is tsunami kt Jepun. Saya bersimpati sgt2 dgn mangsa2, hari2 saya mendoakan spy mereka tabah dan yg masih selamat, terus selamat terutama rakan2 yg saya kenal tinggal kt jepun. Musibah dtg tanpa dijangka, itulah qadha dan qadar Allah.

Begitu jugak yg terjadi pd saya. Manusia merancang, Allah juga penentu. Panas yg disangka berpanjangan sampai berpeluh-peluh...xdisangka tetibe hujan petir siap guruh datang bertandang (eh madah pulak...geli ai!!..kekeke).

Igt tak entry saya psl SUKA!...entry tu sy rs, sy patut delete atau tuka tajuk jd DUKACITA! Tapi saya xnak meluahkan segala terbuku kt dlm ni sbb nnt mcm mengada2 pulak. Tapi rsnya sy perlu share ape yg terbuku kt sini, spy menjadi peringatan buat diri saya yg bende ni pnah terjadi pd sy, dan bila sy baca balik in future, dan sy tahu, betapa sy bertabah dan berlikunyer kehidupan sy yg penah saya tempuhi sehingga sy menjadi org tertentu pd hari tertentu.

DUKACITA yg saya maksudkan adalah ttg policy/governance kompeni tpt sy keje skang. Ikutkan hati, saya ingin cari pekerjaan diluar, ttp tahap keyakinan diri sy teramat rendah kerana pengalaman yg ada, xmungkin menjustify/support application saya kt luar sana. Mungkin gaji pon lebih rendah dr apa yg saya dpt skang. Itu mungkin sukar utk saya terima dgn ape yg ada skang cukup-cukup utk keperluan keluarga saya. Alhamdulillah.

Tambahan, perlu menapak dr bawah, kalau kompeni skang, sy dpt jawatan permanent which is sgt bersyukur, kalau kt luar sana, pasti contractual dan sgt agresif, hmm, susah pulak saya nk meet KPI rumahtangga iaitu melahirkan generasi cerdik pandai! Kompeni eh department skang pulak xmenjamin perkembangan career sy dimn job gred saya mungkin xberubah sampai bila-bila kalau saya xkluar dr dept saya. Dalam erti kata lain, tiada career progression. Pengurus besar pulak xbegitu concern ttg permasalahan saya sbb die ade authority to make anything happens. So, saya sgt rs dianaktirikan.

Nak mengadu kt bos yg akan bersara 2 thn lg pon, mcm xnampak penyelesaian sbb pdgn die pon akan hantar ke division yg dh dimangga/atau diseal selama-lamanya (sampai bertuka VP dan VP tu bermurah hati bukak seal tersebut). Jadi ke mana arah saya?

Saya kemam mulut, saya cubit tgn saya sendiri spy jgn menangis. Supaya tabah, tiap yg terjadi pasti ade hikmah, saya mula berfikir, apa silap saya, adakah ini kifarah atas dosa-dosa saya seblum ni? Mcm-mcm merasuk fikiran saya semalam. Berkali-kali sy pujuk diri, jgn slhkn suami sbb dia apply masuk tpt yg saya idam-idam sbb dulu pon pnah terjadi, dan sy xmahu terjadi lagi, di mana saya dan suami jadi xsebulu dan asyik memendam rasa dgn suami.

Saya sedih, pilu, sbb saya xdpt mencapai cita-cita saya, saya xkenal org besar-besar dlm kompeni saya, saya agak pendiam, saya mungkin xbegitu reach out type of person tapi saya ada cita-cita. Disebbkn cita-cita itu sy berhempas pulas meletakkn diri saya utk mengqualifykn diri sy utk jawatan itu.

Saya beristigfar byk kali, spy saya xbuat sesuatu diluar pemikiran saya. Saya beristigfar memujuk diri saya spy bersabar. Namun akhirnya, saya luahkan kt stereng kerete. Saya menangis sepuas-puasnya, seblum saya menapak ke rumah spy reda bungkam di hati. Reda kekecewaan di hati. Spy saya tetap dpt tersenyum dgn kepulangan suami ke pangkuan saya. Spy sy xmrh2 anak2 disbbkn sy keciwa. Saya menangis spt anak kecil xdpt lolipop kesukaan. Mendayu-dayu sambil pdg kiri kanan takut2 org ketuk pintu kete dan ty "what's wrong mem?"..sbb ms tu kt parking kete bwh condo.

Saya ke psr, bli apa yg patut sbb suami minta nasi lemak sambal udang. Beli udang, beli char kuey tiow, amik adik, dan balik. Dalam perancangan, nk msk nasi lemak dan sambal udang sbb suami ckp dijangka tiba mlm. Saya agak, dlm 8 mlm, just in time for dinner.

Sampai dpn pintu rumah, istigfar lg, dlm kete seblum naik, sempat ngadu kt adik.."Adik, mama sedih". Asif cuma buat muka comel ajer. Sejuk siket hati. Depan pintu rumah, dlm hati terasa, mcm suami dh balik. Grill xbermangga, cume terkunci, Mula agak, mungkin mak kuar buang sampah kot.

Naluri seorg isteri tu kuat. Bila nk bukak pintu rumah, pintu xkunci, pehtu nampak muka Aqil berseri-seri, saya dah agak, mesti suami dh balik, die menyorok blkg pintu rupanya. Saya pujuk diri, senyum-senyum. Suami pulang dr jauh, xkn nk tgk isteri bad mood pulak. Saya cuba diamkan ape yg terbuku.

Saya jd awkward dgn suami, setelah hampir 4 bulan xbertemu. Tambah sy sedang dilanda dukacita. Saya kesiankn suami, saya pulang lewat, hampir jam 7 pm. Sempat masak nasi goreng, dan buatkn air. Hrp2 nasi goreng tu ada rasa, siap berdoa ms solat magrib, biarlah hidangan mlm tu sedap pd tekak suami. Saya letak sikit jer, tahu mlm2 suami mkn siket kalau saya msk, mujur habes...(jg hati kot!ekeke..) kalau tak..mungkin dukacita saya bertambah...

Lepas tidokn Asif, setelah puas die mengenal semula papa die dan bermain sepuas-puasnye papa die. Saya menung kejap, saya xsdar airmata mengalir lg mengenang nasib. Sekali lagi, sy pujuk hati, jgn menangis dpn suami yg baru pulang dr jauh, nnt hilang keseronokan die berjumpe semula dgn keluarga yg terpaksa ditinggalkan sbb kerjaya.

Saya masih belajar terima hakikat, saya masih berkira-kira ttg option2 lain kecuali menjadi surirumah sepenuh masa atau berbisnes kecilan/besaran. Saya boleh melupakan cita-cita saya, dan teruskn apa yg saya lakukan skang, tp sy pilu apabila mengenang ijazah master yg sy genggam dlm segala kepayahan tu, terbiar....

Penakut

Scene 1:

Dalam kereta,

Aqil: Mama, nnt opah balik ipoh, sape nk kawan saya tido?
Mama: Aqil tidola sorang2.
Aqil: Alaaaa...xnak...jgn kasi opah balik ipoh tau mama...
Mama: Hmm...opah kene balik, tgk atuk..
Aqil: Ala, jgn kasi opah balik ipoh tau mama..
Mama: Aqil ikotlah opah balik ipoh..
Aqil: Mama?
Mama: Mama keje...
Aqil: Adik?
Mama: Adik tinggal la dgn mama, adik kn minum susu kat mama..
Aqil: Hmm, kalau camtu, saya pon kene tinggal lah...

Since opah came, he sleeps with his opah in his room. He sleeps on his bed, then, opah has to sleep on the floor. However, when he awakes somewhen during the night time, he may transfer himself to the floor, sleeping next to his opah. So penakut la this little boy.

He has been "penakut" quite a while now. I always asked him why, did he had nightmares, what kind of nightmares to make him tell me the reason behind his behavior. Because, it is just so weird! Even to watch tele, he will ask anyone of us to accompany him. As well as going for toilet!

Last night I asked him politely, what went wrong that make him behave like that. I even told him, that Allah is always with us. Why so afraid of?And that, our home is not that big to feel so awry. (I pun penakut jugak sebenornye! hehe). But he kept silent, looking at the ceiling. At that time, he was waiting for opah to finish solat.

He was so curious that why opah solat so many times and take a long time to complete. So, I explained to him ( I don't know whether he can receive it or not but still explaining) about the RUKUN ISLAM (mak pon dh terlupe susunan..teruknye!) and I explained to him about SYURGA and NERAKA resultance of doing what ALLAH ruled out and prohibits.

I always wonder what he did learn at school. He has been "penakut" since he always told me that he watched "SYETAN" at school. And keeps saying that SYETAN masuk api neraka. Then, he keeps comparing, bad people just like SYETAN, and will go to hell. I was so surprised with his statement anyway. He is just 4 and half years old. And he easily get angry with small little things, not like before, he speaks politely, ask politely, but now, if late a few seconds or I need to attend on something else, he will throw his tantrum so bad. I wonder...I wonder...ada gangguan kah???

Baking Soda/Baking Powder

Semalam ade meeting special komiti kt opis. Kiterg xde source utk order refreshment, unless hmm, someone in the komiti willing to sedekah duit department dia. And since all of us cuma anak buah ajer, jadi kiterg xde LOA nk approved utk order kt Kopet**. So, saya selaku setiausaha komiti, dah pesan, air sile bwk sendiri yer!

Jadinye, saya amik initiative sendiri, kesian kang miting lama2 dahla petang lak tu, xde bende nk kunyah. Sebenarnye nk bwk cikedi tayar yg Aqil nak sgt tp pehtu xmkn kt rumah. Pehtu sekali nk buat red velvet cupcake sbb bhn2 mmg sedia ada dah.

So, mlm rabu, bersilat lah kat dapur menyediakan bhn-bhn sambil terteleng-teleng kat recipe. Haha. yer, ikot recipe, bukan rekaan, kalau xsedap, slhkn recipe..hahaha...

Alih ade satu bhn, die tulis baking soda. Recipe dlm bhs omputih la ni. So ms tu dh konfiden gile baking soda tu was baking powder. So letak baking powder jelah. OK, kek pon masak dgn baik. Naik sume, moist sume, sedap sume (ceyy!).

Bgn pagi, wat topping die, pun ikot recipe gak, kalau xsdap, salahkn recipe yer! hahaha..

Pehtu ms berjln nk g lrt, tibe-tibe terigt perkataan baking soda. Pehtu berteka teki lak dlm hati, baking soda tu soda bicarbonate ke baking powder. Alamak, kek xjadi la tu..Ish, tp dah bawak lebih kurang 10 biji cupcake siap topping ni, nk jamu meeting ptg tu. Pehtu decided nk surfing, baking soda tu ape.

Masuk lrt, terus bukak safari, google cr baking soda. So, sumber dr wikipedia kot, xigt, die ckp, baking soda is purely soda bicarbonate. Dush!..cuak dah masa baca tu, dlm hati ckp, sah, kek ni xjadi la tu! Pehtu baca lagi explanation, wiki tu ckp, kalau recipe yg gune baking soda, buleh subs gune baking powder, psl baking powder contains soda bicarbonate dgn cream of tartar. Tapiiiii...kalau recipe gune baking powder, TAKLEH subs dgn gune baking soda. Chemical reaction die lainnnnn....

Baking soda, bile die react dgn other ingredient, product akhir die, kek akan moist. Terbalik dgn baking powder, die ade agent pengering, tu psl byk gune dlm cake, baking powder + soda bicarb bile nk kek yg moist gitu. Tapiiiii, baking soda ni, die leh bagi rs bitter sket kalau gune byk sgttttt...normally, resepi yg gune buttermilk, yogurt, mmg gune baking soda. So red velvet, recipe die gune buttermilk, yg resipi saya pulak, guna yogurt, so die cuma guna baking soda ajer!

Satu lg perkara yg saya dpt belajar melalui kesilapan saya! Atau org putih ckp, Learn from Mistakes!

SUKA!

Disaat hampir-hampir putus harapan, tetibe rezeki dtg mengetuk pintu. Rasa nk melompat-lompat pun ado sbb terasa spt Allah telah menjwb doa saya. Terima kasih Ya Allah. Walaubagaimanapun masih jauh utk menjadikan impian itu suatu realiti.

Kawan-kawan, doakan sy dpt menempuh percubaan utk saya menjadikan impian saya suatu realiti (mcm bunyik lirik menuju puncak lak!). Amin ya rabbal alamin...

Mood sgt terkejut, terkesima, seronok, rs nk guling-guling pon ado. Rs nk peluk cium cubit tampar en Suami pun ado (xper, nnt qadha pas die dah kembali di sisi)...ehehe..:)

Birthday Bash!!

Birthday boy xde, tp kek jer ade, try wat choc ganache, menjadik, suke! Eventhough xbape nk ikot resepi, just nk perabiskn sourcream lebihan wat cheesecake yg xbape nk menjadi. Sebb ckp xbape nk menjadi, bhgn top cheesecake tu xbp keras, die cam jadi lembik, kene mkn gune scoop. Bahagian crust tu, jadik. So, skang ni tersimpan kt freezer, so keras la...hahaha...resepi gune simple resepi jer, xde gune gelatin. Nnt nk cube yg gune gelatin pulak. Rasanya ritu ms buat tu, urm...rs mcm terlebih sourcream psl xsukat pon (mls nk punya psl! main boh jer!), tp rs cheesecake tu ade, sedap, lg sedap dr secret resepi, ehehehe...buleh buat lagi...oh, sy buat stroberi cheesecake campur dgn basic cheesecake recipe tu. Potong stoberi kecik2, campur dlm batter cheesecake tu jer...eheheh..tp serius, rs cheesecake die...hmm..buleh wat jual kot...ehehe..masuk bakul angkat sendiri yek! hihihi...

Oh gambar di atas tu, sikecik nk usik stoberi, xdpt, tu yg nanges2. Suh duduk amik gambar dgn kek, nanges-nanges jugak psl die xdpt nk usik stoberi tu, Si abang, gambar kabur sbb dh suh duk diam-diam posing depan kek, xmau, die igt mamanye tgh amik video ke ape (nampak gaya kene bli hi-speed camera ni!) dok beraksi gaya ben10 nk tuka jadi alien. Tu la psl gambar kabur...:)

Stoberi asal australia, beli kt psr mlm jer, sekotak dlm 400g, RM6 jer, 2 kotak, RM10, rasa die pulak, masam-masam manis. Lagi lama simpan, lagi masam....:)

Resepi Choc Ganache (topping tu je, bukan kek) - ni utk siket jer

Lebih kurang 100g Cooking Chocolate (bittersweet/dark choc/semisweet) dipotong-potong kecil - hancur pon xper, lagi bagus. Ketepikan dalam mangkuk.

Lebih kurang 50 ml sourcream (atau ape-ape cream - whipped cream ke, saya nk perabiskan sour cream psl tu gune sourcream) + 1/2 sudu makan butter (atau unsalted butter to saya gune butter biasa tu jer), masuk dlm periuk, panaskan sampai die menggelegak, dah menggelegak tu, tutup api. Nak panas dlm microwave pon buleh, make sure butter cair dan mixed well dgn sourcream tu.

Cepat-cepat, tuang ke atas coklat yg dah separa hancur/hancur tu. Recipe ckp, tunggu sat, tp saya terus kacau, dan chocolate tu akan melted bersama-sama cairan sour cream+butter tu. Kacau cepat-cepat until smooth.

Kemudian, leh gune tuang atas kek, nak letak in between kek pun buleh...cepat-cepat kemaskn semasa ganache tu masih cair. Sbb nnt bile dh sejuk, die susah nk kemas-kemas kan..jadi buruk pulak...ehehe...

Simple je kan...selamat mencube!

Kek tu, Banana Choc Cake, recipe leh tgk kt joyofbaking.com. Sedap, anak2 saya sgt suka kek tu, especially kalau buat gune pisang emas, mmg sgt sedap, kurangkn sukatan gula sedikit kalau gune pisang emas. Senang membuatnye! Xgune mixer pon!Selamat mencube!

Impian Saya

Baru jap ni baca blog isteri kepada seorg kawan. Pengalaman bersalin die. Adalah lebih kurang macam pengalaman ke-2 saya. Gynae pon gynae yg sama, baby yg kuar pon agak besar jugak. Untungnya dia, die xperlu byk jahitan, xmacam saya, banyakkkk sebab degil xnak episiotomy gara-gara, takut menjerit ala tarzan perempuan bila dgr bunyik digunting itu.

Tapi sebenarnye, pengalaman VE yang paling menggerunkan. Itu adalah saket yg sgt tak terthn beb! Buleh agak dh mcm melecet. Satu lagi pengalaman masa nk insert/take out catheter utk buang urine. So, 2 tu la, pd saya lebih saket drpd nk beranak. Dan perkara itu masih mengerikan saya. Sama ada nurse tu kasar atau pengalaman xcukup atau mmg badan saya sensitif, xtahu la. Tapi tu la 2 kesakitan yg sgt sy rs traume utk experience berkali-kali.

Pengalaman pertama, sbb fresh, so rs jelah sume, tp serius, ade penyesalan, dan sy baiki utk pengalamn ke-2, pun masih ade kekurangan, jadi inshaAllah, saya akan cube sesuatu yg lain yg org lain dh cuba dan ternyata berkesan, especially nk elakkn koyak..(gulp!)

Rasa dah xsanggup menahan kesakitan selepas bersalin tu, ms yg pertama, hampir 3 hari, saya xmampu nk angkat punggung. Org kene papah. Saya pon xtahu kenape? Sbb pethidine kah? Bersalin kedua, ubat cuci xsesuai, dpt yg sesuai, tp hospital buleh pulak xbg bwk balik, teruk kn?? So ada jelah ujian nya, suami dh hangin2 dah, yelah, dah isteri asyik mengadu pedih2, duduk cemane pon asyik xkene ajer disbbkn ubat basuh yg xsesuai dgn kulit.

Jadi utk ke-3? Saya tangguhkan sehingga rasa keberanian itu datang sekali lagi. Apepun saya tetap mengimpikan bersalin secara natural, xpelru warded dulu, xperlu induce, xperlu nk masuk ubat bontot, xperlu nk psg catheter (oh, kali kedua saya bernasib baik, sbb dpt nurse sgt baik dan memahami sy xnak catheter jadi selamat la, sbb pengalaman pertama wat saya serik sbb rs pedih nk pee after delivery tu -- GILA PEDIH + saket nyut2 pas bersalin!), owh...sambung impian bersalin saya, contraction kt rumah, sampai2 spital, terus bersalin baby kuar, xde jahit2...sume natural, xyah nk cucuk2...owh..indahnya! AMEEENNNNN....

Jadi bila nk ke-3 tu jgnlah ty sy, nnt sy stress! hehehe..:)

Sarcastic

Actually I just read some of the emails thread from my condo yahoogroup. I feel a little bit annoyed with a few commentators which leaves sarcastic comments. They simply condemning the others without really knowing the others. I bet they never talk to each other pun in real life.

People makes mistake. Nobody is perfect. That is reality. It is really annoying, some people loves to loath that they are bright, smart, got skills and talent in some area and is that permit you to criticise other people without investigate in depth whether the allegations are true or fake?

I feel pity to those who have to read those comments which is really sarcastically condemning people. (ala..mcm perli-perli la...tp yg perli-perli tu macam bagus sgt!) I feel these people yg suka condemn2 ni is very unprofessional. And the same person, also raised about racial sentiment in the yahoogroup when nobody raised about it! The same person also raised faith issue when no other person raised about it!

And then, the same person really loves to blame people. I really wish this lady got off from the yahoogroup because, she has already create disharmony among the owners. And her comments is about a page long. Sometimes I read the thread because I would like to know the update of issues in my condo but the moderator blocked the JMB from giving comments in the yahoogroup. (Macam on purpose, so everybody hates JMB, kesian diorg!)

Why can't we just be a good person with a good heart?

Gem Bowling

Yesterday I had a fun 'hi tea' with my colleaugues. We went out @4pm headed to Times Square for a bowling tournament. Wah..sounds like wow! Nahh...it was only just for fun anyway after a tiring weeks of getting the best words out of head for PPA..eheh..

28 registered, but only 23 turns up. So there was an xtra lane. Some of them really utilized the time given of 2 hours game. I've only managed to complete 2 games as I need to go back early (but still late though..:(..).

Yesterday was my comeback for bowling after almost 6 years since the last bowl I had (the first time I met my husband then, hehe). I don't have any special skill to bowl. Just swing the bowl on the lane..but I guess, I need my own sweet time next time I played. I was in a rush as I want to finish early!

And guess what, I got 6 'masuk longkang', no strike..:(..so 'hampehs'!!

I must do better next time! My promise! :)

A Bliss Birthday!

I am 29th now. Feel OLD though! Fortunately, I always think I am 23rd, don't know why. hehehe...last time, I feel like I am always 18th. Well, my body age is actually 18! :)

I would rather say I was all alone on my birthday. My most loved ones was not around, and what kind of birthday feeling would I have? Empty and feel lost! This is the 2nd time! Last year was almost the same, he was not with me the day I celebrated another increment in my age!

Where was he? He gone for WORK! (Camni la keje petonas!)

But Allah knows best! This time, just coincidence, my mom and bro came by. And my day was filled with chit chat which made me forget about the empty and lost! I kept myself busy from the morning. Preparing meal for the duo. I made Laksa Johor for the first time! Alhamdulillah, it tasted good although not all the ingredients I managed to follow.

Then, suddenly my doorbell rang! Aqil said, "Mama, pizza..." He thought that I've ordered pizza. I thought my hubby is HOME!Because I told him earlier, I don't want any present this time, I want him back at home!

I opened the door, and it was not him. It was only a delivery of flower bouquet, together with a love shaped balloon and a box of my all time favourite chocolate, ferrero rocher. I know, it must be from him, who else aight?

I opened the message, and it reads,


So sweet kan my hubby. Actually I've always wish that he will give flowers on my birthday, on our anniversary but never. Only on our 5th anni and my birthday he did that. It is just because, both days, he was not around with me. He appreciates our presence for each other rather than to celebrate with materials. Better to put the money into something good use in the future. (we are not that rich though! :))

All time Fav choc!

In my 6 years knowing him, my birthday in Edinburgh was still the best! Simple but sweet. And he was always with me, no matter what!

LOVE YOU SAYANG SO MUCH!!!

THANX!! XOXO

Parah Dah Nie!

Recently, I always had this dream. A dream of a person that I really know in real life. Sometimes, not just a person, but two person but this one particular person, I dream of this person twice or more.



The person is one of the head in the RE department.



In that dream, I talked to him that I am so interested to join the RE team. I remembered clearly, that person asked me, you don't mind to start from beginning. And I replied, yes, of course, I don't mind if I have to start from fresh.



When I think a lot about a matter, then I will dream of it. I have a passion for a career which in my current company, with the new human made policy which I don't know where do they follow (they just don't realise that they are wasting talent..a LOT of talents but ignoring their wishes to become technical professional), the process really made me sick and tired. Not even about staff mobility and career progression, it is almost everything, my house loan enquiries, all they make it so difficult!



I think I "dah parah dah nie".....hmmmm

Saket Tengkuk

Saket tengkuk hari ni, smlm naik hantu dgn Aqil psl die kacau tido sy. Saya mmg pantang org kacau sy tido especially masa sy tgh betul2 keletihan a.k.a FLAT! Memang kene sembur baik punya! Kesian Aqil. Tapi bebudak ni, cepat pulak die OK. Pas mandi, dah buleh bergurau macam biasa.

Hmm, kn dh dpt balasan cash sbb mrhkn anak, saket tengkuk hari ni. Padan muka sendiri! Asif pulak demam main-main. Jap suam, jap sejuk. Macam-macam, bila jadi macam ni, saya lah org yg paling risau, sbb the other half is not around, jd sgtttt susah hati bila budak2 menunjukkan tanda-tanda xsihat.

Bila susah hati, saya makan pon kurang, minum lagiii kurang...jadinya..saya cepat leteh...otak pulak ligat memikirkn ape punca saket, langkah2 yg perlu diambil, plan nk masak ape, plan nk kemas bahagian rumah yg mana, plan nk mula kemas pukul berapa...and the list goes on.....dugaan dan cabaran menjadi seorg single mother...sgt terasa...kdg2 nk hilang akal pun ada sbb tak tahan dgn nakal anak...tambah bile tinggal di negara yg panas ni...ambil masa nk sejuk...:)

Putus Cinta

Owh...sungguh cliche tajuk diataskan! Haha...

Owh, I'm married with 2 kids OK, and 1 husband...eh...mesti lah! :)

Saya ade terbaca artikel dlm akhbar tempatan, die mengulas statistic berapa yg budak-budak yg wat panggilan kecemasan ke talian (alamak..lupa la nombor die..hahaha) utk melayan masalah kanak2. Ramai gile yg mengadu didera oleh parents, not just physically but also psychologically. Kesian... Then, ade satu artikel lain khas menceritakan ade remaja berumur 17 thn nk bunuh diri sbb putus cinta. 17 thn kan baru SPM. Isk, ape nak bercinta-cinta ni..ish..geli ai! (xsdar diri betul..dulu sendiri pon sibuk admire org tu org ni lahh....huhuhu) Tak salah bercinta kalau pandai mengawal. Pandai bahagikan focus. Umur muda lg, belajar la...tu lebih penting. Tapi kalau dgn adanya chenta hati, semangat belajar tu meninggi...tu dh jd sesuatu yg positif kn! (ini mmg berlaku pd saya dulu! hiks!)

Cemane tetibe cinta yg disulam terputus di tgh jln?? Nak pengsan kah?? Hehe...bg org yg xpernah mengalami, mungkin xdpt nk imagine. Tapi seriously, putus cinta ni saket, saket sgt2 sbb die melibatkan emosi. Emosi kalau tidak dikawal akan memakan diri! Cinta tu lahir dr emosi, perasaan. Bila kita dh lama selesa dgn cinta itu, kemudian cinta tu tarik diri, mmg akan terasa kehilangan, kosong...Untuk memulihkan emosi itu pon mmg mengambil masa dan hanya masa will tell!

Kalau putus cinta, relax, ramai lagi calon-calon lain OK! Lupakan org tu! Die xhargai kita sebagaimana kita sepatutnye dihargai! Cewah, nasihat xley blah! Xperlu sampai nk bunuh diri! Isk, xberbaloi lgsg! Terigt pulak ms saya putus cinta suatu ketika dulu. Frust menonggeng wa cakap lu beb! haha...exam result terus drop semester tu! Semangat hilang sekejap! Mujur saya waras, dpt berfikir walau berhari2 jugak lah berendam air mata...sy byk menyibukkn diri dgn aktiviti kwn2...terutama dgn 2 org kembar saya dlm kelas...Alhamdulillah, lama kelamaan, sy dpt terima hakikat...saya SINGLE n AVAILABLE!keskeskes...Macih M, Macih HF! hihi..korangla menceriakn hidup aku weh!!! XOXO

Ha...pehtu..result exam pun naik balik...dpt grad with flying colors...serius...xtipu...agaknye council baik hati kot ms tu...hahaha...kan HF kan! Tu la die rezeki yg dtg...tiap suatu yg berlaku tu..pasti ade hikmahnya...sy berkenalan dgn suami yg skang yg cukup thn dgn kerenah sy yg "pelbagai" (kdg2 rs berslh kt die psl sy suke wat perangai xmatang!).

Putus cinta mungkin menandakan org tu xsesuai dgn kamu, dan kamu bakal menemui org lain yg lebih cocok! Putus cinta mungkin ujian utk kamu supaya lebih tabah, mungkin di ms akan dtg, ade dugaan lain yg dtg, kamu lebih mudah menghadapinya! Putus cinta mungkin spy kamu dn couple kamu berfikir lebih matang, mungkin buleh sambung balik, dan situasi akan lebih baik selepas itu...mana tahu kan!

Ha...pesanan dlm lagu ni..mmg buleh dipakai...

"kalau berpacaran jangan tunggu lama-lama
kalau dah berkenan berjumpalah mama dan ayah
hantarkan rombongan meminang dengan segera
kalau terlambat kekasihmu disambar buaya"

Masa Larangan Bebel/Leter

Org perempuan cukup suka berleter. Tapi skang, sebenarnye L&P equal jer.Dua-dua pon pasti berleter. Kenapela nk leter. Dan ape sebenarnye leter?

Dulu-dulu, masa kecik2, saya mmg slalu kene leter dgn mak. Kene leter psl wat sepah, kene leter psl lambat bangun nk gi skolah, kene leter psl balik umah pas main lambat etc...tp saya xpenah kene leter psl xsiap homework skolah! Sbb saya mmg budak rajin siapkan homework awal2, tp jrg cek semula...tu psl byk slh kot! Tabiat saya ni, Aqil anak saya yg sulung tu dh mengikut...smlm ms ambil dr tadika, saya kene bebel dgn die..sbb die tgh siapkan homework, dan saya sampai sedikit awal! :)

Owh, leter adalah sinonim dgn bebel yer! Okeh, mana tahu ada yg kurang vocab bahasa melayunyer kn! Hehe..saya pon masih kurang vocab bahasa melayu terutama bhs suku kaum yg berbilang kat tanah melayu ni kn!

Smlm, dptlah meluangkn masa menonton Semanis Kurma kt TV9. Topik perbincangan was "Pasangan Suke Berleter" (kalau xsilap lah!). Dalam rancangan tu, sempatlah telinga saya menangkap ade 9 masa larangan berleter..jd saya nk sharekn kt sini..mn yg saya igtlah yer! mungkin bukan sume 9 sbb sy psg volume TV rendah utk menghormati anak2 yg sedang tidur....

Pertama, jgnler meleter kt suami pagi2 ms nk g kerja....
Kedua, jgnler meleter kt suami ms baru balik keje....
Ketiga, jgnler meleter kt anak-anak ms anak2 baru bgn tidor...
Keempat, jgnler meleter ms anak-anak baru balik dr skolah..sian diorg penat...baru balik bermain ke...
Kelima, jgn meleter kt suami ms suami tgh driving, sbb die nk focus kt driving...
Keenam, jgn meleter ms g bersiar-siar/makan angin dgn suami dan anak-anak...spoil mood weh!

Eh, alamak...sempat dgr 6 jelahhh...(gigit jari!)..tp yg kt bwh ni adalah tambahan saya ....utk mencukupkan 9 jugak...ehehe...

Ketujuh, jgnler meleter ms tgh duduk makan...hilang selera makan dowh!
Kelapan, errr...jgnler meleter ms suami dan anak2 tgh seronok bermain bersama2...
Kesembilan, errr...jgn meleter anak2 masa diorg nk masuk tidor...kang ngigau kang budak2...menangis dlm tido ker...

3 di bwh tu rekaan sy...kalau ada salah..kot sapa yg tgk rancangan smlm..."tolong ingatkan" saya...xsilap sy, saya termissed yg lg 3 tu psl saya ke dapur nk basuh pinggan kottttt....ke psl Asif dah ekk...ekk...

Panaslah mlm-mlm skang...terpaksa psg ekon yg dah 2 bulan xON....

Mee Goreng 1!

Semalam before jam panah angka 5, saya sempat meluangkan minit2 terakhir berbual kosong dgn kwn sy menggunakan perantara komputer. Saya ni susah nk berbual verbally, tapi, kalau guna communicator, bende yg nk nak diciter tu...mencurah-curah kuar...kadang...berlawak spontan pon...mencurah2 idea tu datang...ehehe...sampai ade org ckp, cekapnyer saya menaip...ehehe..dh biasa chatting...of kos la cekap...kihkihkih....

Percaya tak, saya mengenal hati budi hubby pon melalui kemudahan communicator kt office ni...hahaha...ooopsss...kami berbual ttg kerja..maklumla..masa tu, kami sama-sama engineer dlm bidang yg sama...sbb tu slalu berkomunikasi utk bertuka2 pendapat dan bertanya ttg teori2 yg saya xberapa nk faham atau buat2 xfaham...eheheh...

Eh, bukan cite psl communicator, nk cite, ape yg dibual dgn kwn saya tu. Saya ckp kt die, balik nnt nk masak mee goreng. Teringin pulak. Memang saya dh bli mee tu konon nk masak weekend lepas, tp dah termasak menu lain. So tersimpan la...tahu, toge, mee...so..takutkn nnt expired, lebih baik sy masak ajer.

Jadi, sampai umah dlm 5.40ptg, terus terkam dapur dulu. Kuarkn bahan2, potong-potong ape yg spatutnya dipotong. Pastu terus la menggoreng. Bajet2 kul 6 ptg nk kuar amik bebudak tp haish..kul 5.50ptg br nk start msk..apekehei? Sah-sahla lewat amik bebudak kn!

Kisahnye, ade distraction yg membuatkn sy lambat. Pagi-pagi, kalau dh xsempat, kdg2 mmg sy tinggal jer pinggang lum basuh dlm sinki, jd basuh pinggan dulu, kemudian isi air masak, sy masak pagi-pagi, sy tinggal je dlm cerek. Balik baru isi dlm bekas air masak. Kemudian masak air baru. Pastu, simpan susu yg di pam, icepack siap2 dlm fridge. Nnt lupa! Last2 bwk icepack yg xbeku then kene bekukan kt office pulak!

Tu la pasal start masak around 5.55ptg. Seblum tu panas kn kuah laksa, syg nk buang. Lagi lama simpan, lagi sdap, bak kata mak saya..hahah..(angin mkn laksa ni...asyik burpppp jer!). Goreng punya goreng..wahhh..nampak menarik...dah tahu bajet, minyak byk mn nk pakai, then, bhn2 perisa, spt biasa, main campak2 ajer...and habit sy, sy jarangggg rs masakan saya..ok..6.15 siapppp...

Terus kuar amik bebudak.

Sampai umah, lyn budak2, igt nk mkn mee tu pas bebudak tido, sekali Aqil berkeras xmo tido kalau sy xde dlm bilik. Alih-alih, dgn saya sekali lena diulit bantal2 peluk.Hehehe...

Terjaga kul 11.30 mlm, kemudian terus terigt mee. Tp rs lebih afdhal tido sbb Asif dh resah gelisah sbb cuaca panas. Psg ekon set utk 1 jam, then dush tido!

Bgn pagi, panaskn mee yg xsempat mkn bwk g office. Harap2 adela org nk mkn mee saya ni. Takut xabes, membazir! So, ms nk panaskn pagi td, sempatla rs dulu..mana tahu..kang termasin sgt pulak kn! Agak2 ok dah la...terus bungkus..

Letak kt office, berdebar2 aje nk ajak org jamah. Malu! Saya ni jarang2 memasak dan bwk ke office. Pnah la, sy buat kek kukus, sy paksa hubby bwk g office die bg kt kwn2 sbb satu adunan tu, byk sgt, xterlarat kami berdua nk habeskn. Alhamdulillah, hubby bwk balik bekas kosong! Oh, mee tadi, ha..Alhamdulillah habes jugak satu bekas eskrem tu. Mee goring biasa jer.

Tau ape yg sy igt ms sy memasak? EH...rahsia la...tp of kos dimulakn dgn bismillah...ehehe....(dlm hati, terkumat kamit menghrpkn it turns out OK! and Alhamdulillah, skill memasak dh improved!)

Kita raikan dgn daun saderi!!!! -- bak kata wonderpets bila kejayaan telah diperolehi!

Motivation...motivation

Owh, after a blast lunchie with friends on the public holiday day, now it is turn to gear up the performance write-up.

Lazy!

Demotivate!

Haha..actually, my mind is away from office. I am preparing something else, thinking of something else, and doing something else. Hehe...preparing for a BIG event! It's really take my time, lucky that I do not really have much work for now except completing the PPA.

What is PPA (Personal Performance Assessment) --> eh...correct aaahh?lol!

It is prepared twice yearly and the result will determine how much is your annual increment and how much bonus you will get for that financial (Bonus payable in the next financial). Speaking of BONUS, well, our company, may decide that there is NO BONUS for this year if they wish! Because it is non-contractual!

I am confused, many people think my company pay really good. But hey, after deduction, it less than what you've expected! The more you get, the more you will be deducted for tax (PCB)! At the end of the day, you end up scrutinizing all your monthly expenses and 'tapau' for breakfast and lunch! I would say, only ENGINEERS in my company get good pay depending on their last performance rating after the new salary remuneration. And heck, it was not me! Pathetic me! (Blame the HR system! - j.u.s.t.n.o.t.f.a.i.r to certain people!)

Eh, why is that I'm writing about HR, buang masa!..I just want to motivate myself to do the PPA write-up.

Make sure it is clear!

Make sure it is beautifully explained!

Highlight the achievement!

(Urm...just delete the one that I feel unreachable...hahahaha..weng!)

Oh Late!

Erk...late again today..:(...blame others...haha..

blame Aqil!

blame Asif!...

No, it was my bad..I shud have woke up early and arrive at work early!

Plan is a plan...but never work out as we wish!

However, I am not a customer service dept, no big deal though! I don't have meeting, just to finish my PPA only! In which will be due by this coming 25th! How to write yeah??? To praise myself so I can get a good rating??? This is my weakness as I always be humble in everything! Even when to put in writing, but my company only see those who can write the PPA beautifully, and show some extraordinary in it!

Oh, I shud have read more english book during my teenagehood, so my flowery word will be more, the way I express the the achievement would be more outstanding.

Hopefully, this cycle will give me more than I could imagine! I hope! And I really..really...REALLY hope that I CAN do what I want to do in the coming years!!! Starting from this year, I will find the way(s)...

Oh..motivation..please...I need motivation to do so.....I can live with the current situation, I feel dumb! I feel I am no expert! I want to be the expert! Yes!!!

How I Met Your Father (Part 01)

This is a story about how I met my husband! A journey on how I selcting my husband to be and how many are there that came into my life which touches my inner feeling - heart & soul. Not that many, but a few. I will not named them and it remains secret forever. Whomever knows who that person was, just keep it to yourself, do not comment or talk behind my back with other fella. This is personal and I just write it because it is part of my experience and may some of it, benefit or cheer up some of the readers!

I was not a beauty queen back in my secondary or university time. I was just a plain girl, ambitious to get good grades and then graduates with flying colors. That was my aim.

However, when you are mixing up with the other gender, the butterflies kept coming in. Some was being provoked by friends and some was a crazy crushed on secret admires!

Starting from my secondary, it started as early as when I was in form 1!. Kecik-kecik dah pandai yer! But, it wasn't me who started it. It was a gossip rumored by my classmate....just read through...:)

Pada waktu pertukaran subject, cikgu xsampai2 lagi...budak2 kelas 1 B sgtlah bising...sume mulut potpet-potpet...

Student 1: Eh, Ms J, ko tahu tak...smlmkan, budak Student 2 ngigau psl ko...
Me: Hah? tipulah, ape hal nk ngigau2 kn aku pulak???
Student 1: EH, die kn syok kt ko, ko xtahu ke???
Me: Ye ke??..tipu sgt laaa...mengarut jer!
Student 1: Iye, betul, xtipu, ha..tu die..baru masuk kelas..

Student 2 masuk kelas sambil tersenyum tersipu-sipu...saya pdg die, die pdg saya...tp mmg dlm hati, xpercaya pon...diorg ni mmg kuat melawak!

Student 1: Woi Student 2, ko mimpi Ms J smlm kn?
Student 2: *grinn* Mana ada la weiii...
Student 1: Ele, malu la tu kt Ms J...*sengeh2*

Di hari lain waktu yg lain..

Me: Weh Student 2, betulke Student 1 ckpkan tu?
Student 2: *tersipu-sipu* mana ada...
Student 3: ehehe...malu la tuu...
Me: OK...*smile*

Hehe...dialog di atas rekaan semata-mata...kihkihkih..tp mmg ade seorg ni digossipkn dgn saya because the classmate seems it fits kot..kecik sama kecik! hahaha...kelakar sgt..tp serius, sgt mencuit hati sy! Dan saya mmg xtahu sampai skang rekaan ke betul2...hrp2 rekaan la...

Tapi normal la kan kita mimpikan kwn2 kita...sampai ngigau2..boleh jadi yer tak??...xsemestinyer kita mimpi org yg kita suka sgt2 je kan!..ehehe..

OK, nnt later sambung part 02 pulak...byk nih...;)

Tayar..tayar..

Allright, yesterday I told you that I've made trouble with my hubby's car tyre. Hah, today, I would like to share with you on how to take care of your everdearest car tyres.

What?? Everdearest?? Well, from my reading, taking a good care of your tyre is as much important as taking care of your car as well! If you overlooked your tyres condition, you may increase your risk of getting car accident!

Okeh, first of all, know your tyre!!!Ha..xkenal, maka xcinta..I just getting to know my tyre as well. Yesterday, I took sometime to look closely at my car tyres. The brand, (cey...), the type, what year, where it was manufactured, the diameter, the load, the max pressure, warning signs, max speed the tyre can go, the ratio etc.

There are many type of tyre, one with tube, and tubeless, mine is tubeless. When using tubeless tyre, make sure, your valve is OK, and your rim fit with the tyre! if not, then the tyre will get deflated easily lah.And if not mistaken, most car tyre are tubeless.

How to differentiate brand new tyre with tyre "celup"??? Mostly, lorry replace with tayar celup because it is damned cheap OK! You will know it when you see serpihan tayar on the road...and its confirmed tayar celup la tu...brand new tyre is expensive, my car, which requires only 13 diameter tayar has cost me, almost 100++ per tyre.

When you are replacing tyre, check the manufacturer date! Shelf life for tyre is only 4 years and after that, the tyre, even it is new but old, will not be performing as good as the nature of rubber it has. The elasticity of the tyre, when you put in pressured air will not last longer.

And it is also advisable to replace your tyre after 4-5 years even the flower is still there! Like my case, I did not realised my tyre is already expired and when replaced, I got to realise that my tyre, if I used further may bring me into car accident. Dah nampak benang tayar tu beb...scary!!! Botak habes!!! Lucky that I trusted my instinct to replace tyre there n then! (Asalnya just to do plain maintenance jer).

When you pump your tyre, check the pressure requirement first! This can be obtained from the car manual book (if bought new) or sometimes it may be written on the side of driver's door (xcek lg!). Or, at the air pump station, there is schedule for different type of car, depending on the engine capacity/weight I think!

Usually, the front tyres will requires more pressure than the rear tyres. However, depends on the location of your engines. Most of the car, the engine located at the front. And it is also advisable that you do regular checking on your car tyre pressure every 1-2 weeks with good pressure gauge if you happened to travel a lot! Only check your tyre pressure when the tyre is cool! If you are just back from traveling, wait for 1 hour before you check! - let the tyre cool first!

OK, then, what should you do if you wrongly fill in pressure to your tyre? Hahah..OK, this was what happened to me la kan..So, release a bit of air from your tyre by pressing down the pin at the tyre (ape nama tah, tpt nk masuk angin tulaaa)..pressed it, you will hear psssssssss sound, meaning that, angin kuar ler tu!

And don't be fool with the look of the tyre. You must check the pressure not the how well it inflated actually! My bro advise me to have the tyre a bit 'buncit' sket rather than so 'tegang & bulat'. If so 'tegang & bulat', then nnt your tyre will easily 'haus' at the middle. When it is a little bit 'buncit', then, the tyre grips well with the surface it touches! So, more stable lah! Bunge pon kene makan sekata....:)

And another tips, when you are doing 3 point turn, or U turn, ensure that, you don't twist the tyre when your car is stop!, twist little by little with the car moving little by little, or nnt your tyre senang haus kt bhgn tepi (this was what happened to me, yg sampai nampak benang tyr tu...sbb my hubby yg drive and he loves doing that!)

Ok, enuff sayings, more information, you can get from this forum. So, love your tyre OK! And you are saved! (as well as your loved ones!)


That's my car getting it's bath time after loooonnnggggg time....bukan beemer tu tau!...ai xminat beemer tu....ai minat mata helanggg jerrrrr...;)

What would you do when you are in trouble??

Nice title..easy one..I'm a troublesome sometimes...and yesterday was the silliest mistake I did!

Know what it was?

Haha, I mistakenly increase my 2nd car tyre pressure! I thought the helper was right (the gas station boy) and after coming home, I found that, he was totally wrong!!! And my heart was pumping very hard, I started to sweat because I was so scared that my hubby will definitely put the blame on me! So, I did not tell him on what happened to his car!

I asked HELP in my FB...and the response really relieves me. So, last night, I can still sleep well!

I googled before sleep about tyre. How to take care on your car tyre so as it will have good performance, long lasting (advisable change your tyre every 5 years!) and can reduce the potential of accident!

I will share in the next post tomorrow!!!

Silly me! Be cautious ladies, we need to know and learn about our car if you are driving a car!!!

Tulisan Cute!

Hi...morning Monday!!..Lama cuti rs xnak bgn g keje dah...cam syiok jer bergomol dgn bebudak kt rumah selama 4 hari...ehehe...

Owh, saya mmg xsempat update kt umah blog ni, busy sgt2...kalau seminit sy alih perhatian ha...mcm2 leh berlaku....kendian pulak, kalau sy leka dgn intenet, then, bebudak kacau daun...haaa...mmg tetibe hangin puting beliung saya dtg menerpa...dan bebudak kenelah sound baikkkk punya dgn saya...kendian, (bp byk kendian dah...hihi), sy rs berslh...dan rs terganggu...so..adalah lebih baik..sy xON laptop lgsg...tgk status FB pon..kt phone ajer...baca blog org pon kt phone saja...ehehe...

Oh, terbaca komen Nor, nk tahu mana dpt tulisan comey cam budak sekolah ni...kalau nor nk tahu...saya tulis sendiri lah...haaa...spesel kn kompite sy...kihkihkih.....gurau jer....xdelah...saya xsempat nk capture gambar cara2...tp hrp2 Nor fhm ler ek...instruction kt bwh ni..

1) Mula-mula...kt dashboard tu, g kat "Design"
2) Kemudian g kat " Template Designer"
3) kemudian g kat "Advanced", kt sini nnt kuar ler...tulisan2 pilihan utk blog....ehehe..senang jer...xsusah la..utk org yg xbp IT savvy cam sy ni...kihkihkih....

Selamat mencantikkn tulisan...:)..rsnye, ade org...die dpt copy paste script utk tulisan...mungkin ambil dr mn2..tp sy xrajin..kendian edit html utk template blog tu...pon buleh jugek....